to give up or not??

spent the last few nites thinking abt my studies after the talk i had with mum on wed.. i'm really tired.. mentally tired.. i've had plans of giving up now on my studies.. just let go.. yes, people will think i'm being stupid or smth but you can nv understand the stress and pressure i'm going through.. even frens who are very close to me.. mayb even tracy can't understand.. give an example.. i'm stranded in the middle of the sea, holding onto a wooden plank, floating to shore.. but the journey back to shore is tiring.. if i can let go and give up on the thought of floating back to land, i'll give up and let go of that plank.. that's what i'm feeling now.. just let go of my studies and give up.. but can i?? many will advise me to continue to hold on for the next 2 months or so.. but do i have the determination and strength to hold on till then?? due to stress, i've broken down at nite.. late at nite after 12 and i cry myself to sleep.. that's what studying does to me.. sacrifices.. i do want to sacrifice my tv time but the tv shows that i watch all help me to de-stress, hoping that i'll be able to absorb my work better.. i believe in that but it's not working out.. i know i should change but if i do change, will i break down eventually? or will i break down a day or two after i change my plans.. i really dunno.. another way of de-stressing would be laughing at the not-so-funny-parts of shows or crying at the most touching part and use those touching parts as an excuse to de-stress.. it's not healthy but i can't help it.. i appear carefree and smiley to those around me but i think no one ever understands wad i'm going thru now.. i need support and encouragement.. but who is willing to give me that support and encouragement?? ok, being emo and i should stop it..
smth happier(at least) to tok about.. told tracy on mon that i'm beginning to like shaowei more than xiezhi.. and she was shocked.. till now, i really dunno who i like more.. zhi or wei? but after a nite of thinking things through, i still think i like zhi.. not that i dun like wei but at the end of the day, i'll still tell tracy that i like zhi.. it always ends up this way.. the last time was li wei lian.. but now, i also think that fei lun hai the wu zun is quite cute!! haha.. but i'll still like zhi.. ok, at least this is something happier i guess?? haha..

stressed?? haha.. i dunno.. people ard me are telling me that.. but do you think i really know if i'm over-stressed or under-stressed?? let me tell you den, i really have no idea!! was just talking to a fren on the phone this evening and she was actually giving me some tips on how to prepare for 'O' levels and wadnot.. and i officially admit!! i have a short attention span.. haha.. oh wadeva.. so yah.. she offered me some tips and yah.. shall try them out? if i can find the time and i'm sure i can.. :S the construction work at my place is really bad.. i can't study peacefully.... [ignoring the fact that i sometimes turn on some music to hear.. but i believe that listening to music helps me to study better though yes, some people will disagree with me.. ] so i'll pack my bag and move to some other places to study during the day.. have made plans to go over to the library and back to school during the study break to study.. at least it's a place more quiet and mayb i can focus and concentrate better.. who knows? ok, moving on to the next subject.... when i just came online, another fren of mine asked me a question which rather shocked me.. haha.. shan't mention the question lah.. it's between me and her.. so yah.. just stop the rumours yeah whoever that started it? it's so not true.. there's nothing between me and *ahem* whom is taken alr.. i think it's quite obvious who *ahem* is alr.. so stop it, ok?? haha.. gotta chill.. owells.. :S

i wish shaowei can go back to 56

it's been weeks since i last blogged? not very long though but time seems to past very fast.. and since i'm blogging todae, guess todae's post will be rather long.. firstly, saw renfu and ji mei mei's news.. can't believe that renfu will actually do it.. bt now, he doesn't want it.. for those who know wad i'm talking(people like tracy), will know wad happen.. just can't believe it and i seriously hope he'll want it if it's true and be responsible for it.. that's wad 56 is alwaes asking fans to do rite? be responsible for our actions.. so i feel renfu should yi shen zuo ze..
secondly, celebrated my birthday in a rather pathetic wae though.. was alone at home (other than my younger sis whom i hardly tok to) yesterdae.. went TM, hoping to get my J-star mag but no.. there wasn't.. so in the end, i bought S.H.E's cd!! haha.. quite nice though although i dun quite like some of their songs but i'm not a fan of them so it's ok.. just supported them cause the songs i liked were really nice..
thirdly, i screwed my physics practical.. my readings were off and if i'm rite, were different from the readings of those in the 2nd shift.. hopefully i'll be able to pass my practical.. even if it's just a border line pass.. at least it's a pass and i'll try hard for paper 1 and paper 2..
fourthly, just visited J-star website.. i so agree!! i really wish shaowei can go back to 56 and ignore 183 club.. i agree with wad some of the fans at the forum sae.. as to wad i see, shaowei seems happier and not so stressed with 56.. he can go crazy with 56 and dun have to bother much about his image.. also, it seems 183 looks down on 56? i dunno about it but i think they(excluding shaowei) dun seem to regard 56 as their seniors.. mayb only 1 or 2.. so yah.. bt i do think shaowei really ought to focus just on 56.. he's just tiring himself out..
and lastly, A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU FOR UR BIRTHDAY WISHES!! REALLY APPRECIATE IT A LOT!! U PEOPLE ACTUALLY MADE MY DAY EVEN THOUGH MY BIRTHDAY COINCIDED WITH PHYSICS PRACTICAL!! BUT THX TO ALL OF YOU!! LOVE YOU GUYS LOTSA!! :)))
ok, i've gtg.. will have to get back to my books soon.. haiz.. owells.. prelims are coming so can't slack anymore and do i really seem that stressed to you people?? i've lost my wire for my digi cam.. how great!!

felt so lost the week when i last blogged.. that's why that "sucidal post".. bt i'm fine now.. teachers are going at a rate where i can once again get things done on time.. and it was because of that week which dragged on to this past week that i fell sick.. came down with bad sore throat on wednesdae and can you believe it? i was still in good condition on mondae nite!! owells.. but thankfully i fell sick at the rite time though.. and first time this year whr i went home during school hours.. so i missed chemistry which i admit, i wanted to miss cause it was practical and of course, the most slacking subject to me now -- chinese.. dad came to pick me up from school after my english compre test.. ms gammar was nice to let me take the test first.. went to visit the doc on thursdae bt there wasn't any school that dae so didn't have to really worry abt missing any lessons.. but was a bit blur and quiet when i went back to school on fridae.. the cough mixture that my doc gave made me drousy and i couldn't really focus.. msged hui yee the nite b4 and after asking her smth, ended up having a casual sms session.. she actually told me to come to school for the chemistry and a maths class test.. haha.. quite surprising though bt thought it wun be a good idea coming to school half wae just to take the tests and obviously, i screwed both tests.. esp. a maths.. didn't have a slight idea on how to go about doing the paper.. but i'm prepared to fail though cause i didn't really spend much time preparing for maths.. chemistry was slightly better but think i made some stupid mistakes but thankfully, chemistry is not included in the CA but this a maths class test is.. but then again, CA marks aren't counted in prelims.. so may be i shouldn't worry so much yet i can't help worrying abt the Cs and Bs appearing in my report book at the end of this term.. mum will surely nag at me and tell me to stay awae from the tv.. but helloz?? on average, i watch only abt 1 to 2 hrs of TV every day not including the hours during meal times.. so i think it's considered quite good alr lor.. and i need time to relax, ok? even my tuition teacher sae i shld stay awae from the tv.. yet the shows played are like once a week only? other than wan yu.. owells... i know it's time to mug and study for prelims yet it seems so difficult sometimes.. esp when there's the temptation to watch and play.. but i of course know my limits so i doubt i shouldn't worry? mayb with God's spirit watching over me, i'll overcome all those temptations bah? really dunno.. this blog has actually become my weekly post-age of posts.. so naturally, the posts will obviously be longer.. after so many weeks, i saw him.. again.. but the feeling's gone.. and i'm not letting him affect my life though.. for now, studies come first.. that's all that matters..

