got home at 8pm.. tired after one whole day in church, helping my sister with FHC.. my mood currently is good.. not too bad.. at least i'm smiling.. i seriously have no idea what was wrong with me the last 2 days lah.. you'll see why soon.. this morning, i had this scared feeling of seeing him.. i was just scared cause i didn't know how i would be if i saw him thus, i didn't want to see him at all.. went to church, busied myself.. running to and fro, putting up decorations with auntie evelyn's 2 girls, sarah and nicole.. her girls were helpful and sweet.. after that, went to verbist hall, walked down to church foyer and then to church main entrance.. the main door was open and i was standing with steph.. the next thing i knew was steph said hi to angel's fren, told me something and then she said hi to him.. and unknowingly, i was standing next to him.. of course it was for a few seconds cause he was busy getting ready for mass and stuff.. was very warm so i stood inside the church to enjoy the air-con and he was there too.. after that mass started and he was standing diagonally facing me...

ok, how did i feel? at first, not much feelings cause i really was busy and looking after my ex-class, my mind was not on him.. at that point in time, i wasn't exactly happy nor was i sad.. more of neutral.. after mass, i started talking to nicole and yah, she felt that i'm forcing this happiness out of me.. but honestly speaking, although i only saw him during mass, i was happy already.. at least seeing him now makes me smile and be happy and not sad whenever i see him.. maybe cause i expected it.. that's why.. i'm wanting to talk to hui yee but that girl is just not answering her phone.. dunno whether she still working but so late le.. owells.. in conclusion, although there's still that tinge of mixed feelings, i'm happy i saw him today.. even though we just smiled and stood next to each other, not saying a word.. :) p.s: my mood swings are scary the last few days.. hopefully i'll be in a happy mood this week...

i hope every time i see you..
it'll be a happy feeling
and not a sad one..