exams officially start tmr for me! gosh.. how time flies.. i've completed all topics for all subjects already!! good or bad? haha.. but will still do my revision for the next few papers the day before.. to all, happy mugging!! bear with it for another 3 more days! it'll be over in a flash!! :)

my start of the holiday has started to be filled with activities.. or rather, at least till the end of this week... thursday after MBS paper, i'm out till evening(?) with nicole and caroline.. accompanying them to study at marine parade library.. shall help them with econs since i studied that last sem and think i didn't fare that badly... will need to dig up my notes from my box..you know, having not seen nicole for more than a year and only seeing caroline once every few months, i so treasure the times when we can meet, especially when they have their A levels this year.. friday is dinner with bestie!! saturday is church day.. auntie tina needs me to help her with the class so i said ok since exams are over, i've got nothing to do at home and i may meet him, so why not? after all, i've giving word that i would help out on saturdays if i'm free.. after that is house-warming party at mum's fren's place.. sunday is church day again! church till afternoon, followed by rest time at home and then off to the Singapore Flyer in the evening and then dinner! gosh, this week seems to be filled with activities from thursday onwards and i'm sooo looking forward to it!! after that, it's time to pick up the phone and ask people like TRACY and hui yee out for shopping and meals!! gosh, hopefully, my holidays will be filled and will be spent fruitfully! hear that, girls from poly?? haha! we'll still hang out during the holidays, rite?! haha.. ok, i'm off to wait for dinner and to do my HR paper! :)

a million thanks to all who remembered my birthday! :) thanks to nicole, who was the first to wish me.. thanks to caroline, tracy, sherlyn, ben, kelly, desheng, xiao min, yee sin, DJ, ting and fiona.. thanks for remembering ur fren's special day as she turned a year older! thanks to my lovely P2 kids, who sang a birthday song to me as i entered class upon returning from CATS office.. they were so sweet and i nearly cried (although after that, they got me a little angry cause of their craftwork.. but that's not the main issue..) thanks to my two lovely partners, auntie evelyn and auntie teresa for their well-wishes.. thanks to the parents' frens who wished me when at dinner just now.. and lastly, thanks to my family.. if it wasn't for them, i would not have been here, being who i am today, supporting me in my decisions and giving me those invaluable advices.. of course the most important thanks goes to the woman who was in labour 18 years ago, who went through much pain and suffering to bring this little child, now 18, to this world.. thank you mummy! :) of course, someone very close to me has yet to wish me.. i hope she remembers.. haha.. once again, a million thanks to all of you! and i can now proudly say: I AM FINALLY 18!! OF LEGAL AGE!! ;)

a post on the past and this friendship which i treasured a lot.. i met this very good fren of mine from secondary school just now at parkway.. this fren.. she went through a lot with me.. how we met in primary 6 when she was my junior since she only became a prefect in primary 6.. at the end of the year, i thought, ok, that was it.. just a hi-and-bye fren.. but no! we slowly became the best of frens when we ended up in the same class in sec 1.. same group and we started our 'class family'.. where hui yee was the grandma, she was the grandma's sister and i was the maid cause i was often bullied by them and yet continued to help them buy drinks and collect their homework as i was sitting in front.. and i would remember the time when she got scolded by mr lee cause of her maths book.. she went to the toilet to cry and we were all rather worried for her cause she didn't seem the kind to cry.. after that incident, she hated mr lee like nuts! haha! but then again, everyone in class didn't really like him esp when he was our maths and pe teacher..

in sec 2, i wanted to sit behind her so that she could help me since she was very good in maths and smart.. but no, i ended up sitting in a different grp but still continued buying drinks for her during recess and that year, i became the tissue woman.. still remembered the time when she wrote that stupid little 'marianne and *** sitting on the tree' song.. and that embarrassed me in front of the whole class.. luckily our teacher didn't see it cause i still remember that day it was raining so assembly was in class.. it made me real mad and i didn't talk to her the whole day even though the usual happenings still happened.. and she knew it and she apologised to me through friendster.. well, i'm not the petty type so we were back to normal after that although i did say i was angry with her.. sec 2 that yr, our friendship nearly broke down cause of an incident.. and it happened just before my birthday.. she however was still on my birthday party invitation list and i thought she was angry and wouldn'd turn up.. but the night of the party, she called and we made up and she came! that time, her partner had to act as a messenger btw us.. coming to think of it now, it was rather childish of us.. haha...

sec 3 we split class.. but we still attended core geog lectures tgt with the rest of the girls.. had fun cause we wld sit and talk and eventually get scolded by the teachers for being noisy.. lol.. and because we split class, we slowly stopped hanging out tgt yet we wld still keep in contact.. this continued till sec 4.. although now we are both busy with school work and since our timings are different, it's difficult to meet up.. yet we have each other on our mind and occasionally, she would send an sms or give a call and we wld chat.. sometimes, i would be the one doing it.. after all, in a friendship it's a give-and-take.. it's the same as being in a BGR.. no matter where we are, no matter what we're doing, i'll always remember the times i had with her.. the times where i would go over to her place to study and risk getting scolded by mum and she would cover up for me.. the times where i would go back with her tgt after school.. the times where she would use me as a cover whenever she was going out with boys and didn't want to let her mum know.. the times when i used her as a cover when i was going out with guys from my class.. and she would inform me beforehand and vice versa.. i will never forget this fren of mine.. she will always be the fren whom i will look for when i need a listening ear for very personal matters.. she will always be the one who i will provide her with a listening ear and a shoulder if she needs.. and this fren will always be placed the first few in my friends' ranking.. her name is NICOLE TAN.. :)

dear nicole,
if you ever need a listening ear...
or a shoulder to cry on..
always remember, that you've got a fren called Marianne..
she'll always be there for you..
love ya! :)

surprisingly, my progress everyday for studying seems to be good.. by evening, i'm done with my studying.. this of course excludes the finance paper which i have to do daily.. yet what worries me is i may have completed my daily to-do topics but have i really remembered what i've studied? hopefully, i don't forget everything that i've studied earlier on.. otherwise, it is just sooo bad and terrible.. and during this period of studying, i've helped friends out and they have helped me out as well.. me and ben, me and yee sin or me and xiao min.. helping to answer each other's questions and if unsure, asking other friends or Mr DHL aka yong sing.. haha.. he answered one qn that ben asked me and me nor xiao min couldn't answer.. grateful to him!! :)

over a period of time, certain friendships have changed.. the friendship between me and yong sing have been better and i guess, i would say stronger after we clarified things.. the friendships between me and the girls have also become stronger as they stood by me during my darkest periods.. but for some, the friendship is still there but maybe not like before.. yet i'm thankful for these friends! cause be it now or in the past, they've heard my woes and gave me advice.. they played a beautiful role in my life.. ok, no idea why i'm writing this.. maybe cause a new friendship was created through me.. so these reflections.. and i think i've been influenced by my younger sis.. to occasionally write bipolar things on my blog.. haha.. but that's life, isn't it? and i think i'm a pig.. a hungry pig.. i get hungry super easily these few days and it's always 2-3 hours after i had lunch.. does studying use up my energy so fast? like now, i'm hungry again.. guess i'm off to get food from downstairs.. gosh, i'd better exercise during the holidays! ok peeps, happy mugging!! ;)
*edits:
after so long, my eye candy finally added me on friendster!! made me so happy.. does this mean a good start as friends? lol.. nevertheless, i'm happy :)

i will get the answer that i want in 2 days...
will you be there??
i hope so..
and i want a happy birthday this year.. :)

hell, i clicked the wrong button and now, i have to retype everything again.. anyway, after much changes, xiao min and yee sin evetually came to study.. had fun with them from the time we confirmed that we're studying again to the time i saw xiao min off at the bus stop.. xiao min, dun worry, ur funny event is known only to me and yee sin!! haha.. but they're fun to be with.. exchanging notes and stuff, slacking, munching, piano and those emails.. great way to relax after the many days of hectic studying!! and talking about studying, i've yet to touch on my subjects for today.. hopefully i can complete studying at least 2 subjects by 11p.m.. otherwise i foresee another late night which i'm totally drained.. so i'd better jia you! anyway, after exams, i'm so going to enjoy and relax!! with sec sch frens like hui yee and tracy and with poly mates like xiao min, sherlyn and those from my current class.. okok, back to my 'best fren' aka my lecture notes.. ;) happy mugging frens!

as the songs play, track by track,
those beautiful memories play in my mind..
and yet amidst those beautiful memories,
i see your face..
and all i wanna say is..
i miss you...

i just had to blog abt this thing which i thought was amusing to me.. was just talking to ben and he went for the additional finance lesson today.. and when just after i asked him if many went, the next thing that popped into my head was 'I bet you missed me..'?? hahahaha... amusing huh? ok, maybe not.. lol.. just finished my macs.. and yes, i know i shouldn't be eating oily food but you know, when i'm alone at home and hungry, i can't be bothered.. haha.. ok, i'm off to bathe before carrying on with the last subject on my schedule - finance.. update tonight again! ;)

doctor visit today.. guess it really was mild gastric flu.. doctor said i wasn't badly dehydrated despite having the runs and vomiting.. so i guess more rest would do the body good.. dun worry, frens! the girl's fine.. :) was at home today, studying and resting and munching.. haha.. believe or not, despite my occasional stomach pains and the toilet visits, i still felt like eating.. but up to now, my stomach's feeling a lot better although it still hurts.. i shall rest more and cut down on my food intake.. frens have been telling me i've put on weight cause my face shows it all.. drats, this is just so bad.. although my face is rounder, makes me look 'cuter' but no, this is not right.. my weight has to be lost.. haha.. anyone keen on exercising during the hols after the exams?? haha..

my parents are back frm penang! love the shoes mum got me.. haha.. wearing those on sunday to match my jumper!! haha.. sunday's a special day for me.. just looking forward to it.. :) anyway, someone made me smile just now.. the feeling for him is just mutual.. we're just frens and really, our current relationship with each other is so much better than when i had feelings for him.. because occasionally, i'll receive smses frm him and these smses, although doesn't have much significance, always is able to put a smile on my face.. reason being, it's because we've cleared matters that's why he's smsing me just like frens.. if u understand what i mean.. it's not easy to explain but yah, i guess the point is there.. if i'm feeling better and i'm going to school tmr, i'll see him.. and the last sms he sent me was 'ok can. have a good rest then'... this just simply makes me smile.. to him, no other feelings.. just purely frens and i'm treating this friendship as one that will last forever.. he will definitely be on my wedding invitations when i get married one day.. :)

i wish the next message received on friendster...
is from you..
although i know..
it may never be..

i'm feeling out of sorts today.. not exactly my usual self.. and i can confirm one thing, he doesn't or seldom come to church on sunday to serve? cause he wasn't here today.. so caroline was right.. he attends the saturday mass.. but i wasn't that disappointed cause i expected it especially since i saw him yesterday during the 4.45pm mass. so yah.. but still, i just don't feel normal today.. maybe next week.. on that day that is special to me.. maybe i'll see him.. but like what i said, chances of me seeing him next week during the workshop is 70%.. lol... owells.. leaving it to GOD.. if God wants us to be friends, we'll eventually be frens.. but will it come true? i have no idea.. ok, i'm going back to my books.. got to complete 2 days worth of chapters.. jia you! perhaps more edits tonite.. :)

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...
can this week pass fast
so that i can get an answer to what i'm looking forward for??