decided to do my blogging.. suddenly felt down after my shower this evening.. actually it started at the end of the day when mrs chua said that there were 2 failures for the maths test out of which 1 was from the 36 girls studying a maths(including me).. think i'm gonna fail cause i didn't know how to do the questions and i drew the wrong graph cause i didn't read instructions and i started to panic.. in all, i didn't really complete the paper.. still feeling down though.. hoping someone could and would call and tok to me.. but i dun think the person i wanna tok to will call.. so yah.. broke down and cried again this evening.. suddenly felt the stress of not being able to do homework and at the tot of scoring low for tests.. i screwed my maths test alr.. not that i wanted to.. there's so many things that i wanna sae but just can't sae.. even on my blog.. i'm just breaking down.. life's been terrible for me this year.. i'm unable to cope with the stress and wad not.. and even while typing this, i'm breaking down.. seriously, sometimes i wonder would life be better for me if i just end it now.. i'm scared.. scared i'm unable to fulfil the standards ppl want me to achieve.. scared of results and the disappointment i'll bring to myself and those around me.. would life just be better for me if i close my eyes and nv wake up again.. i apologise for all this "suicidal" notes but i'm fine.. just need to get them off my chest.. otherwise i'll fall sick bottling these depressed feelings in me.. i know i should believe in HIM but i can't.. i know he'll make my life and daes to come better but i can't.. can someone just tell me what to do.. i'm really at a loss..

basically, i'm tired.. real tired.. the weekend doesn't seem to be giving me enuf rest.. was out the whole afternoon till evening in church for my rite of sending forth and saw mark.. my sister's cathechism partner.. after that went over to mike's place to come back home with his family for dinner.. ended up reading my book and hearing him go crazy with clare.. so yah.. didn't rest until 1 a.m.. stayed up to do some reading of my mag.. den today, woke up to go to church for mass and didn't reach home until close to 6? helped out with the P3 workshop.. though it was tiring, bt i enjoyed myself.. there was one activity called trustwalk.. felt bored and decided to play along.. was quite fun and the aim of the game was to trust your child or rather for me, to trust my sister.. almost at the end, my second sister nearly made me bump right into the wall since i was blindfolded and couldn't see.. overall, it was real fun and will be helping out again next week.. bt at least i've got saturdae to rest and sleep in.. finally reach home and was watching 'The magicians of love' just now and was literally falling asleep.. was really tired.. shall get my rest tonite by sleeping early..
anywae, as i was saying i was in church this afternoon helping out with the P3 workshop and i forgot i had to wear blue top.. so in the end, i ended up gg to clare's place to borrow a shirt.. when i went back to the P3 classroom, everyone in there including my sis and mark was like ' i love boys' and they started laughing.. and i think mark asked me a question but i didn't answer him? so yah.. after that went to bedok interchange and there i got myself a new blue blouse and a pink spaghetti strap.. haiz.. wanted to get a halter but they didn't have my size so yah.. but it's ok.. haha.. owells.. will be online for a while more b4 i'm off to getting ready for tmr and to fall asleep.. haha.. next update: fridae, 28th july (if i have any thing to update abt..)

special request by caroline for me to update my pathetic, dying blog.. haha.. anywae, school's been boring for the last 3 daes.. felt it was a totally waste of time while others may be feel it's a good break from studies for 3 days.. reason? had BMW for 3 days with racial harmony day todae.. brought my maths to do in class.. result of dying of boredem from these (i felt) unnecessary events despite having it annually.. owells.. got confirmed last sundae!! like.. finally.. haha.. mum did reading and dad did holy communion.. took quite a number of pics bt i tot it was quite little still.. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">hui yee didn't cause she had 2 daes MC.. sometimes, i really wonder if such things are real or fake especially when you see that person jumping around healthily the previous dae.. not that i'm implying people are betraying my trust but yah.. owells.. there's tuition and piano for me only tmr morning.. did quite 2 maths papers but i just didn't time myself that's all.. after that, coming home if i dun intend to go to TM to see if i can get my J-star mag.. get some rest, have lunch, take a shower and i'm out of the house again to go to church for rite of sending forth and to get my certificate and photos of last sunday.. godma's coming over for dinner with uncle daniel, clare and michael.. have no idea wad i am gonna talk to them about but i think i'll manage it well.. haha.. hopefully.. anywae, gotta get going.. will try to update again when i have the time.. :p caroline!! dun say i nv update ok? my loyal blog reader.. haha..

make this a short post b4 i'm off to dreamland.. this week's been quite ok.. slowly adapting back to the streesful and sucky school life.. received my prelims timetable and i hate my physics practical.. of all daes in august, it has to be on my burfday.. 24TH AUGUST!! it just has to be on that day.. whether or not i'm in shift 1 or not, i think it will just spoil my day.. of course, i'm hoping to be in shift 1 den can get it over and done with.. prelim dates are out and a sense of fear has just descended upon me.. it's a kind of fear that is undescribeable.. and it's scary.. i'm neither feeling slack or hardworking.. i'm just neutral and that's scary cause i dunno how well i can do for prelims.. serious.. i just have to ask GOD to help me.. owells.. there's piano and tuition tmr.. managed to complete my tuition hw but not within 2 hours[given time] and i think i didn't put in my best.. mainly because i was watching the tv while doing it, secondly, i was quite drained and completed the assignment for the sake of having to complete it.. health hasn't been in tip-top condition since tuesdae? have been getting the flu almost every night.. and the stupid pimple on my nose is painful and it wun go awae.. confirmation's on sundae.. hopefully my pimple wun make it so obvious and my pics ugly.. anywae, gotta go offline now.. need to get up real early tmr for piano and tuition.. haiz.. just dun feel like gg..

