i really hate the feeling of being sick.. i tend to get all so emotional and tear at every single bit.. just hate it especially when i'm down with fever and just feel like sleeping all day.. and what's making it worse is, i think my period's coming.. i'm getting those small stomach cramps.. haiz.. and on a rainy day, it's best to stay home and sleep..

going out soon.. off to sit on the singapore flyer.. there's no sense of excitement from me cause the reasons have just been stated.. how nice.. my mood is just being spoilt.. anyway, on a happy note, i received a teacher's day present! from one of the kids in class.. she was just so sweet.. really appreciate the thought.. and yes, i'm a teacher. not a full-time one though. a relief teacher is also a teacher. teaching catechism in church, and being known to the kids as 'i'm your catechism teacher..' is also a teacher.. so yah, i get to celebrate teachers' day.. :)

this leads to a sudden reflection.. actually i feel teachers' day is not just meant for full-time teachers... everyone is a teacher in one way or another.. so we all should celebrate teachers' day.. to one and all, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!! :)

haiz.. sick again.. went to the doctor this morning and had to cancel piano lesson.. down with bad throat that hurts a lot resulting in a slight cough, slight fever and a dripping nose.. my immune system truly sucks this year.. my throat hurt badly last night that i woke up, drank water and took a pill but it didn't seem to work.. this morning just didn't feel like talking and was feeling weak.. so mum said to cancel piano.. how nice.. -.-

anyway, was home at 11 last night.. was super tired cause i woke up early yesterday morning to go back KC with hui yee.. was fun.. had fun.. i missed the days in KC.. with hui yee yesterday, we kept reminiscing those KC days and the jokes and laughter we had.. saw some teachers and they still remembered us which was very sweet of them.. haha.. after that, we went to marina square to do window shopping and had sakae sushi buffet.. totally fun and enjoyable with my best dearie! she was so sweet and because we were troubled over our last papers, we cheered each other up as well with the joke of the day and the many laughters from KC days.. gosh, i really do missed KC.. so many things there that are just so unforgettable and so memorable.. the friendships forged there.. i miss my KC dearies.. they know who they are.. :)

after that was k box with angeline at ehub.. was late and felt so paiseh but tha girl planned a whole lot of surprises and yes, i was touched! many thanks to my dear best pal.. she's one of the best fren i can ever have in poly.. and i know her present for me wasn't cheap.. but i love it lots and she knew it! yesterday was totally a splendid day!! just enjoyed the company yesterday especially during the day!

going out to church at 3.45p.m.. meeting another KC dearie at 4.. and talking about them, i've been meeting quite a number of KC dearies recently.. and some of which i haven seen for a very long long long time.. after church is auntie allyson's house-warming.. gosh, i think i'll be damn tired.. and i'd better bring extra tissue paper.. i foresee my nose wun stop dripping.. lol.. ok, i'm off to play games!!

hui yee dear,
more outings this holidays, yeah??
we have to meet up more often!!
and i just wanna say your fren is 24/7 available..
for you and the other KC dearies..
and dun think too much..
things will turn out fine!
u know my hotline..
just give me a call..
alright, hao peng you?? :)

haiz.. we've got another catechist stepping down... lynette's stepping down as catechist (and i guess, level rep..??) due to poor health.. oh my, we're missing many catechists already.. and now with 2 level reps gone, we're short of catechists... but does that mean my chances of being level rep is higher? hmm.. i dunno.. God has his plans! :)

anyway, on a happy note! EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!! out of the 3 papers, i screwed MBS big time.. like seriously.. unlike HR and finance where although i had a little mental block, i was still able to write logical answers.. but for MBS?? gosh! i had a bad mental block and i couldn't remember all that i studied.. i still hope i pass the paper with my not-so-correct but maybe logical answers.. and preferably still get a B+ overall.. ok, i dun foresee any As this sem.. how nice.. =.= but nevertheless, exams are over! shall enjoy myself now and worry when the results are released in 2 weeks' time.. yong sing left a msg for me last on msn saying that they'll celebrate my birthday for me during chalet.. how nice of them.. i hope i get a surprise!! :)

parkway just now with caroline and nicole! it was nice catching up with them.. haha.. totally awesome!! will most likely be seeing caroline on saturday (and maybe monday??) and nicole on monday.. got to continue helping her with her econs.. i hope she'll do well with my notes.. in all, i had fun with them today! :)

tmr is outing day! will be out from morning till night.. KC with hui yee in the morning followed by lunch and window shopping till early evening before going to pasir ris.. k box at night after that.. the buffet one! so looking forward to those two events tmr.. and you know wad? i'll be eating sushi the whole of tmr.. how nice! :) haha.. ok, more edits maybe tonite..

i totally have no mood to study MBS already.. i'm halfway on my way to holiday mood already... this is sooo bad... and tmr's the last paper and it's in the morning.. haiz.. and i predict i'll have a big problem getting up tmr, which means i've got to sleep early tonight.. and hopefully i can fall asleep.. lol...

tmr after MBS paper will be the start of my holidays.. whee!! this week is full already.. looking forward to my dates with my dearies and my bestie.. tmr is library date with nicole and caroline.. going back to KC on friday for teachers' day celebration with hui yee followed by lunch and shopping? and den k box at night.. haha.. fun-filled day!!! :) and after exams tmr, i've got lots of errands i wanna do.. deposit money, arrange dates with dearies and besties and class chalet! so many things to look forward this holiday!! people, it's time to party!!

to xiao min, yee sin, sherlyn, DJ etc: next week we go out, k?? u all go plan and let me know!! and dun miss out anyone!!
to tracy: we must meet more often this holiday, k? and to start it off, it's our cycling lesson next week! and maybe we can go sun-tanning again on sentosa.. :) love you dear girl! and you're being missed..