*edits:
my health system sucks to the core this year.. sick dunno how many times alr.. sore throat, stomach pain, minor surgery on my hand.. and now? i think i'm down with gastric flu.. diarrhea since wednesday and i started vomiting this evening.. argh!! most prob off to the doc tmr.. now is so badly not the time to fall sick but what is happening to me?? can't stand it.. however on the other hand, although my health system sucks, i made new guy frens.. be it those hi-and-bye frens or those who will stay with me till even after poly.. guys like melvin, ben etc.. those guys.. ok, i foresee those guys lah.. my tao hua yun not bad this year wor.. better than last year.. haha.. and more crushes and eye candies as well.. don't you think so? but nevertheless, no matter how good my tao hua yun is this year, they all still can't beat this group of people who have been through my rough patch and lent me their listening ear and who i always see everyday, be it rain or shine.. they are my family and my dearest frens!! ;)

all i wish..
is just a reply from you...

tired yet happy.. smiles all on my face this evening.. :) before i say the happy things, i'm so dead meat.. i didn't study a single bit today.. and i'm freaking tired.. looks like i'll have to study 2 days' load tmr.. :( this is bad.. no more going out till after exams.. it's really bad.. totally not following my study schedule..

anyway, on a happy note! i went to church today! helped out the 3pm class.. i think that class is better than my class but just as noisy.. at least they listen.. but maybe cause i'm a new face to them, that's why they behave better.. after the class, i was contemplating whether or not to go for the 4.45 mass and i smsed caroline.. after which, at 4.35pm, i decided to go so yup i went for mass!! but he wasn't serving.. somehow expected it since the 6pm mass would be some big celebration for the altar boys and he being one of the senior(?) would serve.. was a little disappointed but was prepared for such an outcome.. then halfway during mass, i saw him near the priests' house! obviously, he didn't see me lah! but i saw him!! and immediately, i started smiling.. haha.. cause it was so unexpected.. haha.. and he was indeed going to serve the 6pm mass cause he was holding his altar boy attire.. lol.. so a smile was put on my face.. out for dinner at bugis after church..

checked my friendster just now.. he last log in yesterday but he didn't reply my msg or add me.. owells.. maybe we're not fated to be friends.. but who knows? i'll most probably see him next sunday in the afternoon.. well, at least i'm 70% sure he'll be there.. cause the altar boys are in charge of church search.. so he'll most prob be there.. if chance allows, maybe i would talk to him.. maybe i won't.. will have to depend.. but nevertheless, he made me smile a little.. :) ok, i'm off to keep my good fren aka my lecture notes company.. night peeps!!

looking forward to it...
all i'm asking for is just to be friends...
and lastly, like everyone,
my notes have become my best fren for the next 1 wk or so...

as I heard the door lock this morning at 6.30a.m, I felt the house was suddenly so quiet.. and I suddenly thought of my eye candy.. haiz.. this is bad.. and I've got a bad feeling about this...

it will be more than just what it is now...

more edits tonite (if I'm not too tired...)

*edit:

just got home not too long ago.. feeling a little tired.. but still will have to carry on studying tmr.. will be going to church tmr afternoon.. not sure if after that still going out for dinner and/or movie or not.. well, if we are, maybe i may consider going for the 4.45 mass.. maybe can catch a few glimpses of him.. if not, i may just sit at the foyer and do my studying... but if we're not going out, then after the 3pm class, i'll come home.. no point wasting time in church.. anyway, dinner with angeline and the sisters was fun! enjoyed myself especially when we went to ehub to play arcade.. fun but i think i'll be aching tmr.. lol.. tired.. haha.. and i updated her on the eye candy as well.. haha.. well, another date with her but after exams.. :)

during dinner, i saw an sms from caroline!! gosh, after i saw the msg, i called her.. she saw him!!! ahh!! lol.. 'jealous' sia.. haha.. and according to her, he's not feeling well.. she saw him sniffing and coughing.. poor thing.. hope he get well soon.. haha.. and we were talking about tmr and stuff.. well, after knowing that tmr is St Pius's feast day, i think he will serve the 6.15pm mass tmr.. cause big event.. and his position in the altar boys ministry is quite high, i guess.. cause everytime those big masses, he's alwaes serving.. lol.. and caroline said smth which i tot was gross.. haha.. owells, if God wants me to meet him tmr, He will let me meet him tmr.. :) hmm.. i'm not sure if it's convenient to mention his name here but the way caroline addresses him to me is as if he's very close to us.. haha..

i think it will be more than just an eye candy...

many thoughts running through my head tonite.. after the meeting, after i got home.. by the 2nd half of the meeting, i wasn't mentally present alr.. but nevertheless, let me jot down my thoughts..

firstly, i'm like finally meeting angeline after donkey years!! like really!! meeting her tmr.. she's coming to my place after her driving first before deciding where we wanna go before dinner at seoul garden with steph and angel! so looking forward to it.. just talked to her on the phone.. so many things to update her about especially my new eye candy.. lol.. so excited.. tmr's the day!! :)

next, talking about my eye candy.. no, i din see him today.. he wasn't serving mass.. so yah.. but i'll be helping out in church on saturday.. during the 3pm lesson.. since the catechists for the 3pm class are relatively new.. so yah, i'll go in and may be learn from them how they handle the class.. and help them out with the confession drills.. and because of that, i may bump into him.. lol.. well, like what i told xiao min, on the surface it seems i'm helping out in church but main purpose is to maybe catch a few glimpses of him.. haha.. owells.. fate.. :)

third, i got my finance coursework grade and my HR project results.. i did better than what i expected for my finance coursework even though it could be a border-line case.. but because of that, i'm going to fight it out with finance and chiong finance.. hopefully my hard work will pay off and get at least a B overall.. as for HR project, we met our target!! well done peeps!! we did a lot better and jumped 2 grades!! quite happy.. overall for the project part, group plus individual, i got a B.. hopefully my coursework wun get affected badly by my mid-sem.. will call my tutor up tmr to check my coursework.. :)

lastly, i'm tired.. it's time to rest.. after all that chitter chatter and the thoughts, i'm tired.. more to talk about tmr with angeline.. more bitching around.. haha.. and of course, tell her more abt my eye candy! ok, tata.. off to dreamland.. night folks!! :)

I'm not going in to do relief teaching from now till end of exams.. cause i dun wan my GPA to drop.. so i'll be a good girl and stay home and study.. lol.. i turned down to teach today by the wae.. lol.. surprising huh? marianne turning down $65 just to study.. haha.. actually that wasn't totally the case.. my back was aching.. no idea why either when i didn't even do any exercise.. told mum this evening and after knowing where was hurting, she concluded that i could have sprained my back.. i can't even laugh too long.. poor me.. i hope the pain go away tmr.. :(

anyway, i'm not going for public speaking tutorial tmr.. 2nd time so it's just a warning email.. after all, it's the last lesson already.. so i'm coming home after finance lect or after lunch with the girls.. just as well.. i can come home and rest.. and maybe sleep for an hour or so.. lol.. going to church in the evening for mass.. wondering whether i'll see my eye candy? will he be there? lol.. we shall see tmr.. i think xiao min and sherlyn and caroline will receive sms from me if he's there.. haha.. :) after mass, there's CATS meeting.. i hope they won't end too late.. so i'll be dinner-ing in church.. poor me.. either at the foyer, CATS office or P2 classroom.. but i think most prob foyer after everyone leave.. so embarrassing to eat at the foyer when everyone is there.. or rather, mr eye candy seeing me have my dinner there.. or maybe i should change my mind and dine at the CATS office..?? lol.. shall see how tmr lah.. ok, i'm tired.. i hope i can sleep tonite.. slept well last night.. maybe cause it was cooling and i was tired from all that fun!! lol.. dun think i'll blog tmr.. see what time meeting end first.. till then, night peeps!! :)

crush or eye candy??
hmmm...
we shall see... :)

hahahahahahaha..... i just felt like laughing on a tuesday morning at 9.17a.m.. and i'm finding something unbelievable.. like seriously.. they don't find the eye candy good-looking.. they think *ahem* is better.. *rolls eyes* but haha... did my taste deproved again?? lol.. but in person, he really looks not bad and i still find his age unbelievable.. haha.. he just doesn't seem his age.. haha.. i seem to be in a good mood today.. haha.. just laughing away but this spells trouble for xiao min they all later.. they'll know why.. anyway, rgd my eye candy.. he hasn't add me on friendster nor reply my message.. well, hopefully he adds and yah, become friends.. lol.. no harm, right? ok, more when i get home this evening frm the sushi buffet with them.. :)

*edits:
back from that oh-my-goodness sushi buffet.. was already high during MBS lecture and super hungry.. not because i didn't eat lunch but i walked off my lunch when i went to Yu Neng to pass mum her specs.. and i was late somemore.. but my dear classmates were so nice to offer me a seat but i didn't sit with them anyway cause i spotted jean right in front.. but thanks to them! :) after MBS, i was soo hungry that i started going out of control.. was laughing and chatting with xiao min and sherlyn.. went to photocopy some notes b4 taking a cab down to CS for our sushi!!