friday:
went for school's EMDD with collaboration with SJI.. the performance was great.. went with mike, clarice and his fren, jonathon.. haha.. supposedly to meet clarice den go with her bt mummy made me go with michael.. so i went with him... was feeling quite bad cause promised clarice to go with her.. so anywae, we reacher SJI at ard 7.10.. and my dear god-bro still was like if we dun make it there on time, pls take off your heels and run, k? >.< bt luckily we reached there on time bt clarice was late.. so me and his fren went in first.. during the interval, we went to look for them and we went to the entrance.. sylvia tot jonathon was my boyfren.. haha.. very farnie.. saw sueann, aretha and cheryl ng!! after that we went back in and continue the show.. after the show, mike was gg to have supper with his frens so he gt clarice to send me home and i was toking to hui yee to ease the awkwardness btw me and them.. so yah.. that was yesterdae..
sat:
was at home in the afternnon b4 gg to church for mass.. got my new glasses!! didn't make much of a difference though just that my degree went higher and my frames are slightly thinner.. so yah.. tmr's my sister's graduation.. gg all the way down to NUS.. think will feel tired.. haiz.. school's starting in a day's time? back to a new week and it's alr week 3!! how time pass lah.. soon it'll be prelims.. den 'O' levels!! *gasped* gosh.. will work superb-ly hard for prelims.. hopefully my L1R5 can be as low as possible..

can't believe i just broke down today after hearing the news.. i mean, i can't help it.. it's just too sudden and he confirmed it with me himself.. gosh.. just wad exactly is happening to me? but then again, i'm happy that he found someone he liked.. i wanted to type smth bt decided not to just in case he ever pass by my blog and sees this.. den i'm dead meat.. haha.. owells.. bt i just found it too sudden as in.. he? at this age? like woa.. i didn't even expect he would get one at this age and point of time and it so happen i know the girl but i dunno if the girl know me.. haha.. owells.. anywae, back to smth happy bt still related to him.. i'm gg for emdd this year!! to support KC's production and gisella and berlyn!! afterall, we're classmates and i've known gisella for 4 yrs so shld at least go and support, huh? bt i'm not gg alone.. i'm gg with him.. owells.. hopefully no one i know misunderstand us that nite.. haha.. bt that would also mean that i can't watch my lu guang and ge dou!! :( haiz.. bt for gissy, i'll sacrifice.. like woah!! wad a big sacrifice!! >.< haha.. so yup, overall, i'm gg.. had a chinese compo test cum competition yesterdae.. ms teh returned us our papers - unmarked - cause it was badly done and she read mine out in class again.. foreva.. and wad did she say? an essay that was at least correctly written.. i didn't have much confidence in that essay cause it was btw me and IT.. so yah.. oh, IT and him is 2 diff. persons.. so yah.. haiz.. hopefully i do well for this compo test cum competition.. yikes!! there's a maths test tmr.. better go and do some review on it b4 mum comes home and sees me on the com.. haha...

WHEE!! feeling a bit high now.. just went to the new j-star website.. it's super nice!! and 56 now got their own personal blog!! of course, other j-star members too.. that's great.. then can go and see how they are doing.. esp. xiezhi.. he's so cute in his post.. and ok, i'm a bit slow.. the new website was established at the beginning of this month.. haha.. bt nvm.. he finally got his own blog.. so does shaowei and mengzhe.. zhi's leaving at the end of this month (that's wad he said) to the mainland for a new show.. think will miss him lotsa.. hopefully wan yu hold a farewell party for him afterall, he alwaes come and dai ban wan yu if shaowei or mengzhe cannot make it and also he update his blog often though he isn't very good at it.. haha.. anywae, school's beginning tmr.. drats.. this means that lesser time will have to be spent on the tv and of course, the computer.. i dun think i'll come online during weekdays unless it's really necessary.. and of course, i'm gonna miss reading j-star blogs regularly.. haha.. owells.. anywae, off to read more artistes blogs!! haha..

didn't intend to blog until i saw caroline's blog.. haha..

1.Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!"

"I have been tagged!" by caroline.. haha.. :p
Favourites

Favourite Colour: purple and blue
Favourite Food: homecooked food and anything else that is yummy!!
Favourite Song: mainly chinese songs that people find it's too cheena..
Favourite Movie: not a movie person
Favourite Sport: swimming?
Favourite Day of the Week: fridays and sats..
Favourite Season: i dun mind all!!
Favourite Ice Cream: YAM!! bt it's fattening..

Currents

Current Mood: ???
Current taste: i didn't eat anything since after lunch..
Current Clothes: shirt and shorts..
Current Desktop: 56's picture!! haha.. typical 56 fan..
Current Toenail Colour: colourless
Curent Time: 1724h (time when i'm doing this now..)
Current Surroundings: sister walking up and down the hse with the tv in her room on..
Current Annoyances: HW not done,,
Current Thoughts: my leg's hurting and i'm supposed to rub it..

First

First Best Friends: all are good frens, very good frens.. nt really best frens..
First Crush: not saying.. bt i think some ppl are able to guess...
First Movie: can't rmb?
First Lie: also can't rmb.. i've got short term memory yet i can rmb almost everything to do with 56
First Music: piano!!

Lasts

Last Cigarette: i NV smoke cause smoking is unhealthy..
Last Drink: water..
Last Car Ride: a few hrs ago..
Last Crush: not saying.. duh..
Last Movie: pirates of the carribean? which was yrs ago?
Last Phone Call: tara which was yesterdae..
Last CD played: zhang shanwei's first album - shi xin feng

Have you ever

Have you ever dated one of your best friend: definitely not!!
Have you ever broken the law: wad kind of law??
Have you ever been arrested: nah.. i'm a guai kia..
Have you ever skinny-dipped: no.. i'm conservative..
Have you ever been on TV: yup..
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: no.. my first kiss is impt!!