3 papers...
2 down...
1 to go...

and i'm looking forward to saturday...
cause i may see you... :)

HR paper today.. not too bad.. i think i did pretty ok for the case study and essay questions except for a little blunder here and there.. finance after that with xiao min at home.. she came over, slacked and back to work... just finished dinner and i stink! haha.. shall go take a shower as soon as i finished typing this post.. i missed sherlyn and DJ man! haven seen them for a week.. and the moment we saw each other, the noise level went up! haha.. that was how loud we were, on just deciding where to have lunch.. will be lunching at home instead tmr.. at least i will have time to do one more practice paper even though i may not complete it.. but nevertheless, it's always worth doing it cause you never know what will come out.. ok, i'm off to the shower.. it's lovely to have a night shower!! cause it's sooo relaxing!!! :)

3 papers...
1 down...
2 to go...
gambatte everyone!!

i miss talking to you..
will you be online tonight??

exams officially start tmr for me! gosh.. how time flies.. i've completed all topics for all subjects already!! good or bad? haha.. but will still do my revision for the next few papers the day before.. to all, happy mugging!! bear with it for another 3 more days! it'll be over in a flash!! :)

my start of the holiday has started to be filled with activities.. or rather, at least till the end of this week... thursday after MBS paper, i'm out till evening(?) with nicole and caroline.. accompanying them to study at marine parade library.. shall help them with econs since i studied that last sem and think i didn't fare that badly... will need to dig up my notes from my box..you know, having not seen nicole for more than a year and only seeing caroline once every few months, i so treasure the times when we can meet, especially when they have their A levels this year.. friday is dinner with bestie!! saturday is church day.. auntie tina needs me to help her with the class so i said ok since exams are over, i've got nothing to do at home and i may meet him, so why not? after all, i've giving word that i would help out on saturdays if i'm free.. after that is house-warming party at mum's fren's place.. sunday is church day again! church till afternoon, followed by rest time at home and then off to the Singapore Flyer in the evening and then dinner! gosh, this week seems to be filled with activities from thursday onwards and i'm sooo looking forward to it!! after that, it's time to pick up the phone and ask people like TRACY and hui yee out for shopping and meals!! gosh, hopefully, my holidays will be filled and will be spent fruitfully! hear that, girls from poly?? haha! we'll still hang out during the holidays, rite?! haha.. ok, i'm off to wait for dinner and to do my HR paper! :)

a million thanks to all who remembered my birthday! :) thanks to nicole, who was the first to wish me.. thanks to caroline, tracy, sherlyn, ben, kelly, desheng, xiao min, yee sin, DJ, ting and fiona.. thanks for remembering ur fren's special day as she turned a year older! thanks to my lovely P2 kids, who sang a birthday song to me as i entered class upon returning from CATS office.. they were so sweet and i nearly cried (although after that, they got me a little angry cause of their craftwork.. but that's not the main issue..) thanks to my two lovely partners, auntie evelyn and auntie teresa for their well-wishes.. thanks to the parents' frens who wished me when at dinner just now.. and lastly, thanks to my family.. if it wasn't for them, i would not have been here, being who i am today, supporting me in my decisions and giving me those invaluable advices.. of course the most important thanks goes to the woman who was in labour 18 years ago, who went through much pain and suffering to bring this little child, now 18, to this world.. thank you mummy! :) of course, someone very close to me has yet to wish me.. i hope she remembers.. haha.. once again, a million thanks to all of you! and i can now proudly say: I AM FINALLY 18!! OF LEGAL AGE!! ;)

a post on the past and this friendship which i treasured a lot.. i met this very good fren of mine from secondary school just now at parkway.. this fren.. she went through a lot with me.. how we met in primary 6 when she was my junior since she only became a prefect in primary 6.. at the end of the year, i thought, ok, that was it.. just a hi-and-bye fren.. but no! we slowly became the best of frens when we ended up in the same class in sec 1.. same group and we started our 'class family'.. where hui yee was the grandma, she was the grandma's sister and i was the maid cause i was often bullied by them and yet continued to help them buy drinks and collect their homework as i was sitting in front.. and i would remember the time when she got scolded by mr lee cause of her maths book.. she went to the toilet to cry and we were all rather worried for her cause she didn't seem the kind to cry.. after that incident, she hated mr lee like nuts! haha! but then again, everyone in class didn't really like him esp when he was our maths and pe teacher..

in sec 2, i wanted to sit behind her so that she could help me since she was very good in maths and smart.. but no, i ended up sitting in a different grp but still continued buying drinks for her during recess and that year, i became the tissue woman.. still remembered the time when she wrote that stupid little 'marianne and *** sitting on the tree' song.. and that embarrassed me in front of the whole class.. luckily our teacher didn't see it cause i still remember that day it was raining so assembly was in class.. it made me real mad and i didn't talk to her the whole day even though the usual happenings still happened.. and she knew it and she apologised to me through friendster.. well, i'm not the petty type so we were back to normal after that although i did say i was angry with her.. sec 2 that yr, our friendship nearly broke down cause of an incident.. and it happened just before my birthday.. she however was still on my birthday party invitation list and i thought she was angry and wouldn'd turn up.. but the night of the party, she called and we made up and she came! that time, her partner had to act as a messenger btw us.. coming to think of it now, it was rather childish of us.. haha...