had lotsa of fun and sherlyn was damn funny.. she almost ordered 3 sets of all the side dishes.. luckily me and xiao min stopped her.. in the end, we ordered 2 sets but we were dying, just trying to finish up that 2 sets of dunno-how-many-side dishes.. just one round and we nearly gave up.. sherlyn was even more high than me today.. and we concluded, that girl contradicts herself.. why? first she wld say she's full to eat.. then she would ask if we wanted any more and she would order.. and me and xiao min wld start laughing.. after a while, she wld say that she's full again and yes, you guessed it.. it became a cycle and we had no idea how many times this cycle repeated.. and it was damn damn damn funny.. lol.. xiao min almost scalded her hand while re-filling her green tea with hot water (or did she?).. she thought it was full already and so she moved her hand and scalded herself.. lol.. sherlyn found it amusing and there went another round of laughing.. as for me, those 2 gave me a nickname which i though that yes, it's cute and funny but kiddy.. haha.. i shan't mention it here.. but i predict those two will tag it on my tagboard.. haha.. and they suggested i change my blog address to the nickname.. forget it man!! it's just too kiddy.. haha.. and the nickname came from the skirt i was wearing today.. lol.. anyway, here are the pics that we took today!! :)


our 2 sets of side orders.. and this wasn't the end of it..


our yummy handrolls!!


xiao min and her chawanmushi..


sherlyn and me!! she and her contradicting speeches.. lol..


presenting to you my dear sherlyn and my all-time chit-chat fren, xiao min!!

haha.. lastly to end off!! i'm happy that my MBS coursework is an A and 2nd in class!! ok, i'm not boasting but yah, i'm happy!! just wanna share the joy with you peeps.. anyway, to yee sin: sad u didn't come.. see, you missed out the fun!! haha.. next time.. :)

i've been feeling rather restless today.. since last night till now.. didn't really sleep well last night.. was feeling too warm, so in the end, the fan was at speed 2 and blowing at me.. and yet! i didn't sleep well till this morning.. kept tossing and turning.. no idea why either.. and i'm somehow losing my appetite.. wondering if it's because of exam stress.. making me lose my appetite and my sleep..?? to conclude, i just felt time pass rather slow today and just couldn't concentrate.. literally, i was just being restless..

received an unexpected call today from caroline, my sec sch fren.. i smsed her rgd someone.. and surprisingly, she called me when i only expected her to reply back via sms.. haha.. had a nice 13-min chat with her! and haha, she kept asking me whether me and my new eye candy had anything going on.. and he was the reason why i smsed caroline.. haha.. apparently, she knows his existance but dunno him as a fren.. lol.. after the phone call, i continued to chat with her a few hours later online and haha, when she went offline, she wished me good luck.. haha.. come to think of it, good luck? hmm.. in becoming frens or something more than frens?? haha.. time will tell..

started my studying already.. a topic a day for each subject and my first subject on my list was... *drum roll* HRM!! just read through the intro lecture cause i think intro lecture can only come out mainly for mcq?? lol.. and because i mentioned that i was restless, i couldn't concentrate.. maybe cause of the weather as well.. (ok, marianne, dun find excuses.. just say someone was on your mind..) k, whatever.. so yup, my studying made its debut again!! haha.. as for tmr, coming home during the break to get my finance tutorial and the past year papers for sherlyn to photocopy.. i dun wanna bring to school cause it may be too heavy.. so i'd rather go home.. at least i can rest.. might as well.. haha.. sakae sushi after MBS lecture!! looking forward to it!! haha.. but sadly, yee sin's not joining us.. she put us on an aeroplane and fly us far far away.. haha.. she knows what i mean lah.. lol.. owells.. ok, i'm going back to play games.. till the next post.. night peeps!! =)

the many sides to the girl called MARIANNE...

i asked 2 frens today if having more than 1 eye candy was ok.. and their reply was 'yes!'.. haha.. i think i've got an additional eye candy.. lol.. ever since i started helping with church events, i noticed him already.. hmm.. comparing looks, haha, he's quite good-looking, i swear! really.. better looking than *ahem*.. his name is the same as my cousin's and i found his friendster account and for the fun of it, i added him.. lol.. then again, no harm, rite? since we belong to the same church.. and yes, i see him almost every week in church.. lol... he's really really good-looking.. haha.. so an additional eye candy to my list.. and talking about eye candy, haha, i think that guy in my public speaking class is old news, is over.. haha.. i mean, it's just an eye candy.. so i'm not taking it seriously.. lol.. and like what sherlyn said, eye candies can see more.. free one!! haha.. so yah, no harm.. =)

my nose isn't in good condition today.. have been sneezing since this morning i woke up.. and i got pissed off at 7 plus in the morning.. argh!! but anyway, that's not the main issue.. came back from church.. received an sms from hui yee, asking me to go out.. but i think we're going out for dinner so i turned her down and i wasn't exactly feeling well.. well, we can always go out after my exams.. lol.. =) and something to make me feel better, i've watched episode 10 already even though it wasn't in cantonese.. no choice.. the videos uploaded were all in chinese.. lol.. hopefully episode 11 is in cantonese.. ok, i'll end here.. shall spend my last day slacking b4 it's serious business tmr onwards.. =)

my eye candies dun last very long..
as for this new one, hmm.. we shall see..
but imagine this bearing fruit..
lol.. ok, marianne.. back to reality...

*edits:
if my mum becomes a grand-godma, would that make me a god-aunt? haha.. baby jaden's super duper cute!! ahh!! ok, i'm out of control when it comes to babies.. and i'm not feeling well again.. shucks.. crush or eye candy? we shall see... =)

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY FRENS!! haha.. time sure pass very fast.. it's august alr.. ok, i think there isn't any link to that.. but anyway, i need to make some considerations to my study schedule.. was actually considering of sleeping late and wake up late.. slp late like at 1 am and wake up at 9, 10 am.. so i still get my 8-9 hours of sleep.. of course, that's during my study week and the days which i don't have classes this coming week, mainly monday, wednesday and friday.. yes, me and xiao min share almost the same off days just that i have an additional day than her.. haha.. and of course, i was also thinking of how i should get around studying.. maybe at night then i'll come online to check my mail and relax for an hour or 2.. of course, catch my 溏心風暴之家好月圓.. that shall be an incentive if i finish what i have to study for the day.. and yes, it's time to work out my study schedule.. lol.. exams.. i'm taking it as a part and parcel of life.. shouldn't that be the case?

ok, enough of school and study plans.. i foresee sherlyn coming after me.. haha.. i made a sweet sweet dream last night.. nothing to do with school peeps and raymond lin.. i dreamt that i was in a relationship and gosh, it was soooo soooo sweet.. haha.. yikes! i think i'm watching too much HK romance shows already.. lol.. but the dream made me smile in my sleep.. haha.. i guess this is what they call sweet dreams.. anyway, the girls are informed of the tuesday plan already!! yeah!! sake sushi, chit-chat session and laughs.. next thing is to go home after MBS tutorial or not?? lol.. still in the midst of consideration.. maybe i will.. to rest and get energised for the bonding session after that.. lol.. but if the gang is going out to eat lunch, maybe i'll follow.. and you know what? this week is the last week before the exams and most prob the last few times i'll talk to my clique? have realised that actually i got nothing in common with the two of them... i mean, you can tell.. but for the guys, haha.. plenty of chances especially if i end up in the same class as either shaun, ben or melvin.. looking forward to having them as classmates next sem again!! =)

i've finished watching 溏心風暴之家好月圓 episode 9.. ooohhh.. so nice!! haha.. the female character played by linda chung is starting to like the male character played by lin feng!! OMG!! haha.. but i dun understand why eventually she ended up with bosco wong's character.. hmm.. watch on and i'll know.. and yes, i know exams are approaching.. but one episode a day.. shall take it as an incentive to study in the afternoon.. haha.. just to find one episode is not easy.. lol..

anyway, after much consideration, i went for HR today.. the lesson itself was 30 mins while waiting for the class was another 30 mins.. so i ended at 3 and was home by 3.20p.m.. how nice.. felt it was a waste of time even though the tutor went through the answers for MCQ for the main paper last year.. came home, slacked a bit before meeting yee sin to exercise.. ok, i was more of playing than exercising.. haha.. we chatted and ate ice-cream and discussed what we were going to do for our outing on tuesday! and apparently DJ can't join us again because she went back to malaysia today due to family matters.. owells.. if i were to say sherlyn and my bb tea mei yuan, then DJ and our tuesday outings also mei yuan.. dun u think so?? but plan for tuesday is to go sakae at TM and eat and slack and have fun!! note that, ok, sherlyn, xiao min and yee sin??!! it's a deal.. our last tuesday outing before study week (although we'll be meeting up during study week..) looking forward to it.. =)

some things are not meant to be...
and I'll leave it to fate to decide..

I'm dead tired.. morning class from 9am till this evening.. and and and!!!! JAP PRESENTATION IS FINALLY OVER!!! haha.. and today was the last lesson.. which simply meant that me and sherlyn got full attendance for jap tutorial!! haha.. looks like next week we'll be chilling out after finance lecture.. lol.. anyway, it was raining damn heavily just now.. was stuck in school with the girls after photocopying exam papers.. but maybe it was fate, i coincidentally bumped into him outside the library.. and seriously, i didn't expect it.. so like what sherlyn say, got fate (you yuan).. haha.. owells.. leaving it to fate.. and i have no idea why my eye was red.. contact lens? or just simply too tired?? i dunno.. and my house's lifts all broke down.. yes, all 3 of them.. so i waited for mum at the void deck and climbed up to the 14th floor with her.. at the end of it, i was damn hungry and tired and i was having gastrics.. boy, i ate 4 pizza bread after that while waiting for dinner.. haha...

my thoughts all seem to be in a mess.. someone, clear my thoughts for me, yeah?? and i don't feel like going for HR tutorial tmr.. hopefully it's the last lesson?? but i've got my doubts now.. owells.. i'm out of here... nights peeps.. =)

they make me feel so sian.. thank goodness i'm seeing them for the last time tmr.. lol.. i'm 98% not going for the last jap tutorial.. haha.. i'd rather slack lor.. anyway, i just hope lecture dun end so late and i can finish my lunch in 30 mins, even if it meant i was to suffer from an uncomfortable tummy after that..