5 things you are wearing: necklace, earrings, shirt, shorts and... idunnowadelse..
4 things you done today: gone to church, bathed, watch tv and complete another 1/5 of my eng hw..
3 things you can hear right now: my sisters' tv, my typing on the keyboard and.. my sister's voice..
1 thing you do when you are bored: eat!! bt it makes me put on weight.. -.-
5 People to do this: clare, char tan, michele and any other 2 who wants to do this..
END OF SURVEY!

suddenly had the urge to start blogging.. haiz... was reading aretha's blog just now.. and it triggered my tots and reflections.. time do pass very fast.. 2003, i entered KC.. entered a new environment and made new and many frens.. 2004, the bonds btw frens grew stronger and affairs of the heart just struck me.. made even more frens thru a new cca and better friendships with frens from the same class.. almost at the end of 2004, was nominated to be a prefect with hui yee and others bt i rejected.. didn't see the need to become one and lose my frens if they couldn't understand my duty.. and i didn't and wun regret my decision though i sometimes feel i shldn't have reject it.. 2005, the same thing happened.. a new class with new classmates.. had fun with them though we weren't very united as compared to my former class.. 2006, final year in KC.. sitting for 'O' levels in a few months and getting more and more scared yet that kind of fearfulness cannot be explained and may be can't even be experienced for some others.. i nv knew that time would actually pass so soon.. just like for church, it's been 10 years and in july, i'm gonna officially end cathechism with my confirmation.. i suddenly have this fear.. this fear of doing badly in exams, this fear of not doing to wad is expected of me be it by parents or family or even myself.. i just don't know now.. i feel at a loss.. it seems everything's coming to an end.. in school and in cathechism classes.. after this year, will we ever meet again? will we ever meet up for chats and parties.. and will the closest of the closest of my frens ever lose contact with me? or the frens whom i've known for 10 years.. i really dunno.. all these just seem to have triggered me.. these tots and feelings.. i have this sense of fearfulness that can nv be described in this point of time.. mayb like wad renfu said, at this point of time, other than studying, i really dunno wad to do and wad my life is becoming.. is it becoming more fruitful or is it becoming more useless.. haiz.. owells.. there's nth i can do much abt it, rite? other than focusing on my studies now and try to do as well as possible for 'O' levels?? anywae, school is starting again next week.. when school starts, i'll be busy with exams, with prelims, with tests and of course, with stress.. think will not be online as often.. if i can come online once every 2 weeks or once a month, i think it would be quite ok.. then i can have more time in studying for my exams and tests and focus more on studies.. bt will i be able to do it? hopefully so if GOD give me the strength and determination and HE will help me through the next half of the year until after 'O' levels... owells.. i have to get back to my maths.. gtg now.. tata...

back from camp yesterdae.. actually i came back on sat. nite.. haha.. wasn't feeling well so came home.. felt like puking after dinner.. could be the food bah.. oh and i wasn't the only one who came back home.. michael also went back.. he also nt feeling bt i went back on sun morning, he didn't.. tsk tsk.. haha.. so basically, saturdae was just reflections, reflections and MORE reflections.. was quite sleepy and slept each time they told us to close our eyes and think.. of course, i did some thinking lah.. so yah.. yesterdae was feeling slightly better and the programmes were also better.. had games in the morning after breakfast till lunch.. was quite hot and sweaty after the games.. so me and char went to take a shower b4 lunch and thank goodness we came first.. otherwise we would have to wait for ages.. cause there was only one shower.. >.<>.< haha.. bt it was ok lah.. afterall, it's not like i like him so yah.. owells, yesterdae marked the end of me having fun and relaxing.. it's back to mugging and doing and completing all my hol. hws this last 2 weeks of hols.. gosh, it's so fast and i'm still rushing thru hw.. shall be a good girl and do my hw everydae.. hopefully.. OUR JOURNEY BEGAN WITH A JIGSAW PUZZLE SO OUR JOURNEY SHALL THUS END WITH A JIGSAW PUZZLE.. that was wad marcus said to us yesterdae at the last minor session.. think will miss the sundae 8.45am cathechism class after confirmation esp. those who i seldom see and those who have been in the same class as me since pri. 1 like char who kept me company and vice versa during the camp.. will we ever meet again for some of us? i really dunno..

gosh.. got back results.. gotten a damn scolding from mum (which actually i think i deserved it) bt.. i just feel that when it comes to results, i just feel that when i do not as well as wad they expected, yes, scolding shld be given bt at least give some words of encouragement.. and when i do well, there's no words of praise or encouragement.. so was really a bit pissed off and upset until after watching wan yu which really made me happy again..

i seriously think if you ask me, that my mum isn't a good mum.. as in, during the exam period, she didn't even bother to ask me how was my exams.. instead she was more worried for the class that she was doing relief teaching for.. she actually showed me that she didn't really bother abt my exams and grades bt when the results show, she just start blaming everything on me.. and after telling her i wanna go poly, she seemed so against it.. bt no matter at the end of the year, even if i can make it to jc, i wun go jc, i rather go poly.. seriously and i mean it.. i really wonder if she ever bother to find out how i'm feeling.. and the best thing was she actually cursed her future grand-daughter will be like me.. -.- some stupid mother of mine.. i'm sorry to sae this bt this is just wad i see at times..

owells.. shan't make myself upset over this.. afterall, i'm prepared to do some hard work the next half of the year.. nt because of her, bt for myself and for XIEZHI!! haha... as in seriously, he alwaes wanted us, fans to do our best in studies and in wadeva we do.. so yah, i shld do my best for HIM and for myself and nt for my stupid parents (mean of me to sae that bt to me, again, it's smth that i see).. anywae, having tots of dropping a maths.. toked to mrs ooi and my nanny abt it.. haven't toked to the parents and my tuition teacher yet.. will ask my tuition teacher abt it tmr.. as for the parents, my nanny saed she'll try to tok my mum into letting me drop if i really decide to.. cause mrs ooi is actually trying to get me to try again.. bt i just dun see the point of continuing it if i can't do well in it.. that's the prob.. owells.. i just dunno lah.. will think abt it and tok to my tuition teacher den see how.. anywae, i bought myself a new skirt and a new halter!! cool.. spent 30 bucks on it.. :p haha.. bt it's nice.. shall go and get more of halters and mini skirts and nt bother abt wad the parents think cause it's my life nt theirs!!

gt back results over the last 3 daes.. nt exactly dat fantastic.. and i mean it.. it's all average passes or border line fail and i can't stand it when that happens esp. if you can't find the extra marks that is needed.. -.- so yah.. here's my results (range given only..)

english : 55-60, C5
e maths : 50-54, C6
a maths : 40-44, E8
chinese: 60-64, B4
geog : 50-54, C6
combined humans : 35-39, F9
chemistry : 45-49, D7
physics : 50-54, C6

i can't believe i actually pass physics and failed chem.. and my chem is stronger than my physics.. bt den again, the physics paper was frm the TYS so naturally, we done well.. -.- actually failed e maths but mrs chua was so nice dat she looked for marks for me to pass.. and she scolded me in return for being lazy and etc.. bt come to think of it, the paper was difficult so it wasn't exactly my fault.. ok, mayb it was my fault but still.... failed a maths and combined humans terribly.. as in yes, terribly.. and i passed geog!! whee!! haha.. however, that's nth to be proud of.. and i needed a few more marks to get my B3 for chinese.. damn upset.. feel so disappointed in myself this term just based on results and tell you honestly, i haven't really done my best.. cause if i did, this wun be the results i'm getting.. but nvm!! after i've enjoyed my day tmr, i'll work hard frm sundae onwards in preparation for chinese 'O's.. and i mean it!! gonna see dear tmr!! miss him lotsa!! that's great and his other pals.. haha.. finally after how long... think will be damn happy and tired tmr.. bt it's worth it.. owells.. gotta buck up during the hols.. and i think mrs ooi will wanna see mum and dad cause of my results.. haiz.. i promise i will work harder this time round.. I PROMISE!! i think i've let mum and dad down.. -.-