sec 3 we split class.. but we still attended core geog lectures tgt with the rest of the girls.. had fun cause we wld sit and talk and eventually get scolded by the teachers for being noisy.. lol.. and because we split class, we slowly stopped hanging out tgt yet we wld still keep in contact.. this continued till sec 4.. although now we are both busy with school work and since our timings are different, it's difficult to meet up.. yet we have each other on our mind and occasionally, she would send an sms or give a call and we wld chat.. sometimes, i would be the one doing it.. after all, in a friendship it's a give-and-take.. it's the same as being in a BGR.. no matter where we are, no matter what we're doing, i'll always remember the times i had with her.. the times where i would go over to her place to study and risk getting scolded by mum and she would cover up for me.. the times where i would go back with her tgt after school.. the times where she would use me as a cover whenever she was going out with boys and didn't want to let her mum know.. the times when i used her as a cover when i was going out with guys from my class.. and she would inform me beforehand and vice versa.. i will never forget this fren of mine.. she will always be the fren whom i will look for when i need a listening ear for very personal matters.. she will always be the one who i will provide her with a listening ear and a shoulder if she needs.. and this fren will always be placed the first few in my friends' ranking.. her name is NICOLE TAN.. :)

dear nicole,
if you ever need a listening ear...
or a shoulder to cry on..
always remember, that you've got a fren called Marianne..
she'll always be there for you..
love ya! :)

surprisingly, my progress everyday for studying seems to be good.. by evening, i'm done with my studying.. this of course excludes the finance paper which i have to do daily.. yet what worries me is i may have completed my daily to-do topics but have i really remembered what i've studied? hopefully, i don't forget everything that i've studied earlier on.. otherwise, it is just sooo bad and terrible.. and during this period of studying, i've helped friends out and they have helped me out as well.. me and ben, me and yee sin or me and xiao min.. helping to answer each other's questions and if unsure, asking other friends or Mr DHL aka yong sing.. haha.. he answered one qn that ben asked me and me nor xiao min couldn't answer.. grateful to him!! :)

over a period of time, certain friendships have changed.. the friendship between me and yong sing have been better and i guess, i would say stronger after we clarified things.. the friendships between me and the girls have also become stronger as they stood by me during my darkest periods.. but for some, the friendship is still there but maybe not like before.. yet i'm thankful for these friends! cause be it now or in the past, they've heard my woes and gave me advice.. they played a beautiful role in my life.. ok, no idea why i'm writing this.. maybe cause a new friendship was created through me.. so these reflections.. and i think i've been influenced by my younger sis.. to occasionally write bipolar things on my blog.. haha.. but that's life, isn't it? and i think i'm a pig.. a hungry pig.. i get hungry super easily these few days and it's always 2-3 hours after i had lunch.. does studying use up my energy so fast? like now, i'm hungry again.. guess i'm off to get food from downstairs.. gosh, i'd better exercise during the holidays! ok peeps, happy mugging!! ;)
*edits:
after so long, my eye candy finally added me on friendster!! made me so happy.. does this mean a good start as friends? lol.. nevertheless, i'm happy :)

i will get the answer that i want in 2 days...
will you be there??
i hope so..
and i want a happy birthday this year.. :)

hell, i clicked the wrong button and now, i have to retype everything again.. anyway, after much changes, xiao min and yee sin evetually came to study.. had fun with them from the time we confirmed that we're studying again to the time i saw xiao min off at the bus stop.. xiao min, dun worry, ur funny event is known only to me and yee sin!! haha.. but they're fun to be with.. exchanging notes and stuff, slacking, munching, piano and those emails.. great way to relax after the many days of hectic studying!! and talking about studying, i've yet to touch on my subjects for today.. hopefully i can complete studying at least 2 subjects by 11p.m.. otherwise i foresee another late night which i'm totally drained.. so i'd better jia you! anyway, after exams, i'm so going to enjoy and relax!! with sec sch frens like hui yee and tracy and with poly mates like xiao min, sherlyn and those from my current class.. okok, back to my 'best fren' aka my lecture notes.. ;) happy mugging frens!

as the songs play, track by track,
those beautiful memories play in my mind..
and yet amidst those beautiful memories,
i see your face..
and all i wanna say is..
i miss you...

i just had to blog abt this thing which i thought was amusing to me.. was just talking to ben and he went for the additional finance lesson today.. and when just after i asked him if many went, the next thing that popped into my head was 'I bet you missed me..'?? hahahaha... amusing huh? ok, maybe not.. lol.. just finished my macs.. and yes, i know i shouldn't be eating oily food but you know, when i'm alone at home and hungry, i can't be bothered.. haha.. ok, i'm off to bathe before carrying on with the last subject on my schedule - finance.. update tonight again! ;)

doctor visit today.. guess it really was mild gastric flu.. doctor said i wasn't badly dehydrated despite having the runs and vomiting.. so i guess more rest would do the body good.. dun worry, frens! the girl's fine.. :) was at home today, studying and resting and munching.. haha.. believe or not, despite my occasional stomach pains and the toilet visits, i still felt like eating.. but up to now, my stomach's feeling a lot better although it still hurts.. i shall rest more and cut down on my food intake.. frens have been telling me i've put on weight cause my face shows it all.. drats, this is just so bad.. although my face is rounder, makes me look 'cuter' but no, this is not right.. my weight has to be lost.. haha.. anyone keen on exercising during the hols after the exams?? haha..