ok, enough of that.. i slacked my day today.. haha.. finished 6 hot dog buns!! but it was those mini ones that would be gone within 5 mouths.. lol.. it was so nice sleeping in till close to 11.. haha.. i love mondays, wednesdays and fridays!! cause i get to sleep in and get 9-10 hours of sleep.. haha.. dun be envious.. lol.. btw, my very nice neighbour, yee sin, came over in the evening to rehearse with me my jap.. she said i not bad.. and i think so too, taking into consideration that i dun have that many lines.. haha.. oh, this reminds me.. TYS!! dessert tmr?? lol.. ok, i'm out of here..

quoted from xiao min:
main exams = time to get serious and less going out...
this is my main point for the month of august...
gambatte dears!! =)

money is the root of all evil.. haha.. only xiao min, yee sin, sherlyn know what i'm talking about.. haha.. MBS tutorial was boring as usual.. HR revision lecture.. i was falling asleep even though i knew the lecture was impt.. after that, yee sin and xiao min came to my place for lunch and we watched tv and played scrabble.. i fell asleep for a few minutes while watching tv.. was dead sleepy and i lost to the both of them at scrabble.. as a result, i treated them to ice-cream from the mama shop.. haha... went to ehub to meet sherlyn after that..

the four of us went insane at ehub.. and today, sherlyn was even more high than me, after she bought toto and the winning prize was $8 million.. haha.. we had bubble tea and sushi and we chatted a lot and laughed a lot.. but sadly, time passes fast.. i was still thinking on whether i should meet the class peeps for dinner since they were at ehub's k box as well.. called ben and asked him.. but in the end, i left with the girls.. haha.. and at the bus stop, we saw ben! haha.. and ben saw the crazy side of us 4 girls.. lol.. we were literally insane sia.. kept laughing and laughing abt the winning draw.. haha.. but on the way back, we were soo tired that we stopped laughing.. but sherlyn still a bit mad lah.. haha.. lol.. but really, i really enjoyed myself every tuesday during our bonding session.. i so hope me and sherlyn will end up same class and that our bonding session continue even after exams.. =)

sherlyn and her bubble tea...
yee sin and her peppermint...
xiao min and her gelare ice-cream...
me and my hyperness...
I SO LOVE THESE GIRLS!! =)

final decision made!! i'm not going with them to k box tmr.. and i think even if i do go, i may not sing.. and like what i told sherlyn before, i will never open my mouth to sing in front of guys i like unless he's my other half, then it's a different matter.. lol.. so instead of going with them, i'm going to go out with the following lovely girls: sherlyn, xiao min and yee sin!! =) haha.. honestly speaking, i really did want to go with them to k box but you know, i thought hard and long.. some people who may be going may be people i don't want to hang out with.. so far, i know who's going but it isn't because of them that i decide not to go.. well, other factors played a part as well, for example my physical condition.. my throat only got better today.. to conclude, i'm hanging out with the girls tmr.. =)

HR revision lect tmr.. dun think i'll bring my notes.. but just foolscape paper.. rather jot down the more impt parts and then copy over to my notes.. lol.. saves me bringing that thick stack of notes as well.. lol.. MBS tutorial before that.. i think i'll end up dozing in class or slacking away.. lol.. owells..

one month later and i've somehow put the unhappy events behind me..
i feel i'm more like myself now than one month ago..
i feel i'm more marianne now than one month ago..
in fact, i think i've changed quite a bit..
i used to not let people see the unglam side of me,
when i laugh out loud and having everyone look at me..

but now, i've shown those guys that unglam side of me(if you would consider it..)
i've shown them i don't really bother anymore of how outsiders look at me..
cause if i bother too much about how they think of me, how they see me..
then i won't consider that as the real me..
if i bother too much, what they're seeing will just be a pretence of me, not the real me..
and if i'm not the real me, then it's not life..
cause life is just being who i am, just being me, just being... marianne... :)

feeling not too good today.. church this morning.. got a little pissed off and irritated with the class today.. they weren't exactly angels.. i said before class started that i couldn't shout so they would have to keep quiet.. in the end? i still ended up shouting and my throat hurt so much i couldn't talk.. had small chats with some church people today.. enjoyed it.. =) saw godma today.. but felt so sorry cause i had to whisper while talking to her.. lol.. she asked me what happened to me and steph during mass when we left to go to the toilet one after another.. haha.. well, heehee, nature calls..

lunch at grandparents' place before coming home.. and ooh!!! i watched episode 6 alr.. lol.. most likely will catch episode 7 tmr? but after i completed school stuff.. or rather, after i complete my jap.. but i think i would watch at night bah.. then can have sweet dreams.. haha.. of course, that is if the episode's uploaded online alr.. my tutorials are more or less done, i guess?? gotta ask xiao min some qns rgd to finance.. lol.. and i think that will be tmr..

contemplating on whether i should go k box or not on tuesday after HR revision lect.. yes, i think i've mentioned this already.. but now, i'm starting to cough and the throat's still pain.. even if i dun go for k box, i may not go out with the girls too.. come home and rest since exams are drawing near and i'm not in best condition.. you know what i mean.. haha.. hmm.. it feels i've got lots to do but you know wad? in fact, there's very little.. haiz.. can't wait for jap presentation 2 to be over!! owells.. nights peeps.. =)

always a learning experience...

one post a day. lol.
posts about my daily life. how nice.
and while i'm enjoying life now, with the company of my dear family and frens,
i so hope i do not need to shout tmr.
i hope they'll be darlings tmr.
be angels tmr, please.
my throat is better but the occasional coughs and pain.
oh bother.
maybe i should give them a note in advance.
since auntie eve is not coming. lol.

feelings for today?
not too bad. but just tired.
went for happy food today.
and finally got my supply of lecture pads. lol.

they asked me along for k box on tuesday.
contemplating whether or not i should go.
or should i meet the dearies?
in the midst of 'serious' consideration.
after all, next week is the last week i get to relax and enjoy before the exams.
so should i or should i not? *thinks hard*

just felt like writing this way today.
no special reason.
no '...' but just one '.'
having post-溏心風暴syndrome.
lol.
nights frens.
=)

i finally found a website which i can watch 溏心風暴之家好月圓online daily.. haha.. =) i've completed 4 episodes.. waiting for episode 5 to load.. and yes, i will not neglect my studies especially now that exams are coming in 25 days.. i know my limit, so fear not!! one episode a day except for fridays.. lol.. it's damn nice and funny at some parts.. just loving it.. =)

and oooh... i saw baby jaden's pics.. he's sooooo cute!!! baby jaden's mum's grand-godchild.. which means she's jaden's grand-godma.. does that make me his god-aunt?? haha.. lol.. but he's sooo adorable and cute.. hopefully i'll have a chance to see him soon!! lol.. ok, my throat's not doing very well now.. off to take that *yucky* medicine.. eeww... lol.. enjoy the weekends peeps!! =)

2nd last presentation tmr.. HR!! after that, i'm only left with jap.. and coming to think about CDS, i most likely will be skipping the last lesson of jap, which is the week after my Jap presentation.. and i'm not the only one.. sherlyn too and i think eventually, xiao min will also get influenced by us and skip too.. haha.. as for public speaking, hmm.. should i go next week?? i skipped once so actually i wasn't intending to skip again.. owells, shall support shaun's ex-classmates next week bah.. and i may get back my assessment 3 marks during the last lesson so.. haha.. afterall, i enjoyed public speaking.. was more fun than what i expected.. =)

anyway, i casually talked to him today outside library.. maybe he felt that xiao min they all were familiar so he turned his head and saw me.. ok, and yes, i know there wasn't any meaning to it.. but after seeing him and talking to him, i suddenly had unexpected thoughts.. i felt it was very long since i last talked to him although we alwaes see each other in class.. and i felt that maybe he never left my mind.. at the most, was just moved to a corner in my heart that was unnoticeable.. a strange feeling was back.. but it wasn't the feeling i was so familiar with.. it wasn't that i-want-to-talk-to-you-somemore kind of feeling.. it's a feeling that i'm not sure how to describe.. owells.. shall let nature take its course.. :)
edits: done with episode 3!! next up, episode 4.. should i go get the VCD instead?? lol..

就算多舍不得, 还是要放手... ...

i'm feeling pain.. my throat's hurting... went to the doctor today.. got medication to make my throat less sore and less pain.. should have gotten MC for tmr.. then at least i can choose not to go for finance and jap.. =.= public speaking no choice cause i may be presenting my persuasive speech tmr.. but i dun mind public speaking so yah.. in fact, i somehow like my public speaking class.. haha.. and i so hope my throat gets better.. i was just rehearsing my script for tmr just in case and within 2 mins, my throat felt pain.. gosh, i have no idea how i am going to present if my throat doesn't get any better.. ok, i'd better not talk and let my throat rest..

i'm slowly watching 溏心風暴之家好月圓online.. haha.. at episode 2 alr.. i think i'm getting so addicted to it.. but because HK just started showing, so i guess i'll be catching one episode a day only.. but gosh, he looks soooo shuai!!!! =) and i think i'm suffering from post-溏心風暴syndrome.. haha.. but nevertheless, i found his new song.. and am able to catch the sequel online.. hopefully, the other episodes get uploaded daily.. haha.. =) wish me all the best peeps..

sherlyn: hey girl!! thanks for your concern.. was lazy to reply back to your sms but dun worry, i'll take care.. afterall, this is not the time to fall sick.. =)

after a week or so since those ill ones at home recovered, there has been reported another sick patient at home and one coming down with illness.. haha.. yes, that's me.. my throat's starting to hurt especially when swallowing saliva.. it hurts a lot.. and my head's a little heavy.. gosh, this is soo not the right time to fall sick.. just before exams and when my presentations and stuff are due.. hell..

anyway, i saw the first episode of HOG2.. haha.. not too bad.. quite ok.. but the dubbing seems fake for lin feng and linda.. haha.. but nevertheless, whee!! they're acting as lovers again.. =)) haha.. tmr's wednesday = free day.. stay home day.. dun think i'll be going out tmr unless any schools call me.. haha.. i need to prepare my public speaking speech anyway.. lol.. ok, back to getting DJ translate my song for me.. found a new song of his!! =))

the movie's been postponed to next week whr i do hope everyone can make it.. otherwise it won't be fair.. and i don't want to get anyone upset cause apparently, DJ got a little upset when we went to drink bb tea last tues and didn't ask her.. so yah.. PLS PEOPLE, KEEP NEXT TUES FREE!!! hopefully we'll get ot enjoy ourselves before we all get busy with the exam preparation..

