i saw someone i didn't expect to see today.. i wasn't prepared in seeing him today but i did.. happy feelings soon turned the other way round.. felt emo, sad and lost.. have no idea why either.. hui yee thinks i'm putting too much hope in this and i'm seeing him as a potential bf.. nicole thinks i'm thinking too much and she advised that what's mine will be mine and she'll walk through this time with me now that i've spent her rough times with her and her fairytale can now continue happily.. caroline says that because it's unexpected, it's a coincidence, God decided that we should meet... and i think that i do agree with nicole and hui yee that i am putting too much hope in him, i am thinking too much (again) and that i'm indeed seeing him as a potential bf.. this feeling for him is a different feeling from my eye candies yet is not the same as crushes.. more than an eye candy but not yet a crush.. however, they feel it is a crush already, no more an eye candy.. i don't know how i'm feeling now and why i'm feeling this way.. can't bring myself to smile and yet i don't feel that sad.. caught in between the feelings of being happy and sad.. my post doesn't seem to make sense, does it? just let me rabble on here, will you? owells.. someone, do me a favour, help me get those logical reasonings into my stupid head..

even though this meet came unexpectedly,
i'm prepared to see you on sunday..
but like what she said,
the feeling of being prepared,
and the feeling of really seeing you...
is very very different..
can i accept that difference in feelings??