my parents are back frm penang! love the shoes mum got me.. haha.. wearing those on sunday to match my jumper!! haha.. sunday's a special day for me.. just looking forward to it.. :) anyway, someone made me smile just now.. the feeling for him is just mutual.. we're just frens and really, our current relationship with each other is so much better than when i had feelings for him.. because occasionally, i'll receive smses frm him and these smses, although doesn't have much significance, always is able to put a smile on my face.. reason being, it's because we've cleared matters that's why he's smsing me just like frens.. if u understand what i mean.. it's not easy to explain but yah, i guess the point is there.. if i'm feeling better and i'm going to school tmr, i'll see him.. and the last sms he sent me was 'ok can. have a good rest then'... this just simply makes me smile.. to him, no other feelings.. just purely frens and i'm treating this friendship as one that will last forever.. he will definitely be on my wedding invitations when i get married one day.. :)

i wish the next message received on friendster...
is from you..
although i know..
it may never be..

i'm feeling out of sorts today.. not exactly my usual self.. and i can confirm one thing, he doesn't or seldom come to church on sunday to serve? cause he wasn't here today.. so caroline was right.. he attends the saturday mass.. but i wasn't that disappointed cause i expected it especially since i saw him yesterday during the 4.45pm mass. so yah.. but still, i just don't feel normal today.. maybe next week.. on that day that is special to me.. maybe i'll see him.. but like what i said, chances of me seeing him next week during the workshop is 70%.. lol... owells.. leaving it to GOD.. if God wants us to be friends, we'll eventually be frens.. but will it come true? i have no idea.. ok, i'm going back to my books.. got to complete 2 days worth of chapters.. jia you! perhaps more edits tonite.. :)

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...
can this week pass fast
so that i can get an answer to what i'm looking forward for??

*edits:
my health system sucks to the core this year.. sick dunno how many times alr.. sore throat, stomach pain, minor surgery on my hand.. and now? i think i'm down with gastric flu.. diarrhea since wednesday and i started vomiting this evening.. argh!! most prob off to the doc tmr.. now is so badly not the time to fall sick but what is happening to me?? can't stand it.. however on the other hand, although my health system sucks, i made new guy frens.. be it those hi-and-bye frens or those who will stay with me till even after poly.. guys like melvin, ben etc.. those guys.. ok, i foresee those guys lah.. my tao hua yun not bad this year wor.. better than last year.. haha.. and more crushes and eye candies as well.. don't you think so? but nevertheless, no matter how good my tao hua yun is this year, they all still can't beat this group of people who have been through my rough patch and lent me their listening ear and who i always see everyday, be it rain or shine.. they are my family and my dearest frens!! ;)

all i wish..
is just a reply from you...

tired yet happy.. smiles all on my face this evening.. :) before i say the happy things, i'm so dead meat.. i didn't study a single bit today.. and i'm freaking tired.. looks like i'll have to study 2 days' load tmr.. :( this is bad.. no more going out till after exams.. it's really bad.. totally not following my study schedule..

anyway, on a happy note! i went to church today! helped out the 3pm class.. i think that class is better than my class but just as noisy.. at least they listen.. but maybe cause i'm a new face to them, that's why they behave better.. after the class, i was contemplating whether or not to go for the 4.45 mass and i smsed caroline.. after which, at 4.35pm, i decided to go so yup i went for mass!! but he wasn't serving.. somehow expected it since the 6pm mass would be some big celebration for the altar boys and he being one of the senior(?) would serve.. was a little disappointed but was prepared for such an outcome.. then halfway during mass, i saw him near the priests' house! obviously, he didn't see me lah! but i saw him!! and immediately, i started smiling.. haha.. cause it was so unexpected.. haha.. and he was indeed going to serve the 6pm mass cause he was holding his altar boy attire.. lol.. so a smile was put on my face.. out for dinner at bugis after church..

checked my friendster just now.. he last log in yesterday but he didn't reply my msg or add me.. owells.. maybe we're not fated to be friends.. but who knows? i'll most probably see him next sunday in the afternoon.. well, at least i'm 70% sure he'll be there.. cause the altar boys are in charge of church search.. so he'll most prob be there.. if chance allows, maybe i would talk to him.. maybe i won't.. will have to depend.. but nevertheless, he made me smile a little.. :) ok, i'm off to keep my good fren aka my lecture notes company.. night peeps!!

looking forward to it...
all i'm asking for is just to be friends...
and lastly, like everyone,
my notes have become my best fren for the next 1 wk or so...

as I heard the door lock this morning at 6.30a.m, I felt the house was suddenly so quiet.. and I suddenly thought of my eye candy.. haiz.. this is bad.. and I've got a bad feeling about this...

it will be more than just what it is now...

more edits tonite (if I'm not too tired...)

*edit:

just got home not too long ago.. feeling a little tired.. but still will have to carry on studying tmr.. will be going to church tmr afternoon.. not sure if after that still going out for dinner and/or movie or not.. well, if we are, maybe i may consider going for the 4.45 mass.. maybe can catch a few glimpses of him.. if not, i may just sit at the foyer and do my studying... but if we're not going out, then after the 3pm class, i'll come home.. no point wasting time in church.. anyway, dinner with angeline and the sisters was fun! enjoyed myself especially when we went to ehub to play arcade.. fun but i think i'll be aching tmr.. lol.. tired.. haha.. and i updated her on the eye candy as well.. haha.. well, another date with her but after exams.. :)

during dinner, i saw an sms from caroline!! gosh, after i saw the msg, i called her.. she saw him!!! ahh!! lol.. 'jealous' sia.. haha.. and according to her, he's not feeling well.. she saw him sniffing and coughing.. poor thing.. hope he get well soon.. haha.. and we were talking about tmr and stuff.. well, after knowing that tmr is St Pius's feast day, i think he will serve the 6.15pm mass tmr.. cause big event.. and his position in the altar boys ministry is quite high, i guess.. cause everytime those big masses, he's alwaes serving.. lol.. and caroline said smth which i tot was gross.. haha.. owells, if God wants me to meet him tmr, He will let me meet him tmr.. :) hmm.. i'm not sure if it's convenient to mention his name here but the way caroline addresses him to me is as if he's very close to us.. haha..

