heehee... currently bored while waiting for my jap grp mates to come online.. so anyway, i was reflecting on some things this morning after the radio DJ played some songs on this particular boyband.. and yup.. a lot of memories sia.. i remembered how i would go crazy every time i saw them on tv and when i hear their songs on radio.. i remembered how i would cry to see them get hurt on variety shows.. i remembered how i was the entertainment reporter in class, updating dear caroline on the person we both liked, at that time.. all these were during secondary school time..

now, i'm not that crazy over them anymore but, i still support them in their careers.. i still support their CDs and even those idol dramas.. i guess like them, i've grown up and have matured some way or other especially after what happen 2 yrs back.. people do change over the years, for the better and maybe even for the worse.. for me, i think i changed for the better.. not that bad-tempered anymore and knowing how to cherish those around me.. emotions wise.. i guess i have yet to change.. still get upset and cry over those failed crushes etc.. but something surprising is that although i know that these crushes may never end up the way i want, yet i still give my all.. silly isn't it? but when i do get badly hurt by them, i give up and look ahead.. they say i seem flirty.. but to me? i see it as i am able to let it go easily.. cause holding onto it will not change anything.. and ok, i do take a long time to realise it cause before anyone hurt me badly, i still have the hope that things will change.. after what happened earlier this year, i thought that i won't like a guy again in year 2 but i was wrong.. history repeated itself and now? although i've given up but i still hope that certain things will change.. will like what was written on that piece of paper be true? 'what you keep to yourself you lose, what you give away, you keep forever.' is this what is happening to me now? i really don't know.. all i know that, for now, studies and my dearest friends come first.. so long as you're a friend of mine, you know where you stand.. =)