btw, was supposed to meet sherlyn and xiao min for the movie.. but i was being lazy and my tummy was aching.. dunno is it because my monthly fren is coming soon or really stomachache.. went to the toilet even before i was fully awake and cause of that, i woke up.. but haha, it was time for me to wake up anyway.. and i realised monday is not a good day to ask me out.. really.. with saturday home to rest after a week of school and sunday in church, monday just leaves me no energy and yes, this means to stay home and get energised again.. haha.. but i think it's also partly cause of my timetable.. monday = free day = stay home and slack... lol.. this week onwards, wednesday = free day too.. and i guess wednesday i won't be that tired.. wait till i hit thursday.. that's how i wish friday was rather a free day.. lol.. and another thing, when i so wish to go in and teach and when i'm finally free, the schools just don't call.. hopefully i'll hear my phone ring on wednesday.. =) good day peeps..

long day today.. was in church frm morning till this evening.. helping pat with the P3 workshop for the saturday classes.. next one would be in a month's time and that would be for the sunday classes.. lol.. fun but was tiring.. and i still have finance tutorial to complete.. nvm, since there's no school tmr, i can afford to sleep late tonite.. haha...

talking about school, i think i'm gonna make people yell at me.. why? cause from a 4-day sch week, it's down to tues, thurs and fri.. haha.. 3-day week.. lol.. tues i still have that 3 hours break in btw tutorial and MBS lecture.. still considering whether i should sit and watch the guys play basketball during the break or should i come home and rest? since i'll be going out for movie after lecture and lesson start at 9 on tues.. haiz.. shall see how i guess.. most prob bring my things.. just in case, i'm too lazy and decide not to go home and slack in school with them.. lol.. =)

2 more days to tuesday... looking forward to my movie date with them... :)

one month from now, i'll be watching another show by raymond!! haha... lol.. rest one month before watching him again.. haha.. but cause this show got shermaine sheh, i may or may not watch cause i don't like her.. so owells.. lol.. piano tmr.. considering whether i should take grade 5 exam.. hmm.. shall see how again.. time is not on my side.. lol.. ok, back to games.. =)

YIPEE!!! HR project is finally over!! no more going to sch early to discuss projects (or rather, for the rest of this sem...) mondays and wednesdays are free days for me.. to slack and hopefully earn that $65/day.. heaves of reliefs are heard from me since 2pm.. haha.. glad that we managed to complete the proj and hopefully we hit our target of B+ this time round.. =) it's time for me to slack and relax a little before i start to chiong for exams again.. lol.. so i'm gonna have fun, rest and with 100% energy, mug like nobody's business for the final exams.. and pls, it's not as if i did very well for mid-sem and because i didn't, that's why i wanna give my full shot at this.. i can't afford to fail any subjects and kena retain.. i don't want and i don't wish to..

to sherlyn: dearie, cheer up!! the going may be tough but you know wad? i'll be there to support my fren!! if she falls, i'll pick her up.. if you are on a verge of a nervous breakdown, i'll bring you out to have fun, to relax before carrying on with work.. but no matter what you do, just remember this: EVEN IF ALL YOUR OTHER FRENS LEAVE YOU ONE DAY, YOUR THIS DEAR FREN HERE WILL STILL STAND BY YOU.. and i believe i'm not the only one.. i'm sure xiao min, yee sin and DJ will do the same.. cheer up!! =)

I'm starting to feel tired alr.. maybe i should sleep early tonite since there's no show on tv.. lol.. anyway, today was high day with the girls!! haha.. just so love my thursdays with them!! looking forward to the movie on tuesday after sch.. hopefully MBS end early then me and xiao min can go and look for yee sin and talk crap.. haha..

finance tutorial this morning.. as usual, we ended late.. and i got back my class test.. sucks to the core, man the results.. but at least i managed to just passed and not fail.. looks like i've got to work real hard for the main exam and i'm going to try to get the girls to study with me.. i'm sure they'll be willing, rite?? haha... lecture ended late as well.. jap listening test was ok.. i tot i screwed the paper but after class, when i compared answers with xiao min and sherlyn, haha, i actually got most answers correct.. was happy but who knows if they're really correct? lol... shall wait for the results next wk and i've got plans of skipping jap.. but maybe i shall be a good girl and go.. but then again, time always seem to pass so slow for jap tutorials.. public speaking was not too bad.. rehearsed for next week but maybe cause i didn't really practise and was nervous, i kept looking at my script.. ok, after HR is over, it's time to familiarise myself with my persuasive speech.. lol..

went for a dinner break after public speaking with xiao min and yee sin.. haha.. cause i had the cravings for french fries and dear yee sin smsed me during public speaking tutorial saying she got craving for dessert.. so when i met up with xiao min, we decided to go and grab a bite.. and we succeeded in psycho-ing yee sin not to go for french lecture.. haha.. after that, we walked to take bus 22 together.. enjoyed their company today!! tx girls!! =) ok, shall end off here.. tmr's the last project meeting for HR (hopefully).. handing in the project tmr as well.. just hoping that we can hand it in by 4pm so that i can come home and do my piano theory.. hmm.. or maybe i should get it done now.. lol... nitez peeps!! =)

2 more hours to friday... 18 hours to the end of HR project... =)

i think i've got too many things on my mind.. HR project, jap tests, public speaking etc... all these may be the cause of my sleepless nights again.. i so hate it.. i'm tired physically yet my mind is still super alert and active.. thus i can't fall asleep and even if i do, i wake up every few hours.. haiz.. this isn't working again.. even honey doesn't help.. but the surprising thing is that although i'm having sleepless nights again this week, yet the next day in school, i'm still quite energetic although i feel tired.. gosh, this is sooo bad.. now you know why i can't wait for this week to be over.. at least by then, i won't suffer from sleepless nights (hopefully...) owells.. ok, i think i'm off to watch tv soon.. at least give my poor brain a break... nights people.. =)

back to everyday blogging.. lol.. HR report - more or less done!! =) let's hope teacher says it's ok.. i want to hear good news tmr, boss!! haha.. i'm hanging in there for one more day!! after friday, all major projects are over!! with the exception of japanese but that's nothing.. lol.. friday faster come so that my projects are over and done with!! =)

tmr finance lect!! yeah!! the girls are missed sia.. haha.. time to go hyper.. and i'll be bringing biscuits to eat tmr during tutorial so that i dun get too hungry.. haha.. and i think very high chances that i'll be high tmr and omg!! class test results!! shucks.. hope i don't fail.. that's all i'm asking for.. :S there's jap listening test tmr as well.. don't know how to study sia.. listening man.. think i most prob give up studying jap.. lol.. and i hope jap pass quickly tmr.. i'd rather have public speaking than jap.. haha.. cause public speaking more slack.. (opps..) haha.. owells.. haha... ok, i'm off to watch tv again and hopefully study jap.. lol..

2 more days to friday... =)

feeling refreshed now after a shower.. got back home not too long ago after a small bonding with xiao min and kelly.. haha.. played arcade again at CS.. =) this morning had MBS presentation.. our group was the first to present and seriously speaking, if you ask me, i think we did pretty well!! not that bad or rather, better than what i expected.. haha.. came home after MBS to change cause was going to have bb tea with xiao min after lect.. but at 12.30, i received a surprised sms frm her.. tat girl ended her project discussion early and asked me to go school earlier to accompany her.. so after much deliberation, i said i wld go if we go opposite school for bb tea.. and so our bb tea plan got pushed earlier and jean and sherlyn joined us but only me and xiao min had bb tea.. lol.. sherlyn and my bb tea.. always mei yuan.. haha.. she'll know what i mean.. =) after that was lecture and yes, the unplanned outing.. haha...

during lecture today, i was thinking abt some things and obviously, i wasn't paying attention which i never do.. lol.. he made me think of some things.. it's quite surprising how we hardly hang out tgt last year.. and after what happened, i felt our friendship seemed to take a rank higher.. i understood how he feels and he understands mine.. but we're just frens.. and i really do cherish this friendship.. i mean, we were awkward but we eased that awkwardness.. and now, he actually took the initiative to sms me smth quite lame and somehow such msgs, be it from him or from my other dear frens, alwaes manage to put a smile on my face.. to me, he's a friend which is for life.. year 1 frens may know who i'm referring to.. =)

and while my friendship with him has moved a rank higher, my friendship with this other fren seemed to have distant.. i've put things behind me and moved on.. but somehow, things btw me and this fren will never be the same again.. i'll never be able to chat on the phone for close to an hour with this fren.. i'll never be able to share personal stuff abt guys with this fren.. the only things i can talk abt now is projects, which i think is quite saddening.. i believe the both of us have tried to make this friendship work like before but we may not have realised that it's not turning out the way it was like before.. yes, we still joke and have fun tgt but this is different.. different from before.. but nevertheless, this fren is also a fren i will cherish cause i hope that this fren will be a true fren whom i will keep in contact with, even after poly.. again, some frens may know who i'm referring to.. owells.. shan't brood over it.. looking forward to happy happenings in my life and the people who alwaes can put a smile on my face.. =)

money is really never enough for girls.. lol.. i've got things to buy sia but no money.. haiz.. i need to my foolscape paper so that i can do my tutorials.. which means i need to go to TM's popular.. cause it's cheaper to buy in bullk?? haha.. and i've got things to do yet i'm lazy to get started.. for e.g my MBS presentation script for tmr.. it's sitting there, looking at me, waiting for me to pick up my pen, wake my brain up and get started.. haiz.. this is really so sian. but one good thing is exam timetable is out!! ok, not a good thing but at least the day after my birthday there's no paper.. so i can still help pat out in church with an easy heart and spent the 25th mugging away at home.. haha.. and i'm on holiday frm 28th aug, 11.30am onwards!! seems that someone wants to go k box as heard frm kai hui.. owells.. shall see how bah.. exams first.. but before exams, projects and grp presentations faster get it over and done with.. lol.. haiz.. i'm wanting to go in and do relief teaching again.. i hope next week the school do call me to work.. haha.. ok, off to talk to tracy.. btw, i may be coming home after MBS tutorial tmr since the girls have got projects to do.. lol.. another update maybe tonite.. =)

starry starry night
paint your palette blue and grey
look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the darkness in my soul

just felt like listening to 'Vincent' tonite.. this song was playing in my head during dinner and i started to think about the show.. but seriously, i think it's because of 'Heart of Greed' thats why i've found quite a number of nice songs.. be it cantonese or english.. lol.. and seriously speaking, this song isn't that bad too... haha... starry starry night.. lol.. =)

anyway, tmr meeting for mbs presentation.. yong sing say it shouldn't be more than an hour.. so hopefully tmr will be quick.. lol.. may meet xiao min after that for a while bah.. gosh, at this point in time, i'm getting freaked out.. help!!!