i think it will be more than just an eye candy...

many thoughts running through my head tonite.. after the meeting, after i got home.. by the 2nd half of the meeting, i wasn't mentally present alr.. but nevertheless, let me jot down my thoughts..

firstly, i'm like finally meeting angeline after donkey years!! like really!! meeting her tmr.. she's coming to my place after her driving first before deciding where we wanna go before dinner at seoul garden with steph and angel! so looking forward to it.. just talked to her on the phone.. so many things to update her about especially my new eye candy.. lol.. so excited.. tmr's the day!! :)

next, talking about my eye candy.. no, i din see him today.. he wasn't serving mass.. so yah.. but i'll be helping out in church on saturday.. during the 3pm lesson.. since the catechists for the 3pm class are relatively new.. so yah, i'll go in and may be learn from them how they handle the class.. and help them out with the confession drills.. and because of that, i may bump into him.. lol.. well, like what i told xiao min, on the surface it seems i'm helping out in church but main purpose is to maybe catch a few glimpses of him.. haha.. owells.. fate.. :)

third, i got my finance coursework grade and my HR project results.. i did better than what i expected for my finance coursework even though it could be a border-line case.. but because of that, i'm going to fight it out with finance and chiong finance.. hopefully my hard work will pay off and get at least a B overall.. as for HR project, we met our target!! well done peeps!! we did a lot better and jumped 2 grades!! quite happy.. overall for the project part, group plus individual, i got a B.. hopefully my coursework wun get affected badly by my mid-sem.. will call my tutor up tmr to check my coursework.. :)

lastly, i'm tired.. it's time to rest.. after all that chitter chatter and the thoughts, i'm tired.. more to talk about tmr with angeline.. more bitching around.. haha.. and of course, tell her more abt my eye candy! ok, tata.. off to dreamland.. night folks!! :)

I'm not going in to do relief teaching from now till end of exams.. cause i dun wan my GPA to drop.. so i'll be a good girl and stay home and study.. lol.. i turned down to teach today by the wae.. lol.. surprising huh? marianne turning down $65 just to study.. haha.. actually that wasn't totally the case.. my back was aching.. no idea why either when i didn't even do any exercise.. told mum this evening and after knowing where was hurting, she concluded that i could have sprained my back.. i can't even laugh too long.. poor me.. i hope the pain go away tmr.. :(

anyway, i'm not going for public speaking tutorial tmr.. 2nd time so it's just a warning email.. after all, it's the last lesson already.. so i'm coming home after finance lect or after lunch with the girls.. just as well.. i can come home and rest.. and maybe sleep for an hour or so.. lol.. going to church in the evening for mass.. wondering whether i'll see my eye candy? will he be there? lol.. we shall see tmr.. i think xiao min and sherlyn and caroline will receive sms from me if he's there.. haha.. :) after mass, there's CATS meeting.. i hope they won't end too late.. so i'll be dinner-ing in church.. poor me.. either at the foyer, CATS office or P2 classroom.. but i think most prob foyer after everyone leave.. so embarrassing to eat at the foyer when everyone is there.. or rather, mr eye candy seeing me have my dinner there.. or maybe i should change my mind and dine at the CATS office..?? lol.. shall see how tmr lah.. ok, i'm tired.. i hope i can sleep tonite.. slept well last night.. maybe cause it was cooling and i was tired from all that fun!! lol.. dun think i'll blog tmr.. see what time meeting end first.. till then, night peeps!! :)

crush or eye candy??
hmmm...
we shall see... :)

hahahahahahaha..... i just felt like laughing on a tuesday morning at 9.17a.m.. and i'm finding something unbelievable.. like seriously.. they don't find the eye candy good-looking.. they think *ahem* is better.. *rolls eyes* but haha... did my taste deproved again?? lol.. but in person, he really looks not bad and i still find his age unbelievable.. haha.. he just doesn't seem his age.. haha.. i seem to be in a good mood today.. haha.. just laughing away but this spells trouble for xiao min they all later.. they'll know why.. anyway, rgd my eye candy.. he hasn't add me on friendster nor reply my message.. well, hopefully he adds and yah, become friends.. lol.. no harm, right? ok, more when i get home this evening frm the sushi buffet with them.. :)

*edits:
back from that oh-my-goodness sushi buffet.. was already high during MBS lecture and super hungry.. not because i didn't eat lunch but i walked off my lunch when i went to Yu Neng to pass mum her specs.. and i was late somemore.. but my dear classmates were so nice to offer me a seat but i didn't sit with them anyway cause i spotted jean right in front.. but thanks to them! :) after MBS, i was soo hungry that i started going out of control.. was laughing and chatting with xiao min and sherlyn.. went to photocopy some notes b4 taking a cab down to CS for our sushi!!