EXAMS ARE OVER!! yes.. for the time being though.. haha.. but at least i get a break frm books.. ok, mayb except for chinese.. had chinese LC todae and b4 we left, our nice chinese teachers gave us a surprise by giving us chinese papers to do, to prepare us for the coming GCE 'O' levels in like 3 weeks time?? ok, mayb less than 3 weeks.. but seriously, i dun mind doing so long as i am able to get an A for chinese(preferably an A1)... but of course, i've got to put in my own effort as well.. but overall, exams are over.. haha.. i think i screwed up most of my papers.. ok, mayb all except chinese and mayb physics.. haha.. but still... in conclusion, i think i'll damn badly for my papers.. afterall, they're just killing us with them.. so yah.. haha.. fell sick during the exam period which was terrible and it so happened that i came down with fever on my geography and chemistry paper.. haha.. but i'm still fine though with a little runny nose.. haha.. anywae, i'm gg on a nini shopping spree tmr with nicole.. wah.. after so many years of knowing her, we're finally gg out together without caro and gang.. haha.. wierd huh?? but it's fine with me cause at least we get to tok abt things we seldom tok abt in school.. haha... so yah.. will be gg shopping tmr.. and on tuesdae to celebrate that girl's burfdae.. haha.. owells..

just a short post b4 i get back to my books.. been busy with tests and the upcoming exams these few daes.. stay in school till late afternoon for extra maths lessons and other lessons as well.. been really tired, physically and mentally, and numb to all that is happening but still, i've got feelings so still feel a bit exhausted and tired of all that tired.. just had brokedown again last nite and early this morning but it wasn't anything much.. just wanted to let out my feelings so like yah.. feeling only a little better.. i think will be feeling this wae for the next 2 to 3 weeks till exams are over.. oh!! my dad asked me to study hard for exams and my reply was " that is if i dun get a mental block during that exam.." haha.. and he had nth else to sae.. i mean, for those who know me well, know i get mental blocks during exams.. ok, mayb not only exams but tests.. so how bad can that be?? so yah, just hopefully i dun get a mental block during the coming exams and yesterdae i had a chinese test.. sort of CA.. i think i'm not gonna get my A.. reason being i didn't do the last question of compre that was worth of 12 marks!! 12 marks you know!! gosh!! i think i'm just gonna do badly for that paper.. but luckily it's not counted in the exam but still.. i can only sae i'm disappointed in myself this term.. very disappointed.. haiz..

i shall state my stand!! i'm not angry with her which = to i'm not being petty.. it's just that i dun feel i'm at fault and i shldn't be the first one to sae sry.. get it?? this all happened when she kicked me just becoz' she tot i was the one who pushed her( but it wasn't me..) and she didn't even open her eyes to see who was standing behind her and expectedly tot it was me who pushed her.. and yes, although i did hit her, but she was the one who kicked me first and did not sae sorry even though she knew she was wrong.. and if she did sae sorry, i wun have hit her.. and even if she said sorry and i hit her, i would also have said sorry.. but NO~~ she didn't sae sorry.. so if that's the case, shldn't she be the one who is supposed to apologise now and not me?? and she's not only angry over this stupid matter but those that happen in the past too.. now that it is wad i call PETTY!! and i'm not even angry with her when she hit me when i didn't lor..

i mean, i've had enough.. all these years, i think i've been too nice.. giving into people and alwaes end up at the losing end.. and alwaes the one who has to sae sorry first even if i'm not the one at fault.. is this fair?? fair to me?? i dun think so.. i've really had enuf.. ok, if i tot i was in the wrong i would apologise and even if i feel i'm not wrong but in actual fact, i am, i will apologise cause my conscience will bug me.. but now, i dun feel i'm wrong and my conscience is not bugging me.. i'm just too nice.. letting people get over my head.. sometimes i feel i shld actually stop being too nice.. only being nice to people who deserve me being kind to them.. but to such a person like her, i dun think so lor.. yes, i admit, i may be a bit unreasonable at times but helloz?? at least i try to stop being unreasonable and admit i'm at fault.. but she?? stupid petty person.. sometimes i feel, i dun have such a fren like her is fine with me.. i dun care for such a petty fren like her.. and i mean it.. if i really lose such a fren, it's fine with me.. afterall, i can be an introvert.. gosh, just toking abt her just makes me wanna puke.. can't believe i'm blogging this... ANYWAE, TRACY, I'M NOT IMPLYING YOU'RE AT FAULT OK?? JUST TYPING IT BIG SO THAT YOU CAN SEE!! HAHA..

i can't believe i actually cried!! and i was the first to start crying.. todae was the last dae of c.o practice for the sec 4s after which we officially step down.. we had practice till 5 and when i tot i could come home, the comm gave us a surprise and gave us a farewell party.. mdm foo spoke a few words to us.. and when cheryl and gresilda gave me wad they made, i asked whether after reading the notes inside the bottle will cry and b4 they could sae anything, i just started crying!! i'm just being too emotional.. and i feel like i'm contradicting myself.. one min sae i can't be bothered with C.O, the next minute i'm crying.. haha.. i guess gg for C.O practices these 3 years ever since i joined C.O, really sort of made a difference in my life.. frm every week stay back on wednesdae and fridaes to now no more staying back till 6p.m to practice, i think i'll just miss the times i've had in C.O and the memories my juniors and C.O has given me.. really touched by wad cheryl and gresilda did.. just wanna sae a big THANK YOU to them!! will go back to visit those little juniors whenever i'm free..

next, yesterdae's wan yu was my dear and zhe!! haha.. was so kuai to sit there and watch other than missing a little to brush up.. but yah.. was damn high last nite.. but rather tired and i am still tired.. there's tuition and piano and you know wad's the gd news?? i didn't have time to practice.. haha.. owells.. just run thru my pieces tmr and play!! afterall frm next week onwards, will have an extra of 6 hrs to spend each afternoon so can use that time to practice piano, study and do my revision or hw!!! haha..

