如果人的记忆就像电脑一样，可以把不要的回忆一次 format 掉，那该有多好 - 林晓如
只要心里还存有一点点的不甘心， 就还不是放弃的时候 - 宋杰修

This shows how insane I am over 醉后决定爱上你。Awesome storyline, great cast, a wonderful on-screen couple. I'm just going crazy over it, especially over 张孝全. I'm following both the episodes from Taiwan and Singapore. Just can't wait for the next episode. Sometimes, I wish time will fast forward to the next episode. Although the ending of the two leads may be expected, but I think what anyone will be looking towards for would be the process and the romantic scenes between 张孝全 and 杨丞琳. Or at least, that's for me.
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3 days of HRMS training. 2 down, 1 more to go. And the tired feeling is even more so as compared to back at work. It sounds ironic but I wonder why so especially when I don't start so early, I end early and the venue is at Suntec. Yet I like the feeling of coming home earlier than usual, without the usual 6pm crowd at the MRT stations and the bus stops. Basically empty buses, empty trains. And I think I'm gonna sound crazy but I kinda miss my workstation. LOL!
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I wonder why do people complain that their lives are pathetic and sad? Isn't it up to a person to determine how enjoyable life should be? Not saying I don't complain, but I make it a point to change my life when it's heading towards that sad and boring and colourless life. It's your life, you should be the one to decide how enjoyable it should be, how interesting your life should be. Once again, it just leads back to the saying that this is my life, I determine how it will be like.
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On a random sidenote, I can also never understand why friends around me want us to get together faster. I wonder why. But it takes 2 hands to clap, not 1.
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Starting to...

Enjoy the personal time to myself every morning. Calls it my ME time. Often, we're so caught up with our work that on our way to work, we think of the huge pile of work we need to clear everyday, to the extent that some of us may even dream of our work at night! But the past 3 weeks of going to work on my own, taking the bus, I'm starting to enjoy it. With music playing on my mp3, it just relaxes my mind for a couple of mins to think of how good the coming day will be, doing self-reflections or reminicising those memories with every song attached to those memories and simply, breathing in the fresh morning air (at least it's fresh as compared to the air by mid morning or lunch time). It's like the quiet time between me and myself and I just love such feelings. At least until I board the train and my mind is put to sleep mode for 30 mins till I reach buona vista. LOL!

I guess this is how simple my life can be and how simple I want my life to be. I don't need to have those super happenings (likened to bright bold colours) everyday. Once in a while, maybe, to add additional colours to my life. But it's the simple happenings of everyday - meeting up with friends once in a while, chatting with that special someone or a close friend at night, be it through sms, facebook or msn. Life can be so simple yet fulfilling and colourful. It's the experiences along the way that make your life colourful, that make your life journey different from that of others. (:

It's those simple things in life that make one smile. (:
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Birthday gathering at Burp's Cafe, a punctured car tyre, Mini Cooper experience, Mr Teh Tarik, lunch at Macs with a close friend (whom I've been through a lot with) along with teasing and laughing and suaning. All these sums up my wonderful weekend. Totally awesome, totally fun. :D

Can't wait to get my new laptop this weekend! IT show, probable meet up with him on Friday (if I get his swiss roll), steamboat with either Tracy and her friends or him and Bugis peeps, new laptop on Sunday! Looking forward to these activities. Can't wait and these are my motivation for my week! (:

And so it still shows how much you mean to me.
That I would do anything for you.
That I would go all way out just to meet you.
All for the word L-O-V-E <3

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So what if it's been days? What's happened has happened. What's said has been said. What's done has been done. Don't expect me to treat nothing has happened and everything is fine. Because the truth is all these has become facts, has become history and I can't pretend it has never happened. So don't put your expectations on me and expect me to do it your way cause I'm sorry but I won't.
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Reflections;

Emotional rollercoaster ride. But now, my emotions have settled. From being angry to now simply, calm. It was a feeling of betrayal. So how would one expect me to pretend that it didn't happen, such words were not said etc. But rather than say I'm still angry, I'd rather now say that I've accepted those facts cause facts can't be changed, just like history. To me now, some words no longer mean a thing to me. They just become strangers with familiar names. For the past 21 years, to be honest, my true smiles from the heart came from friends. And some friends know me better than them. Because I felt that I could trust friends more than I could trust them.

Calming down, I've never felt loved by them all these years. Maybe cause I wasn't as independent as the first one, I wasn't as smart and clever as the second and the fourth. But be it among them or with the relatives, I never felt loved. Cause whatever I wanted as I started to grow up, more often than not, I had to use my own money to get it myself. Everything was kept within me because I felt that they couldn't be trusted and that my matters would be told to people whom I don't wish for them to know. And it has happened before.

And so right now, although on the surface, it's family. But beneath it, I'd rather choose to be independent myself. Go to work on my own, taking the bus, even if it means waking up 30 mins earlier, leaving the house 20 mins earlier and squeezing with people on the bus and spending a little more on transport everyday. They can jolly well take it that the money given to them each month is for rent. All I need every night would just be a place to stay and a place for me to shower and use the laptop. I spent more time out of the house than at home, maybe with the exceptions on weekends. But the fact is that even if it isn't now, one day I'll grow up and live my own life. And thankfully, I'm not very much depending on them to give me allowance, to feed me or to pay for my degree studies (which I intend to pay on my own, even if it means delaying my further studies for a few more years). But I guess what really made me angry and upsetted me most in this incident was that it's scary that even family members can turn the tables around and say things that you never thought they would say. Yet it's through this incident that made me tell myself that I can trust no one except myself and those who prove that I can trust them.

I may be a nothing or a nobody to you, or be a disappointment in you.
But to me, what others see or think of me doesn't matter
Cause this is my story.
My life's journey's written by me.
The only outcome at the end of this journey is to ask myself,
Have I made my life an interesting and fruitful one?
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