had lotsa of fun and sherlyn was damn funny.. she almost ordered 3 sets of all the side dishes.. luckily me and xiao min stopped her.. in the end, we ordered 2 sets but we were dying, just trying to finish up that 2 sets of dunno-how-many-side dishes.. just one round and we nearly gave up.. sherlyn was even more high than me today.. and we concluded, that girl contradicts herself.. why? first she wld say she's full to eat.. then she would ask if we wanted any more and she would order.. and me and xiao min wld start laughing.. after a while, she wld say that she's full again and yes, you guessed it.. it became a cycle and we had no idea how many times this cycle repeated.. and it was damn damn damn funny.. lol.. xiao min almost scalded her hand while re-filling her green tea with hot water (or did she?).. she thought it was full already and so she moved her hand and scalded herself.. lol.. sherlyn found it amusing and there went another round of laughing.. as for me, those 2 gave me a nickname which i though that yes, it's cute and funny but kiddy.. haha.. i shan't mention it here.. but i predict those two will tag it on my tagboard.. haha.. and they suggested i change my blog address to the nickname.. forget it man!! it's just too kiddy.. haha.. and the nickname came from the skirt i was wearing today.. lol.. anyway, here are the pics that we took today!! :)


our 2 sets of side orders.. and this wasn't the end of it..


our yummy handrolls!!


xiao min and her chawanmushi..


sherlyn and me!! she and her contradicting speeches.. lol..


presenting to you my dear sherlyn and my all-time chit-chat fren, xiao min!!

haha.. lastly to end off!! i'm happy that my MBS coursework is an A and 2nd in class!! ok, i'm not boasting but yah, i'm happy!! just wanna share the joy with you peeps.. anyway, to yee sin: sad u didn't come.. see, you missed out the fun!! haha.. next time.. :)

i've been feeling rather restless today.. since last night till now.. didn't really sleep well last night.. was feeling too warm, so in the end, the fan was at speed 2 and blowing at me.. and yet! i didn't sleep well till this morning.. kept tossing and turning.. no idea why either.. and i'm somehow losing my appetite.. wondering if it's because of exam stress.. making me lose my appetite and my sleep..?? to conclude, i just felt time pass rather slow today and just couldn't concentrate.. literally, i was just being restless..

received an unexpected call today from caroline, my sec sch fren.. i smsed her rgd someone.. and surprisingly, she called me when i only expected her to reply back via sms.. haha.. had a nice 13-min chat with her! and haha, she kept asking me whether me and my new eye candy had anything going on.. and he was the reason why i smsed caroline.. haha.. apparently, she knows his existance but dunno him as a fren.. lol.. after the phone call, i continued to chat with her a few hours later online and haha, when she went offline, she wished me good luck.. haha.. come to think of it, good luck? hmm.. in becoming frens or something more than frens?? haha.. time will tell..

started my studying already.. a topic a day for each subject and my first subject on my list was... *drum roll* HRM!! just read through the intro lecture cause i think intro lecture can only come out mainly for mcq?? lol.. and because i mentioned that i was restless, i couldn't concentrate.. maybe cause of the weather as well.. (ok, marianne, dun find excuses.. just say someone was on your mind..) k, whatever.. so yup, my studying made its debut again!! haha.. as for tmr, coming home during the break to get my finance tutorial and the past year papers for sherlyn to photocopy.. i dun wanna bring to school cause it may be too heavy.. so i'd rather go home.. at least i can rest.. might as well.. haha.. sakae sushi after MBS lecture!! looking forward to it!! haha.. but sadly, yee sin's not joining us.. she put us on an aeroplane and fly us far far away.. haha.. she knows what i mean lah.. lol.. owells.. ok, i'm going back to play games.. till the next post.. night peeps!! =)

the many sides to the girl called MARIANNE...

i asked 2 frens today if having more than 1 eye candy was ok.. and their reply was 'yes!'.. haha.. i think i've got an additional eye candy.. lol.. ever since i started helping with church events, i noticed him already.. hmm.. comparing looks, haha, he's quite good-looking, i swear! really.. better looking than *ahem*.. his name is the same as my cousin's and i found his friendster account and for the fun of it, i added him.. lol.. then again, no harm, rite? since we belong to the same church.. and yes, i see him almost every week in church.. lol... he's really really good-looking.. haha.. so an additional eye candy to my list.. and talking about eye candy, haha, i think that guy in my public speaking class is old news, is over.. haha.. i mean, it's just an eye candy.. so i'm not taking it seriously.. lol.. and like what sherlyn said, eye candies can see more.. free one!! haha.. so yah, no harm.. =)

my nose isn't in good condition today.. have been sneezing since this morning i woke up.. and i got pissed off at 7 plus in the morning.. argh!! but anyway, that's not the main issue.. came back from church.. received an sms from hui yee, asking me to go out.. but i think we're going out for dinner so i turned her down and i wasn't exactly feeling well.. well, we can always go out after my exams.. lol.. =) and something to make me feel better, i've watched episode 10 already even though it wasn't in cantonese.. no choice.. the videos uploaded were all in chinese.. lol.. hopefully episode 11 is in cantonese.. ok, i'll end here.. shall spend my last day slacking b4 it's serious business tmr onwards.. =)

my eye candies dun last very long..
as for this new one, hmm.. we shall see..
but imagine this bearing fruit..
lol.. ok, marianne.. back to reality...