will make this short and sweet.. firstly, WELL DONE 406!! nv been so happy to see how united our class was.. for family dae, our earnings was the highest among the whole school and it was all thx to our hard work and cooperations that family dae was a success and it did prove that if 406 wanted to be united to accomplish things, we can.. but it's whether we want to or not.. secondly, renfu left for shanghai on tuesdae.. was feeling a little down cause he wun be on wan yu but thank goodness, wan yu is showing renfu's own "personal video diary" and his latest news in shanghai.. at least, i'm sitll able to know that renfu is doing fine other than his own blog.. thirdly, ran my 2.4 yesterdae at ECP.. haha.. i dun even know if i passed or fail.. hopefully i passed then i dun have to re-run again!! heehee.. owells.. in conclusion, life still goes on whether or not 406 got the highest earnings, whether or not renfu is in shanghai and whether or not i do pass my 2.4.. life still continues!! haha.. owells.. anywae, tmr's my last c.o practice b4 i officially step down and i can't wait!! i mean, these 3 yrs since i joined c.o, a lot of time was spent in school on practices.. like min. 6 hrs a week.. but after tmr, i dun have to stay back for a min. of 6 hrs after school which also means that i got more time to do my own revision and studying.. haha.. hopefully i keep to my own study timetable!! :p

this post is specially for all those in sec 406 esp. for charmaine and gisella!! no matter how tired i am, i'll write this post!! thx ppl for giving me a wonderful last family day in KC!! you've been great and i'm really touched by all that you've done to help make this family day for 406 a success!! really thankful to gisella and charmaine for staying with me at the stall since the start of family dae till the end!! thx to fiona low and hui yee for taking some time off ur own plans to help with the earrings!! thx to chunhui, vanessa goh, kang li and aretha for coming early to help me set up the stall!! there's too many people to thank but i shall sae a very big thank you!! i will nv forget this dae!! you ppl and my other frens have created many memories during my 4 years in KC!! and shall continue to create more till we part!! ok, i'm getting a bit too emotional so yah!! real sorry for my wildfulness and wadeva attitude of mine that you could not accept!! but nevertheless, we've made family dae 2006 a very big success!! THX!!

post smth quick b4 i go watch my tv!! haha.. was watching some video clip of 56 in singapore shopping some 7-11 outlet.. haha.. they're so farnie!! although the video wasn't very clear.. heehee.. dearie was so shuai and kor was so... cute!! haha.. there was one part where he took up a bottle of wine and some fan told him that he's under 18 yrs old so cannot drink.. haha.. this was taken last year, i guess.. heehee.. damn farnie.. owells.. school hols are coming to an end now.. tmr's the last dae alr!! haiz.. so fast.. gosh!! maths hw not really completed.. s.s project not done yet but that's a grp work so yah.. owells.. everything will be back to a restless and tired life on mondae.. oh!! and when school reopens and it's term 2, chinese 'O's are coming!! =( anywae, may post another if i'm online tonite..

do a quick post b4 i'm out of the hse to godma's place.. went to marriott on mondae for cherie jie's wedding dinner.. she was damn pretty lor.. charmaine was there too!! and she also was damn chio.. i felt so out.. as in everyone there were so prettily dressed but not me.. just felt awkward... took some pics with charmaine.. before coming back home.. haha.. next dae still had school so had to leave earlier.. charmaine didn't turn up for school the next dae that was yesterdae.. tot she really porn school.. but after reading her testimonial for me, no, smth happened after the wedding that wasn't serious but affected her.. and of course, spoilt her mood.. haha.. hopefully she's ok.. though curious on wanting to know wad happen, but best if i dun ask cause it may not be a good thing.. haha.. that's how considerate mrs sun is.. haha.. so thick-skinned of me to sae that.. gosh!! anywae, i've gtg.. have to see to other things before i can leave the hse.. haha.. till then...

i'm sick!! haha.. physically ill.. heehee.. came down with sore throat and fever on wednesdae.. thursdae was slightly better.. only sore throat and by fridae, the cough came and went to see the doc and got 2 daes mc.. one for todae, and another for tmr!! so didn't go to school todae to get report book.. and i feel so bad.. cause i owe gwen money for the family dae tix, owe mrs ooi my chem file, owe yi quan my s.s sbq and sam teo my giro form for 'o' levels.. feel so bad.. have to settle all this on mondae when i go back for extra lessons.. as for tmr's cip performance.. my sis was asking me not to go since i got 2 daes mc.. so i haven't decided yet whether or not i'm gg to school.. will see how's my condition like tmr morning.. haha.. okok, i need to rush thru my hw that's due on mondae.. gotta go..

went out with godma aka auntie shelley yesterdae for lunch at parkwae after school.. it wasn't as bad as i expected.. although i felt a little nervous at first, thank goodness she didn't notice.. but i was normal after that.. haha.. we talked and she paid for my lunch which i think was quite expensive.. haha.. and we agreed to meet up sae once a month for such chats and lunch.. that way, we will like get to know each other more and talk abt our recent happenings.. after that, she sent me to interchange.. so nice of her!! told mum that my godma would only let me pay when i start earning $$ when she asked how much was my lunch.. haha.. told hui yee and tracy abt it todae in school.. haha.. they think it's wierd to like meet up once a month instead of regularly.. but again, she have her plans too wad.. i cannot like possibly ask her out for lunch and get her to pay every week wad.. it wun make sense.. haha.. but seriously, i'm looking forward to our next lunch date!! haha.. sure enjoyed yesterdae.. :)

the weeks that i haven't been updating has been rather stressful for me especially the past week and last week.. firstly, had CAs for the past 2 weeks.. can die from the stress.. wonder wad will happen at 'O' levels.. i mean, you study till you're sort of "brain-dead".. no more info can go in.. gosh, and sometimes, you study till the day of the test, you actually get mental-block.. -.- guess i'm gonna fail s.s and geog.. ms wahidah is sort of rather disappointed with my class becoz' of the s.s test.. haiz.. but overall, i'm so glad the week's come to an end again..

secondly, i broke down twice in a week and it was consecutively.. first was on tuesdae and the second was on wednesdae when i got back my physics paper... tuesdae was cause really too stressed up and i woke up from my sleep and people started to get on my nerves.. wednesdae was cause i was so upset and angry with myself.. i lost 4 marks due to carelessness for my physics paper and... if it wasn't for that 4 marks, i think i would have topped my class for physics.. so yah, was quite disappointed with myself for that mistake.. oh, and so far, of all the papers i got back, i think 2 papers were papers which i needed to get 1 or 2 more marks to get an A2 or an A1 and of course, it was damn disappointing..

thirdly, I'VE GOT MY NEW PHONE!! and it's sooo nice!! haha.. totally crazy over it.. bought it like a week ago.. yes!! finally after years of anticipating.. haha.. owells.. so like yah.. that's my week.. totally drained out.. haha.. will not update that often now though cause of school work.. haha.. okok, got to ciaoz!!

