just got back from church not too long ago.. meeting went well.. not too bad.. and i learnt quite a bit on how to allocate duties and making sure that everyone has a duty and the flow of procedure for 1st Recon night itself.. and i've been assigned to assist auntie tina.. cause according to auntie nancy, she sounded sure that i'll be level rep next year and this year, i can learn from auntie tina as she 'imparts some of her skills' to me.. well, taking it as a learning experience.. and you know what? it has always been my wish to 'get promoted' and be level rep.. but after hearing what auntie nancy had said, i really don't know to be happy or sad.. level rep.. next year.. well, if God wants me to be the level rep, i guess HE has his plans and HE knows what's best for me.. but like what i've said, taking it as a learning experience.. maybe it's not a bad idea to be level rep, afterall..

*edits:
heeded her advice and smsed him.. but i guess he was busy studying cause his last msg was '... talk to you another time.' well, maybe he is busy.. owells.. i guess he won't be free till 1-2 weeks later which also means i dun think i'll see him online or get to talk to him for another 1-2 weeks.. maybe during this period, i shouldn't think too much.. like how i adviced her.. and i seeked her advice on that matter which i've been figuring out since sunday... she said it's rather subjective.. i guess so too.. i just hope i'm not thinking too much.. like how she can't wait for one month to be over, for me now, i can't wait for the next 1-2 weeks to be over.. at least i think he'll get back to me.. :S

having doubtful hopes now...
having little regrets now...
maybe i shouldn't have did that...
but since i did what i did,
at least i know i won't hear from you..
till 1-2 weeks later..