*edits:
if my mum becomes a grand-godma, would that make me a god-aunt? haha.. baby jaden's super duper cute!! ahh!! ok, i'm out of control when it comes to babies.. and i'm not feeling well again.. shucks.. crush or eye candy? we shall see... =)

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY FRENS!! haha.. time sure pass very fast.. it's august alr.. ok, i think there isn't any link to that.. but anyway, i need to make some considerations to my study schedule.. was actually considering of sleeping late and wake up late.. slp late like at 1 am and wake up at 9, 10 am.. so i still get my 8-9 hours of sleep.. of course, that's during my study week and the days which i don't have classes this coming week, mainly monday, wednesday and friday.. yes, me and xiao min share almost the same off days just that i have an additional day than her.. haha.. and of course, i was also thinking of how i should get around studying.. maybe at night then i'll come online to check my mail and relax for an hour or 2.. of course, catch my 溏心風暴之家好月圓.. that shall be an incentive if i finish what i have to study for the day.. and yes, it's time to work out my study schedule.. lol.. exams.. i'm taking it as a part and parcel of life.. shouldn't that be the case?

ok, enough of school and study plans.. i foresee sherlyn coming after me.. haha.. i made a sweet sweet dream last night.. nothing to do with school peeps and raymond lin.. i dreamt that i was in a relationship and gosh, it was soooo soooo sweet.. haha.. yikes! i think i'm watching too much HK romance shows already.. lol.. but the dream made me smile in my sleep.. haha.. i guess this is what they call sweet dreams.. anyway, the girls are informed of the tuesday plan already!! yeah!! sake sushi, chit-chat session and laughs.. next thing is to go home after MBS tutorial or not?? lol.. still in the midst of consideration.. maybe i will.. to rest and get energised for the bonding session after that.. lol.. but if the gang is going out to eat lunch, maybe i'll follow.. and you know what? this week is the last week before the exams and most prob the last few times i'll talk to my clique? have realised that actually i got nothing in common with the two of them... i mean, you can tell.. but for the guys, haha.. plenty of chances especially if i end up in the same class as either shaun, ben or melvin.. looking forward to having them as classmates next sem again!! =)

i've finished watching 溏心風暴之家好月圓 episode 9.. ooohhh.. so nice!! haha.. the female character played by linda chung is starting to like the male character played by lin feng!! OMG!! haha.. but i dun understand why eventually she ended up with bosco wong's character.. hmm.. watch on and i'll know.. and yes, i know exams are approaching.. but one episode a day.. shall take it as an incentive to study in the afternoon.. haha.. just to find one episode is not easy.. lol..

anyway, after much consideration, i went for HR today.. the lesson itself was 30 mins while waiting for the class was another 30 mins.. so i ended at 3 and was home by 3.20p.m.. how nice.. felt it was a waste of time even though the tutor went through the answers for MCQ for the main paper last year.. came home, slacked a bit before meeting yee sin to exercise.. ok, i was more of playing than exercising.. haha.. we chatted and ate ice-cream and discussed what we were going to do for our outing on tuesday! and apparently DJ can't join us again because she went back to malaysia today due to family matters.. owells.. if i were to say sherlyn and my bb tea mei yuan, then DJ and our tuesday outings also mei yuan.. dun u think so?? but plan for tuesday is to go sakae at TM and eat and slack and have fun!! note that, ok, sherlyn, xiao min and yee sin??!! it's a deal.. our last tuesday outing before study week (although we'll be meeting up during study week..) looking forward to it.. =)

some things are not meant to be...
and I'll leave it to fate to decide..

I'm dead tired.. morning class from 9am till this evening.. and and and!!!! JAP PRESENTATION IS FINALLY OVER!!! haha.. and today was the last lesson.. which simply meant that me and sherlyn got full attendance for jap tutorial!! haha.. looks like next week we'll be chilling out after finance lecture.. lol.. anyway, it was raining damn heavily just now.. was stuck in school with the girls after photocopying exam papers.. but maybe it was fate, i coincidentally bumped into him outside the library.. and seriously, i didn't expect it.. so like what sherlyn say, got fate (you yuan).. haha.. owells.. leaving it to fate.. and i have no idea why my eye was red.. contact lens? or just simply too tired?? i dunno.. and my house's lifts all broke down.. yes, all 3 of them.. so i waited for mum at the void deck and climbed up to the 14th floor with her.. at the end of it, i was damn hungry and tired and i was having gastrics.. boy, i ate 4 pizza bread after that while waiting for dinner.. haha...

my thoughts all seem to be in a mess.. someone, clear my thoughts for me, yeah?? and i don't feel like going for HR tutorial tmr.. hopefully it's the last lesson?? but i've got my doubts now.. owells.. i'm out of here... nights peeps.. =)

they make me feel so sian.. thank goodness i'm seeing them for the last time tmr.. lol.. i'm 98% not going for the last jap tutorial.. haha.. i'd rather slack lor.. anyway, i just hope lecture dun end so late and i can finish my lunch in 30 mins, even if it meant i was to suffer from an uncomfortable tummy after that..

ok, enough of that.. i slacked my day today.. haha.. finished 6 hot dog buns!! but it was those mini ones that would be gone within 5 mouths.. lol.. it was so nice sleeping in till close to 11.. haha.. i love mondays, wednesdays and fridays!! cause i get to sleep in and get 9-10 hours of sleep.. haha.. dun be envious.. lol.. btw, my very nice neighbour, yee sin, came over in the evening to rehearse with me my jap.. she said i not bad.. and i think so too, taking into consideration that i dun have that many lines.. haha.. oh, this reminds me.. TYS!! dessert tmr?? lol.. ok, i'm out of here..

quoted from xiao min:
main exams = time to get serious and less going out...
this is my main point for the month of august...
gambatte dears!! =)

money is the root of all evil.. haha.. only xiao min, yee sin, sherlyn know what i'm talking about.. haha.. MBS tutorial was boring as usual.. HR revision lecture.. i was falling asleep even though i knew the lecture was impt.. after that, yee sin and xiao min came to my place for lunch and we watched tv and played scrabble.. i fell asleep for a few minutes while watching tv.. was dead sleepy and i lost to the both of them at scrabble.. as a result, i treated them to ice-cream from the mama shop.. haha... went to ehub to meet sherlyn after that..