decided to blog smth.. feeling tired.. gosh, wad's wrong with me?? haha.. anywae, "top of the forbidden city" was the last episode todae.. quite sad lah for the ending but still, it was a happy ending.. contradicting huh?? it was sad cause xiao ying's dad died but it was happy cause aki is with fire!! haha.. i think both of them quite compatible lor.. so sweet.. :)) haha.. but seriously, if you've seen the cute side of shaowei, you'll mayb think that shaowei is the "cutest" in 5566.. as in not that kind of kawaii but another kind.. that 'man' type of cuteness.. which i guess makes him special.. haha.. xiezhi also appeared as the host for the dance competition but i tot his role was pathetic.. i mean, seriously.. cause he only appeared for like wad?? 5 mins? haha.. even someone like me who likes xiezhi so much will actually sae that.. unbelievable i guess.. heehee.. oh and i hate renfu's role.. i dunno why but i just dun like his role.. the feeling he gave me at the end was so different from the first time he appeared.. totally 2 different feelings lor... -.- but nevertheless, the show was ok.. to me lah, it was ok.. cause i'm not the kind who likes such type of idol dramas although i love such idol dramas.. but this kind of dance idol dramas aren't just for me.. i prefer like "mr fighting" or "heaven's robe".. anywae, the next idol drama is also one which is super touching in the beginning.. "snow angel".. i think i'll cry next week when i start to watch lor.. is damn sad lah.. and the story is also a little sad as it shows.. owells... ... ...

HAPPY CNY FOLKS!! haha.. feeling bored so decided to blog while waiting for friendster to upload my pics.. and also dunno wad to write since my last post so didn't really update and oh!! i'm becoming more and more lazy to blog.. haha.. anywae, went visiting the last 2 daes and todae.. collected not a lot of money but not too little too.. anywae, went to mr ang's place.. his place was quite nice lor but we had a hard time finding his place.. haha.. but we still managed to find his place.. it was only the sec 4 seniors who went.. den we went to his place and heard his dog, tiny, barking.. me and cheryl was so scared lor.. but seriously, the dog really was puny.. haha.. but still, i was scared.. and we all liked his room.. totally so different frm his living room lor.. his living room was like so oriental, so china but his room was so different.. it was so modern.. we just LOVED his room..!! haha.. den we started to see his pics and cheryl started to ransack his room.. haha.. and den we had pizza for lunch.. he ordered.. heehee.. after that, we continued to tok den we decided to take some pics b4 we leave.. so yah.. we did.. if you wanna see the pics, go to my friendster!! uploaded them alr.. haha.. den after mr ang's place, li ting, tracy and fiona came over.. haha.. had so much fun but i was quite dead though... heehee.. anywae, will update often (i hope) provided i've got smth to update and i'm not lazy.. haha...

will write a quick post.. yesterdae went to chinatown with CO after practice.. went super hyper with li ting, tracy and fiona.. played with her hei bai pei.. she's so lousy lor.. kept laughing makeing me and the other hyper!! haha.. todae went to TP for open house.. the school is damn big lah.. got lost at the school of business cause we couldn't find our wae to mass comm and hospitality.. i think i know wad choices i'll take if i enter poly.. after that, tracy came over my place to have lunch and we sort of went hyper.. den she went back and i listened to 爱的奇迹 2-跳舞吧!J-STAR.. new J-Star cd.. quite nice though the songs but the songs inside are remix.. so yah.. after that went out for dinner and my mum actually tot i wanted to go poly.. -.- haha.. but i ensured her i wun cause my ultimate aim is to go JC unless i can't get in there.. so just got back home like 1/2 hr ago?? there's cathechism tmr.. my last year of cathechism b4 i get confirmed.. and den mayb i'll go join the cathechist ministry.. haha.. owells.. better get some sleep.. haven't done my maths tuition and piano work.. gosh.. been quite busy and tired so yah.. totally tired that i fall asleep immediately once my head touches my bed at nite.. that's how tired i am.. haha.. ok.. gtg.. need to wake up early tmr.. tata..

just got back from church not too long ago.. haha.. attended the cathechism mass with charmaine, CLARE and MICHAEL!! these two were crazy lor.. i was seated in btw mike and clare.. so they were laughing at everything.. from the wae the conductor conducted and how warm my hands were.. -.- haha.. really funny frens i have and i'm so thankful for them cause they just brighten up my life.. not only those two but other frens.. and when i just got there, clare was like "hi" and "where's nicholas" or smth like that.. -.- clare is just crazy over me and him.. but WE'RE OVER, CLARE!! haha.. den b4 we went up for mass, we heard that nick wasn't coming and clare was like "dun be sad, k?" haha.. that's how crazy she is when it comes to me and him.. and she starts toking nonsense after that.. very farnie, clare.. (if you're reading this..) after mass, we went downstairs but mike just lost the 3 of us.. haha.. poor thing.. and he was so left out at first cause there were like 3 gurls and he was the only guy.. but after that, i got left out.. :( haha... owells.. and i didn't see caroline.. either she didn't come or i didn't see her.. tsk tsk.. haha.. owells.. i gtg.. need to go study?? ok, wadeva.. *ciaoz*

finally online after 2 daes!! haha.. been busy with school work and CCAs.. it's been the end of the second week of school but i feel i've been back in school for ages.. haha.. could be cause my frens make me feel this wae?? ok.. wadeva.. -.- it feels good to be online.. had CO on wednesdae and some learning journey thing yesterdae.. so since i tot tmr was a saturdae and i dun have to be in school, my homework can be done tonite after watching wan yu or tmr.. and this reminds me.. i need to get maths assessment books for maths.. and more tys for maths too.. practically everything i'm getting is for maths.. -.- thx to mrs chua but i know she's doing this for our own good.. haha.. she's nice though.. mum's gonna spend a bomb this month just on my books.. owells.. guess i'm gonna sleep late tonite.. haiz.. but the tot of gg to buy books tmr makes me so sian.. haha.. owells.. anywae, i need to get gg.. will try to update as often but i guess it'll be like once a week the most.. -.-

first week of school.. over just like that.. and wad's with blogger's fonts?? so small?? haha.. first week of school was ok.. not too bad.. got back ms lau, mrs ooi, ms gammar, mrs teo hui lin, the 3 geog teachers and ms teh as subject teachers!! quite happy.. den for new subject teachers, i have ms wahidah, mrs chua and mrs sim!! nice teachers this year!! like most of them.. haha.. i am now sitting right behind the class with hui yee and clair.. so sitting arrangement is (frm the back door to the centre of the class) me, hui yee and clair!! yeah!! finally get to sit at the back of the classroom after 3 years.. haha..

