i so badly need to blog.. current mood: shitty and down.. before i go into why i'm feeling this way, last night's dinner and movie with the group(me, kai hui, amy, gen, ben, desheng, shaun, melvin and yong sing) was great and fun!! had a lot of laughs.. will upload some pics after i get it from gen.. hopefully soon.. really enjoyed last nite's outing.. hopefully we'll have one soon!! right after mid-sem test.. =) trained home with ben, desheng, gen and yong sing.. reached home, tired and exhausted but only went to bed at 12a.m..

woke up this morning at 8.30.. luckily i told dad to give me morning call, otherwise i think i wld have overslept.. was real tired.. PS lecture with shaun and obviously, we weren't paying attention.. after that, lunched with him and desheng before meeting the group for presentation discussion.. it wasn't that productive cause i was all too tired and irritated partly because of the unexpected visit.. HR lect was quite ok.. revision.. at least i know what kind of questions we'll be tested and i know how to go round studying it.. lol.. after that slacked in the library before going for apel.. met sherlyn after school to pick up my finance tut.. haha.. will be chatting with her on the phone for a while soon.. lol..

now, after all that crap, why am i feeling down? it's because of him.. i mean, i've got so many things to do tonite and yet, my mind is all about him.. i feel what i've been doing so far is rather obvious.. couldn't he tell? couldn't he see? after being hurt once, i'm so scared of being hurt again.. i'm tired.. i wish i could let go, but not now.. it's too soon to let go.. but i want to, to avoid getting hurt.. i'm really at a loss. he makes me feel happy but what i'm doing now, is he finding it irritating and disturbing?? i really don't know.. can someone tell me? i'm feeling very down.. =(

p.s: i just realised yesterday that there are some classmates reading my blog other than kelly and kai hui.. so i just wanna say HI to melvin and shaun!! helloz!!

and to end off on a happy note: I LOVE 2B01 (the guys i talk to in class and kelly and kai hui and a few other girls.. ) LOVE YOU PEEPS LOTS!! =) YOU MAKE MY YR 2 SEM 1 GREAT!! =) FRIENDS 4EVA... =)