just felt like blogging.. and i think some people will start worrying when i type what i am about to type.. don't ask me why but i'm feeling emo tonite.. no, it has nth do with sch or relationships with friends.. neither has it got anything to do with family.. just feeling emo after dinner.. suddenly had the urge to see the HK actor i'm crazy over.. but then again, didn't feel like after that.. gosh, wad's wrong with me? someone, faster cheer me up... =(

monday's the episode he died in a car accident.. i think i may tear a little cause there's no happy ending for him and the girl he loved.. hopefully in part 2, you qing ren zhong cheng juan shu.. that they'll have a happy ending.. lol.. owells.. maybe i'm watching too much of him.. lol..

anyway, tmr's sunday.. seeing the naughty yet adorable kids.. churched till afternoon before going for lunch(at i dunno whr..) before coming home.. hopefully we'll pack lunch home then i can watch show.. lol.. afterall, i didn't watch any of the afternoon repeats this wk other than friday.. considered quite good alr.. so yah.. and next sunday, hopefully i'll be able to catch that one or two episodes of him during the repeat.. haiz.. tired and emo tonite.. wad's wrong with me? ok, off to do maybe some serious business...

yeah!!! MBS proj is over!! yong sing handed in today already!! happy happy.. haha.. MBS was driving me stressed the last few days.. haha.. next up is HR but i think we should be doing fine for HR.. =) last few days = tired.. every evening, back frm school and is in front of the laptop for 1-2 hrs doing projects.. sian.. but next week is another chiong week cause of HR but never mind, after next week, we're free!!!! =)

anyway, i was supposed to sing the canto duet for jacelyn and the girls yesterdae but in the end, i didn't.. so i recorded on my phone and transferred it to my laptop.. sent to xiao min last night to hear and she said it didn't sound like me.. haha!!! does that mean i'm pro?? lol.. and she also said that it wasn't that bad taking into consideration, i dun speak cantonese.. lol.. but the song is sooo nice!! sometimes in the morning when i wake up, the song is already playing in my head.. haha.. but the real verdict will be from jacelyn since she's the expert mah.. lol.. ok, since i've got nothing to do, maybe i'll do the formatting for HR again.. lol.. lunch tmr with relatives.. hopefully i can meet the guys for movie after tat.. shall give them a call after lunch and see how.. =)

to sum my day up, it's been tiring.. i'm freaking tired!! super duper tired!!! was in sch till 6 plus to do MBS project.. and it wasn't even completed.. cause we girls were figuring some things out.. kai hui, kelly: so sorry tmr i can't help you all with the project.. cause i only have an hr break tmr.. really sorry.. but i guess you all can understand.. =) ok, i dun wanna blog already.. i'm just tired tired tired tired tired... off to watch show and relax for the rest of the night.. from now till end of next wk, i'll be damn damn damn tired and stressed.. and yes, that was wad i told xiao min.. :S

currently in school for project work.. but project is at 1 so slacking with kai hui's group.. haha.. gotta meet sherlyn later to get the HR books back from her... lol.. was supposed to meet xiao min and get our laptop skin done but!!! we were so disappointed cause the stall wasn't there alr.. sad sad.. cause i really intended to get the pooh bear skin.. it was so cute lah!! haiz.. disappointed.. =( lol.. and that girl smsed me to meet earlier last night but she was late today!! xiao min, xiao min.. 2nd disappointment sia.. lol.. ok, shall blog again tonite bah since kai hui's grp is gg to start on their project soon.. =)

back home abt an hr ago.. haha.. had lots of fun and laughter with sherlyn and xiao min!! me and xiao min left mbs lect early cause there was no more copying and we didn't want to waste time.. so we left halfway and went to redspot.. and pls, dun scold me for leaving early.. i mean, mbs is very subjective and it's a subject u can actually study on your own.. so yah, we went to redspot and photocopied some HR stuff there while waiting for sherlyn to end class.. after that, we were 'arguing' on wad bus to take and whether to walk or not from pasir ris interchange to ehub.. after much 'argument', we took a bus cause it started to rain.. haha... had fun laughing and nice chats with them.. at ehub, we were debating on whether the two should go for french lect.. in conclusion, they didn't and we arrived quite late at ehub.. and sherlyn, got affected by my highness, said that luckily they not planning to go for french if not when the waffle come, they would have to eat very fast and she did the gobble action that made me and xiao min burst out laughing.. it was damn damn damn funny.. hahahahaha.... so yup, had ice-cream at gelare until we were all soooo full.. after gelare, we went to the arcade to play basketball and datona.. haha.. i won them at basketball with points of 116 and they say i very pro.. whr got?? ok lah.. lol.. played and laughed till 6 before i came back with xiao min.. lol.. and surprisingly, today's journey home seemed quite fast.. well, good times always pass fast..

tmr meeting xiao min at 10 to get our laptop skin and do her laptop connection and get mine fixed.. dun understand why i can't connect to the internet in school.. argh!! so yup, followed by lunch with kai hui, project at 1, apel at 4 and the (most hated) MBS project.. yucks yucks yucks.. seriously, me and kai hui are getting a little pissed over MBS.. she and kelly will know why.. lol.. have no idea what time MBS project will end but i'll leave at 6.30 bah? afterall, next day is a long day and i wanna come home and rest.. and i think the girls will agree with me..

lastly, had lunch with the guys and the girls at airport today.. had popeye.. haha.. not too bad lah but i still prefer KFC.. lol.. and if i was right, he said something which made me think.. and i told xiao min and sherlyn that i dunno if i should be upset or disappointed if what he said was true.. i mean, ok, i didn't exactly hear what he said but i heard Ben's reply.. owells.. shan't bother too much about it.. and with regards to BGR, sherlyn asked me this qn: between being attached and being single, what would i choose? my answer to her then was i would choose both bah, as in both got pros and cons.. but now, sherlyn, my answer to your question: i guess for now, i would choose to be single.. free and easy, dun wanna bother about such things now.. afterall, studies come first but hey, this doesn't mean that i can't like anyone, yeah? lol.. =)

whee!! gelare treat after school today with the girls.. =) think i'll be again too full to have dinner.. lol.. but this also means that no repeat of show today... but it's ok.. haha.. bonding with the girls.. lol.. in school now.. will update again tonite on the gelare treat.. =)

i'm angry!! cause although i managed to find the piano scores for 爱在记忆中找你, but i can only print out the 1st page.. if that's the case, wad's the point? argh!!! so i give up finding and yes, i'm not going to learn le.. cause it's so incomplete.. but the song is still playing on my laptop.. haha.. =) and gosh, the song is damn damn damn nice!! together with 心领.. my laptop's playing these 2 songs these few days.. just not enough of his shows and his songs.. haha.. *loved*

i'm still comtemplating on whether i shld go to sentosa tmr.. honestly speaking, i'm lazy to travel all the way down to harbourfront.. ok, maybe it's because of the repeat.. but haiz, i just don't feel like gg anywhere tmr and just stay home and rot.. i mean, get back my energy for another busy week? ok, maybe not that busy as compared to last week.. but, haiz.. lazy.. and i guess the others are gg to say i pangseh them if i don't go at which, it's true.. haha.. argh... just irritated and can't make up my mind.. shall ask for advice frm angeline.. haha.. ok, i shall go call her now.. maybe update somemore later.. lol.. till then.. =)

do you wish i go???

after reading sherlyn's blog (again), i think i'd better buck up for my finance sia.. why do i say this? cause i didn't do that well for mid-sem test and now, i screwed my class test.. haiz.. finance finance.. i'd better work harder for exams since it's a higher weightage.. no more playing a fool.. i wanna maintain or get a better GPA.. jia you bah!! =)

on a lighter note, i can never get enough of him!! haha.. have been watching his videos since this afternoon till now.. and mind you, the videos are repeated videos!! haha.. that's why i say i can never get enough of him.. and for this past week, i managed to come home and watch the 4pm repeat.. but this week? not likely to.. cause monday most prob sentosa with the gang.. haven quite decided cause i have yet to touch my tutorials.. and i think if i change my mind last min, they're gonna come after me.. haha.. and my throat isn't that well either.. tues is gelare day with sherlyn and xiao min after school so no show.. there's apel on wed at 4 and before that, project meeting so no show either.. thurs have lessons, fri maybe.. will have to see how.. haiz.. no repeat shows this week then.. =( but never mind, studies come first.. lol.. listening to the songs just make me smile le.. haha..

and yes, my throat isn't doing very well this past week.. have been coughing at home and frequently in school.. haiz.. i think my immune system is starting to collapse again.. pls don't.. not at this time.. anyway, church tmr.. gotta wake up early to face those young ones.. after that, no repeat show again cause gotta be back in church at 2 to do the p2 project.. sian.. suddenly dun feel like going.. haha.. just wanna stay home and watch show and do my tutorials.. quite a number of things to get done this week.. haiz.. sian.. and i shall end off saying, i wish july can faster pass.. at least the projects are over.. :S

going to watch videos again.. lol.. afterall, tests have been over.. what can i say? hmm.. jap class test 1.. not too bad.. shld be able to do well.. finance test today? screwed... mcq maybe not too bad.. but for the short essay? haiz.. disappointment.. my answers didn't seem right.. seriously.. but me, da jie and sherlyn got the same answers, according to xiao min.. but da jie say her answers are wrong.. so most prob my answers are wrong too but there's still working marks.. in conclusion, everyone agreed that the paper was difficult, not an easy paper this time round even though only 2 chapters were tested.. and sherlyn was saying that next sem will be worse cause it's even more in detailed and more difficult.. gosh, i just hope i really didn't make the wrong choice.. but owells, the tests are over.. and btw, i was the first to leave from my class today and ben said i left early.. was i very early? haha..

