final decision made!! i'm not going with them to k box tmr.. and i think even if i do go, i may not sing.. and like what i told sherlyn before, i will never open my mouth to sing in front of guys i like unless he's my other half, then it's a different matter.. lol.. so instead of going with them, i'm going to go out with the following lovely girls: sherlyn, xiao min and yee sin!! =) haha.. honestly speaking, i really did want to go with them to k box but you know, i thought hard and long.. some people who may be going may be people i don't want to hang out with.. so far, i know who's going but it isn't because of them that i decide not to go.. well, other factors played a part as well, for example my physical condition.. my throat only got better today.. to conclude, i'm hanging out with the girls tmr.. =)

HR revision lect tmr.. dun think i'll bring my notes.. but just foolscape paper.. rather jot down the more impt parts and then copy over to my notes.. lol.. saves me bringing that thick stack of notes as well.. lol.. MBS tutorial before that.. i think i'll end up dozing in class or slacking away.. lol.. owells..

one month later and i've somehow put the unhappy events behind me..
i feel i'm more like myself now than one month ago..
i feel i'm more marianne now than one month ago..
in fact, i think i've changed quite a bit..
i used to not let people see the unglam side of me,
when i laugh out loud and having everyone look at me..

but now, i've shown those guys that unglam side of me(if you would consider it..)
i've shown them i don't really bother anymore of how outsiders look at me..
cause if i bother too much about how they think of me, how they see me..
then i won't consider that as the real me..
if i bother too much, what they're seeing will just be a pretence of me, not the real me..
and if i'm not the real me, then it's not life..
cause life is just being who i am, just being me, just being... marianne... :)