big commotion last night.. thought i could blog abt church and stuff but no... that damn sis forgot to close the window before leaving for TM and i thought she closed it.. it started raining and when i got home, i had the biggest shock of my life.. my whole laptop was wet.. my precious laptop was wet.. how nice.. tried drying it and turning on but no, it didn't work.. was quite upset that i started crying and the parents weren't of any help.. they just kept saying that i should have closed the window even if i wasn't the last to leave the room and that i should take proper care of my laptop.. like hell... the sister is so pampered that they don't think she's at fault too.. so was quite upset, cried, smsed nicole and hui yee and ended up talking to hui yee on the phone for more than 1 hour.. but it was nice chatting with her although we seeked consolation in each other because of our problems.. these people can really make me smile and feel better.. :)

anyway, was in church yesterday.. met caroline up... chatted a little before going up to class.. caroline said she thought she saw him if she didn't see wrongly.. haha.. owells.. i didn't see him yesterday.. but i'm not sure if God answered my prayers.. good weather or unexpected happening.. well, there was good weather in the afternoon and something unexpected happened.. so did God answer my prayers? i really don't know.. regarding him, me and nicole chatted a lot on this.. and sometimes i ask myself, ain't i foolish to worry and be anxious about him when we aren't together.. why am i bothering myself with such worries? i really have no answer.. or maybe i do but it could be self-denial.. nicole said maybe it's best for me not to see him now.. but even if i don't see him, i think about him and that subjective matter and yes, the emo-ness comes.. but i shall try.. i foresee that my coming posts for the next few days will be rather emo and sad? lol.. owells.. i'm feeling damn tired now.. slept for less than 5 hours last nite thanks to the coffee drink i had for dinner.. maybe i shall sleep a while later.. haha.. ok, off to do my stuff.. updates tonite if possible (and if nothing goes wrong..) :)

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chats with the darlings... been giving advices and they've been giving me advices.. i dunno wad to do now.. just like what caroline just said, she's giving me advices all because she doesn't want to see me suffer and suffer when he doesn't know anything.. haiz.. i really dunno lah.. at a loss.. and i'm promising them not to think so much.. but it's always easier said than done.. but i know if i can keep myself busy and occupied, i eventually can think lesser and stress myself out lesser.. owells.. i really dunno.. darlings, what shld i do other than wait??

were those answers just pure coincidence?
or are they the answers that God wants to tell me?
i'm at a loss now...
will you tell me what to do?