this week left me super tired.. slept early the last few days.. was super tired.. the moment my head touched my pillow, i fell asleep even before my music finished playing.. haha.. but this week really was a tiring week for me.. ok, i'm off to watch my videos.. haha.. =) enjoy your weekend peeps!! =) another update maybe tonite.. haha..

decided to blog now than later.. at least maybe later i can do my peer teaching notes for HR.. lol.. anyway, i realised i was super slacked during the weekends despite having 2 tests this week.. i was watching videos on youtube.. and what was i watching? 'Heart of Greed'.. lol.. super nice show cause got raymond lam.. but sadly, he died in the show and i cried a little... cause the girl already forgave him but he didn't know.. so as a result, they never ended up together.. sad sad.. lol.. and i didn't just watch 1 episode or so.. i watched 13 episodes!! 13!! can u believe it? haha.. and so, i didn't study finance or jap.. how clever, rite? =.=.. only started on jap last night.. as for finance? gosh, i think i may screw that test again.. really have to start on my finance after tmr's jap test.. sian... anyway, just wanna share this song with you peeps: My love will get you home.. really nice song.. was searching it over the weekends but couldn't download.. in the end, some nice guy found it and sent to me.. was soo touched lah.. but, haha.. he's not exactly my type.. lol.. anyway, here's the song lyrics for you guys.. try looking for the song or you can come asking me for it:

if you wander off too far, my love will get you home
if you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home
if you ever find youself lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home..

if the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home
if your troubles break your strike, my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home..

if you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home
when there's only you to blame, my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home..

if you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy
my love will get you home, boy,
my love will get you home..

it's a song from 'Heart of Greed'.. there's another cantonese song by raymond and linda.. haven been hearing it the last few days since i found the song and every day, the song's being played more than 10 times?? haha.. that's how nice it is lor.. so if any of you want to hear the song, just ask from me, yeah? ok, off to do serious business.. dun think will be blogging till after saturdae.. =)

after reading sherlyn's blog, i just have to say this: july's a busy busy busy month for me.. haha.. look at my schedule just for this week:

1. finance test (saturday)
2. jap class test 1 (thursday)
3. public speaking grp presentation discussion
4. public speaking grp presentation
5. group study for finance test
6. HR peer teaching notes
7. jap class test 2 (sometime later...)

and what are the projects or presentations to be due at the end of this month:

1. MBS proj - 21 july
2. HR proj - 25 july
3. public speaking persuasive speech - 31 july/7 aug
4. jap presentation 2 - 7 aug

this does not include my church stuff and project meetings and group outings with friends.. ahh!! just wish for july to faster be over.. but on the other hand, this would mean that exams are coming but at least i won't be bothered with projects projects and more projects.. and it would also mean that i'll be splitting class and although i may end up with some of the guys under HR and finance, i think i won't end up in the same class as him if our electives are confirmed different.. so haiz.. owells.. at the end of this post, i can only say, july's a busy month and i'll be thankful if i can get a breather in between.. =)

i bought a notebook randomly today.. after buying, i thought maybe i would use it as a diary.. on second thoughts now, hmm.. maybe not.. and i also thought of using it as my homework book where i do my tutorial in but after thinking again, not very practical leh cause what if friends want to borrow my tutorial answers? thus i have no idea what am i going to do with it now.. anyone has any idea or suggestions?? pls let me know..

i'm starting to day-dream again.. he's another cute guy.. haha... unknowingly, i've been watching quite a number of his shows since the start of year 2 till now.. ooooo.... haha.. btw, he's not taiwanese but a hong-konger.. haha... and one reason why i'm watching heart of greed is cause of him.. lol... ok, this is random...

she reminds me of ah yi.. especially from the side view.. i suddenly miss her voice and her presence.. ok, this is also random.. and i realised my hair colour this time round is more obvious than the last time.. and i love this colour lots!! haha.. ok, random.. gosh, i seem to be super random today.. and lastly, I miss my dearest sweetie.. she'll know who she is lah.. looking forward to our next meeting, ok?? haha.. randomness just overcame me today..

gosh, i'm back to do everyday posting.. haha.. anyway, school started at 9 today.. kelly was late as usual and me and kai hui saw her walking with shaun and ben towards business entrance.. and you know wad? despite staying nearby, she took a bus yet was still late.. me and kai hui were just so.. amused?? haha.. kelly oh kelly.. by now, i guess i've gotten used to waiting for her on tuesday and thursday mornings.. lol.. so finance tut was ok.. the girls were a bit high.. singing children songs? haha.. got back our finance paper too.. tried searching for an additional 1/2 mark but sad to say, no.. but haiz, it's ok.. i shall just work harder for the class test coming up next wk.. haha.. finance lecture after that.. sat with my 4 girls.. and we all were high with the exception of TYS aka tan yee sin aka ten years series.. haha.. sat in btw her and sherlyn so both made me super high with the drawings on my notes and the pulling of my hair.. lol.. and oh! told them i had 'ai xin nai cha' this morning.. haha.. to me, it was lah.. i wanted a hot drink cause the damn classroom was super cold and since the guys were going to get food, i asked him to get me a milk tea.. and he did! haha.. was 'touched'.. lol.. and i'll never forget yesterday's joke of the day!! lol.. so yah.. went to jup's cafe to have lunch and we chatted and ate and laughed.. i so miss those days about jacelyn saying 'the best!' etc.. they still make me laugh.. =) after lunch was jap tut and public speaking tut.. jap tut ended not very early today.. public speaking tut ended within 40 mins.. was supposed to crash french lecture with the gals but i was too bored and couldn't wait any longer so i left and came home, to practise piano.. haha.. sry girls!

anyway, pairing up with shaun to do public speaking speech on informative/persuasive speech.. he's doing informative while i'm doing persuasive.. i think persuasive is harder but nevertheless i'll try my best.. and maybe pairing up with him would make things btw us better.. =) anyway, most prob having lunch with the girls again tmr.. so loved having lunches with them now that we're all in different classes... they're being missed.. haha.. ok, some random stuff now.. while stoning outside xiao min's class just now, i just realised that hey! actually i've got an eye candy since last year but just that i never took much notice of.. haha.. mayb cause of something he said today tat struck a chord cause i've never spoken to him before and yet he knows my name.. haha.. ok, maybe cause someone told him, so not surprising.. but yah, i guess he's somehow my eye candy.. ok! note: it's just an eye candy.. that feeling is different from the feeling i have for him.. so yah.. pls hor! haha.. ok, i'm off.. mayb more random posts tonite.. =)

heehee... currently bored while waiting for my jap grp mates to come online.. so anyway, i was reflecting on some things this morning after the radio DJ played some songs on this particular boyband.. and yup.. a lot of memories sia.. i remembered how i would go crazy every time i saw them on tv and when i hear their songs on radio.. i remembered how i would cry to see them get hurt on variety shows.. i remembered how i was the entertainment reporter in class, updating dear caroline on the person we both liked, at that time.. all these were during secondary school time..

now, i'm not that crazy over them anymore but, i still support them in their careers.. i still support their CDs and even those idol dramas.. i guess like them, i've grown up and have matured some way or other especially after what happen 2 yrs back.. people do change over the years, for the better and maybe even for the worse.. for me, i think i changed for the better.. not that bad-tempered anymore and knowing how to cherish those around me.. emotions wise.. i guess i have yet to change.. still get upset and cry over those failed crushes etc.. but something surprising is that although i know that these crushes may never end up the way i want, yet i still give my all.. silly isn't it? but when i do get badly hurt by them, i give up and look ahead.. they say i seem flirty.. but to me? i see it as i am able to let it go easily.. cause holding onto it will not change anything.. and ok, i do take a long time to realise it cause before anyone hurt me badly, i still have the hope that things will change.. after what happened earlier this year, i thought that i won't like a guy again in year 2 but i was wrong.. history repeated itself and now? although i've given up but i still hope that certain things will change.. will like what was written on that piece of paper be true? 'what you keep to yourself you lose, what you give away, you keep forever.' is this what is happening to me now? i really don't know.. all i know that, for now, studies and my dearest friends come first.. so long as you're a friend of mine, you know where you stand.. =)

before i start writing what happened today, i cried a little for the first time after what happened over what a friend told me online and he was just being pure concerned.. tx guy! u know who u are.. =)

ok, for today.. for the first time, i skipped public speaking lecture and slept in till 10 am.. and i thought i was late for lunch cause was meeting the gang.. but no, i was early instead.. only met them at 12 and i was at TM at 11.10a.m.. so was just slacking around at macs.. haha.. so yup! lunched at seoul garden.. was only me, kai hui, amy, desheng and yong sing first.. but melvin, ben and shaun came later.. and before they came, something happened.. my shirt become an art piece.. haha.. reason being mr goh (desheng) was peeling prawns and it so happened that i was sitting next to him.. and the prawn he happened to be peeling was 'juicy' that it could splurt juice out.. so when he broke the head, the juice splurted out, went upwards and landed on my back.. thus, i got dirtied and my shirt became an art piece.. but what i found funny was, the peeler himself din get dirty while the person sitting beside him was dirty.. hahaha.. but yah, i dun blame him cause i guess he din expect it as well.. so hopefully the stain can come out.. if not, forget it.. the shirt can be worn at home.. haha.. and just in case mr goh is reading, haha, no i don't blame you.. not your fault anyway.. =) so yah, after that the rest of the guys came and amy left to meet her fren.. so we carried on eating till 3pm before heading back to sch.. and we played zhong ji mi ma.. and gosh, the forfeit was gross.. imagine mashed tofu + ice cream + eggs + nuts + a little bit of lime juice.. how gross could it get?? and i got forfeited once while some had 1 and others had 2 as well.. we were all just so disgusted.. haha.. had fun over lunch.. really smiled and laughed from my heart after last week.. so we were back in sch for apel which as usual, boring.. anyway, tonite will be giving ben finance notes if he needs it.. and will be discussing jap online with jap group members.. sian but nvm.. just for a few weeks.. =) ok, i'm off..