the four of us went insane at ehub.. and today, sherlyn was even more high than me, after she bought toto and the winning prize was $8 million.. haha.. we had bubble tea and sushi and we chatted a lot and laughed a lot.. but sadly, time passes fast.. i was still thinking on whether i should meet the class peeps for dinner since they were at ehub's k box as well.. called ben and asked him.. but in the end, i left with the girls.. haha.. and at the bus stop, we saw ben! haha.. and ben saw the crazy side of us 4 girls.. lol.. we were literally insane sia.. kept laughing and laughing abt the winning draw.. haha.. but on the way back, we were soo tired that we stopped laughing.. but sherlyn still a bit mad lah.. haha.. lol.. but really, i really enjoyed myself every tuesday during our bonding session.. i so hope me and sherlyn will end up same class and that our bonding session continue even after exams.. =)

sherlyn and her bubble tea...
yee sin and her peppermint...
xiao min and her gelare ice-cream...
me and my hyperness...
I SO LOVE THESE GIRLS!! =)

final decision made!! i'm not going with them to k box tmr.. and i think even if i do go, i may not sing.. and like what i told sherlyn before, i will never open my mouth to sing in front of guys i like unless he's my other half, then it's a different matter.. lol.. so instead of going with them, i'm going to go out with the following lovely girls: sherlyn, xiao min and yee sin!! =) haha.. honestly speaking, i really did want to go with them to k box but you know, i thought hard and long.. some people who may be going may be people i don't want to hang out with.. so far, i know who's going but it isn't because of them that i decide not to go.. well, other factors played a part as well, for example my physical condition.. my throat only got better today.. to conclude, i'm hanging out with the girls tmr.. =)

HR revision lect tmr.. dun think i'll bring my notes.. but just foolscape paper.. rather jot down the more impt parts and then copy over to my notes.. lol.. saves me bringing that thick stack of notes as well.. lol.. MBS tutorial before that.. i think i'll end up dozing in class or slacking away.. lol.. owells..

one month later and i've somehow put the unhappy events behind me..
i feel i'm more like myself now than one month ago..
i feel i'm more marianne now than one month ago..
in fact, i think i've changed quite a bit..
i used to not let people see the unglam side of me,
when i laugh out loud and having everyone look at me..

but now, i've shown those guys that unglam side of me(if you would consider it..)
i've shown them i don't really bother anymore of how outsiders look at me..
cause if i bother too much about how they think of me, how they see me..
then i won't consider that as the real me..
if i bother too much, what they're seeing will just be a pretence of me, not the real me..
and if i'm not the real me, then it's not life..
cause life is just being who i am, just being me, just being... marianne... :)

feeling not too good today.. church this morning.. got a little pissed off and irritated with the class today.. they weren't exactly angels.. i said before class started that i couldn't shout so they would have to keep quiet.. in the end? i still ended up shouting and my throat hurt so much i couldn't talk.. had small chats with some church people today.. enjoyed it.. =) saw godma today.. but felt so sorry cause i had to whisper while talking to her.. lol.. she asked me what happened to me and steph during mass when we left to go to the toilet one after another.. haha.. well, heehee, nature calls..

lunch at grandparents' place before coming home.. and ooh!!! i watched episode 6 alr.. lol.. most likely will catch episode 7 tmr? but after i completed school stuff.. or rather, after i complete my jap.. but i think i would watch at night bah.. then can have sweet dreams.. haha.. of course, that is if the episode's uploaded online alr.. my tutorials are more or less done, i guess?? gotta ask xiao min some qns rgd to finance.. lol.. and i think that will be tmr..

contemplating on whether i should go k box or not on tuesday after HR revision lect.. yes, i think i've mentioned this already.. but now, i'm starting to cough and the throat's still pain.. even if i dun go for k box, i may not go out with the girls too.. come home and rest since exams are drawing near and i'm not in best condition.. you know what i mean.. haha.. hmm.. it feels i've got lots to do but you know wad? in fact, there's very little.. haiz.. can't wait for jap presentation 2 to be over!! owells.. nights peeps.. =)

always a learning experience...

one post a day. lol.
posts about my daily life. how nice.
and while i'm enjoying life now, with the company of my dear family and frens,
i so hope i do not need to shout tmr.
i hope they'll be darlings tmr.
be angels tmr, please.
my throat is better but the occasional coughs and pain.
oh bother.
maybe i should give them a note in advance.
since auntie eve is not coming. lol.

feelings for today?
not too bad. but just tired.
went for happy food today.
and finally got my supply of lecture pads. lol.

they asked me along for k box on tuesday.
contemplating whether or not i should go.
or should i meet the dearies?
in the midst of 'serious' consideration.
after all, next week is the last week i get to relax and enjoy before the exams.
so should i or should i not? *thinks hard*

just felt like writing this way today.
no special reason.
no '...' but just one '.'
having post-溏心風暴syndrome.
lol.
nights frens.
=)

i finally found a website which i can watch 溏心風暴之家好月圓online daily.. haha.. =) i've completed 4 episodes.. waiting for episode 5 to load.. and yes, i will not neglect my studies especially now that exams are coming in 25 days.. i know my limit, so fear not!! one episode a day except for fridays.. lol.. it's damn nice and funny at some parts.. just loving it.. =)

and oooh... i saw baby jaden's pics.. he's sooooo cute!!! baby jaden's mum's grand-godchild.. which means she's jaden's grand-godma.. does that make me his god-aunt?? haha.. lol.. but he's sooo adorable and cute.. hopefully i'll have a chance to see him soon!! lol.. ok, my throat's not doing very well now.. off to take that *yucky* medicine.. eeww... lol.. enjoy the weekends peeps!! =)