p.s: to my dear frens, does this post seem more 'marianne' now?? =)

hmm.. yes.. just got back home not too long ago.. but will be going out again shortly.. off to grandparents' place for dinner.. lol..the earlier post for today was typed during lesson this morning... and the teacher changed my mood from a sad face to a happy one!! she short-count me marks for my paper.. and thus it obviously pulled my grades up and yes, i was surprised that MBS, being my least confident paper, got the highest grade among my 3 papers.. haha.. close friends will know how much i got.. =) but nevertheless, MBS somehow made my day.. now i'm just hoping i can claim some marks for my finance paper to pull it up somemore.. lol..

went to mensa 2 for lunch with the gang as usual.. was supposed to meet angeline but in the end, cause the grp was off to do project, i didn't meet her.. sry girl!! i owe you one.. =) did proj till close to 1 pm before slacking with the gang at safra as i watched them play pool, while i killed time while waiting for dear xiao min.. haha.. left at 3 pm and slowly walked back to school.. met up with xiao min and we headed to ehub for gelare ice cream!! and yup, you guessed it! i went totally 'mad' with her the moment i saw her and the both of us got high.. haha.. of course i started off with the complaints first.. lol... walked around ehub and played at the arcade before taking the bus home.. had so much fun with her.. the girls just simply know how to put a smile on my face!! so loved them lots.. and yes, more than what you can expect..

to the girls, yes, we do have our fair bit of quarrels last year but i guess it's because of these quarrels we had that we became closer.. and pls, we all can settle things properly, compromising each other and both sides saying sorry.. and of course, that's how we're better and closer frens than before.. and i treasure this group more than anything, other than my sec school ladies and my family! so in my heart, no one can actually replace them, not even him cause he's 2nd while they're 1st.. lol.. to them, i just have to say this: thanks girls for being there for me.. if it wasn't for you peeps, i won't know how to have overcome the problems i faced recently.. and you have my word.. i won't bother anymore and yup, try to live my life happily everyday!! i love you girls lots and you girls know it.. =) ok, end of post, off to grandparents' place..

some posts have been deleted due to some reasons so yah, anyway, let's not brood over it.. i promised frens that i would move on and that July is a new month for me.. so yup.. ok, in school now for MBS.. bored and feel like sleeping.. slept at 12 plus last night after a talk on the phone with angeline.. but ok, it's not her fault that i slept at 12 plus.. as a result, only 7 hours of sleep.. owells, k.. i'd better get back to listening to the teacher.. more updates tonite.. =) have a nice day peeps!!

I just wanna get this episode of this week's happenings over and done with.. I wanna carry on with the life I used to have before all this happenings.. I've regretted helping you two.. but what's done cannot be undone.. all I'm just hoping for is, get this episode over and done with.. it's becoming a nightmare to me.. but I'm glad that after all that has happened, you two are still back together.. ok, i shall stop being emo!! haha..

aiya, afterall, I dun think they can read this anymore.. no more peeps frm my class cause my blog is made private!! I can like finally blog anything and everything under the sun.. haha.. =)) and this decision wasn't made rashly.. I had this thought since I was in penang already.. so it was not fully because of these happenings that I made my decision.. so yah, it really wasn't solely because of what happened this week.. certain people will know why I'm happy with regards to this.. lol.. but anyway, tx for all who gave me advices on how I should have handled their problem.. tx to those who gave me a listening ear especially to Sherlyn cause i always complain to her online and to Xiao min cause everytime i call and talk to her, it's always more than 30 mins.. so yah, tx to you two!! =) ok, I'm gg offline soon alr.. off to fulfil my promise to xiao min.. haha.. that is to complete my finance tutorial qns frm the old finance notes.. haha.. k, wad a lame promise.. haha.. =))

got back my HR results.. not very happy about it.. so what am i planning to do? i'm going to work even more harder this term to score and chiong all the way now.. and i mean it.. owells.. i'm jsut going to work harder this term and play less.. let's try to focus and prioritise my life now.. :S and yes, i know my posts the last few days hasn't been exactly my normal self.. if things do come to an end at the end of this week, happy posts are up to come.. and on a random thought: I miss my 1B08 girls.. [edited version]

gosh.. even after talking to xiao min on the phone, i still want to blabber on and on and on.. i still want to chat on and on and on.. i still want to ramble on and on and on.. i still want to talk on and on and on.. ok, if anyone of u see this and am bored, call me.. =) [edited version]

i just feel like rambling on and on and on... i just feel like blabbering on and on and on... i need a chat with someone.. i just feel like talking on and on and on.. haiz.. anyway, got back my results for finance.. 20.5/30.. not what i expected.. expected better.. i could do better.. just blame it on myself for not studying early and going out even just before the mid-sems.. have told the dearies to scold me next time if they hear that i'm going out just before exams.. disappointed.. but! all those who are going to Hr and finance were in the range of 20 to 21.5.. so haha.. the 5 of us, not so bad lah.. lol.. but still.. haiz, disappointment.. and! someone out of that 4 guys, got the same mark as me.. lol.. but haha, i'm not so bo liao as to be happy just because like tat.. lol.. anyway, i'm off to ramble, blabber on the phone.. update later again or something.. =)

i'm damn tired today.. partly cause of yesterday.. firstly, i met hui yee at tampines to help her with her project... supposedly to meet at 4 pm but there was a miscommunication.. she sent me an sms which i never received so i ended up waiting 1 hr 40 mins for her.. haha.. she could break record sia.. after that we went to get her photos done after getting lollipops.. haha.. was chilling out at tampines mrt station and i received a call from ben.. yes, he asked me where i was and told me to meet him and desheng on the train that was coming, and it was the train i was intending to take.. so yah, left tampines after that.. boarded the train and went to look for them.. found them and ben was so sweet.. he gave up his seat so that i could sit.. haha.. at the end of the ride, i was sitting in between him and desheng..lol..

reached newton early and so we waited for the others.. amy and yong sing joined us in the end.. haha.. so yah, i wasn't the only girl.. lol.. which i guess it was a good thing afterall.. didn't feel left out.. haha.. we ate at newton food centre.. haha, food wise not too bad and i enjoyed the company of the guys! =) after dinner, we went dhoby ghaut to play pool.. and gosh! yong sing was super pro sia.. lol.. slacked around while seeing ben, shaun and yong sing play.. haha.. after that trained home with desheng and yong sing after that.. cabbed home from bedok inter after that cause it was late.. reached home slightly before midnight and even before i stepped into the house, i was on the phone for over an hour or so.. lol.. took a shower at 1 am before going to bed.. dead tired..

today woke up at 9am.. had to go back to school to do MBS project.. was in school till 3 pm.. but!! i'm glad i did some work today for the project.. haha.. i figured out the combo box and stuff. lol.. =) i wasn't late by the way.. was on time!! haha.. the others were early.. lol.. went to TM after that to find out what's wrong with my dear phone.. haiz.. it needs to be sent for servicing now.. will most prob get it done tmr or wed after school.. sian.. no phone.. =( ok, off to dinner.. i'm hungry.. haha.. btw, kai hui's suggesting a sentosa outing this saturday.. not sure if i'll be going cause late nights out and i think mum isn't very happy about it.. so yah, shall see how.. and i'm glad they liked my gifts and could wear/use it! lol.. =)

whee!! mass convo with the guys and gen now.. trying to arrange timing for tmr.. so now end up is 4 guys and 1 girl, that's me.. lol.. owells.. have somehow gotten used to it already.. lol.. anyway, was slacking awae at home today.. super bored.. watched repeated shows on tv and played games online.. basically, it was just bored.. went out for dinner to serangoon.. yum yum.. not too bad.. herbal seafood steamboat.. and we all felt it was worth the money.. i mean, think about it.. crab and big prawns.. haha.. and it was additional $20 a plate!! lol.. overall, this dinner was yummy.. and it somehow overcome my craving for mala steamboat.. haha.. =)

anyway, may be meeting hui yee tmr.. that girl needs help with her school work.. so haha, being the nice fren of hers, lol.. ok, i gotta give angeline a call and see if she's free tmr.. lol.. till then! =)

now that i know there is a possibility of you reading my blog, i just wanna say, whatever i said in the previous post was just how the inner me felt.. i didn't mean to rattle on and say those stuff.. i just wanna say 3 words: I AM SORRY.. i really didn't mean to.. paiseh lah.. =) you know who i'm referring to..

just got back frm church meeting not too long ago.. and i just finished eating my chicken nuggets cause i was hungry.. lol.. feeling tired.. went to school today to do MBS project and yup, we managed to finish tables and a little bit on queries.. at which i wish to say: it's not that i'm not willing to do, but i really don't know how to get it down.. it's not that i don't want to do and let you complete my part but i'm really a noob at this.. this doesn't matter to all reading this.. maybe only to some.. saw hui yee!! haha.. chatted with her for a while.. lol.. =) at least she managed to put a smile on my face today.. came home, rested, dinner before going for meeting..

was chatting with angeline last night on the phone for close to 45 mins? chatted about our holidays and yah, my personal stuff.. owells.. can't mention those personal stuff here cause there are people at home reading this.. and i know it.. but then again, like i give a damn.. dun think i'll be meeting her this holiday alr.. so sad.. trying to see if can meet up for dinner tmr nite.. have smsed her but no reply.. owells.. saddening.. =( haha..

lastly, to end off: after today's short chat with the girls during MBS, i realised that there are people going through worse than how i'm feeling.. and i shouldn't bother people about my matters.. i realised i should look ahead and forget about everything.. i should at least try to regain back to my normal self.. but owells.. and i just want to tell those 2 girls that no matter what happens, you two have me as your fren and you can confide in me.. and being your fren, i will support whatever decision you girls make.. =) cheers people, see you ard.. =)

I'm upset with you.. yes you.. I know you don't read my blog but nevertheless, I'm upset.. why can't you just be like the other guys?? why can't you either just ask me about the truth or pretend you don't know anything and treat me normally? why do you have to ignore me after you have confirmed abt it.. the others asked me how was my trip and whether i had fun.. but you? not even a single thing.. helloz? it's not as if you don't know i went overseas.. just a simple question will kill you is it? she said maybe you don't want to give the wrong idea but even as a fren? i know the answer you have.. i expected the answer so i won't think on the wrong side.. can i say i'm disappointed in you? can't we stay as frens? i can only say, i'm upset with how you're treating me.. and i'm tired.. emotionally tired.. good night.. =(