although those are happy things, i am so sad to sae that i am in a maths remedial and english remedial.. first thing, who ever goes for english remedial, rite?? haha.. nah.. it's just a lesson to help me improve my english.. haha.. mrs chua's my new maths teacher and i have to sae i think she's a lot better than mrs lie.. as in seriously.. and she's very very nice!! and oh!! I AM THE A MATHS REP OF SEC 4/6!! haha.. gosh, my a maths isn't that good, i'm in a maths remedial and here i am, the a maths rep.. haha.. it's sort of a motivation for me i guess!! haha.. so many things to write about.. anywae, tmr's sec 1 cca orientation.. how i wihs i can dun go den at least i can sleep abt 4 am in the morning after i finish watching west side story.. but sad to sae, i can't.. :( haiz.. owells.. tmr night have zhi on kang xi lai le so it's a must watch and see how good-looking he is.. haha.. ok, i've gtg.. *ciaoz*

365 days has gone by.. the year has come to an end.. or at least in another 3 hours or so? many things have happened during this year.. from school to 5566.. from family ties to friendship problems.. this year has been an interesting year with new frens from every express class.. all of us created a few more frenships, of course not forgetting to make some others stronger.. but some of us could have because of a reason or so, drifted further awae..

if you dun wanna read this part, you can alwaes fast forward for those who ain't fans of 5566.. but if you want, you can alwaes read it.. it wun be long.. 56 encountered many things too.. frm mr fighting to their recent concert in s'pore.. frm dug-up rumours on not being on good terms to leading to rumours that their manager is using someone's popularity to make another famous to someone who felt unfair and wanted to leave the grp.. this made me rather upset i admit but yet they are things which is beyond our control.. and of course happy times that made me happy like the sales of their album and their concert!! and smth unforgettable this year.. I MET 5566 IN PERSON AT THEIR HANDSHAKE SESSION ON 19TH NOV 2005!! this will be a dae which i'll nv forget.. :)

the last dae and within a night, smth happened that may actually lead to a change in my life.. someone was admitted into hospital.. and if anything happens(touch wood and pray hard), it may cause a change in everyone's lives.. at least for me..

things happen in this world that is beyond our control.. and we sometimes blame them when things dun go our wae.. but i'm grateful for ONE thing!! i'm grateful to my frens and family members this past year.. thx for helping me along whether it is due to school work, family problems or even personal problems like relationships.. thx for giving me advice and encouraging me.. even if YOU think you didn't help me in any wae, i'm still grateful to you.. i hope you'll know who you are but even if you dun, it's ok.. cause you've been great help this year!! THX AND HOPE YOU ENJOY A NEW YEAR AHEAD!! *sry if this post sounds sad* :) happy new year folks!!

heyas!! back again.. was talking to nicole tan last nite.. until like almost 2a.m in the morning.. was feeling down and needed someone to tok to so ended up toking to her.. she solved my problem and made me feel better a lot.. and now, i owe her a drink.. haha.. but it's worth it.. so todae met her at 2.20.. she was late for like 20 mins?? haha.. but nvm.. met her then went to starbucks for coffee and started toking.. after that, we started to conquer TM, century square, DBS building and the role of shops along the interchange and the pasar malam!! haha.. and she was like "marianne, your territory, pls lead the wae.." haha.. farnie warnie.. i think this is like the first time i go out with her alone and with no one else.. the both of us could like take our own sweet time walking and talking.. den we were like, " aye, go to this shop, ok??", "aye, go to that shop, ok??" and " cannot go to that shop.. no money.. this shop also cannot go.." haha.. so yah, actually quite fun gg out with her.. wanted to get a halter top but couldn't find any from giordano.. they just dun have my size so it was kind of sad.. haha.. guess have to go out with her again but not any time soon.. most likely like one dae during the june hols to relax and another after 'O' levels.. haha.. hopefully she's reading this.. so like yah..

how time flies.. school's starting just next week.. exactly a week more b4 the holidaes come to an end and a few more daes b4 the new year comes.. gonna be a stressful year for me though.. but it's ok.. it's only a year.. a year pass very fast.. the next thing i know, my ' O' levels are over and i can't have fun!! of course, i have to study hard for my 'O's.. haiz.. hopefully i dun get a nervous breakdown b4 anything can happen..

haha.. i have to blog this!! yesterdae was one of the most memorable dae of my life.. why?? BECAUSE 5566'S CONCERT WAS GREAT!! REALLY GREAT!! had so much fun and was screaming thru out the concert.. really was great.. worth going..

opening was great!! the atmosphere was high though the concert started late.. they were singing and singing and more singing.. until.. the 4 shen me guests appeared.. and who was it?? YOU YA YU, WEI YING QI, DJ AND XU ZI QIAN!! actually they were mainly 5566, but in roles of shows they acted in before.. it was really funny and during that part, DANG OU appeared and started to sing the dang ou song.. and den 56 danced along.. it was so fun and farnie..

of course, in btw performances, 56 had their own individual performances too.. was really great!! of course, there was 7F too!! was really fun.. they sang and danced and i sang along too!! then the concert "came to an end".. but we shouted encore and i told tracy, i didn't want to go back yet.. haha.. so after that xiao dao appeared on the screen and shouted encore with us.. and den, 56 appeared again!! so shuai lor.. so they continued singing their love songs.. of course, we celebrated shaowei's burfdae too!! we sang him a happy burfdae song in the normal style and 56 sang him in 56's style.. so farnie.. shaowei wished for 3 wishes out of 2 he could sae it out.. well, even b4 he could sae anything, the fans in front of the stage were like" jia hun!!(get married)" and xiezhi was like " ta de shi ye hai mei wen ding, zen me ke yi jia hun ne??" haha...

so after shaowei cut the burfdae cake, xiezhi cut as well, since his burfdae was next and he couldn't celebrate with the s'pore fans in feb.. haha.. den renfu wanted to eat the cake onstage, but the gong zhuo ren yuan came onstage to take the cake awae.. haha.. while singing, renfu had the urge to cry during song time.. i nearly and tracy?? she cried lor.. haha.. after that, 56 sang their last song and then we left.. at that time, it was 11.50p.m..

after the concert, tracy went to the toilet and den we walked out all the way to the main road.. after waiting for nearly an hour just to get a taxi, we saw 56 leaving in a mini bus.. and wad's more, other than 2 mini vans which i think shld be the gong zhuo ren yuan, the rest were like fans.. and i bet there was more than 20 mini vans chasing after 1 mini bus.. i was like" OMG!! hui bu hui tai kua zhang lah?" somemore it was nearly midnite liao.. i mean, almost midnite and you still want to go chase 56.. a bit illogical, rite?? somemore after the concert, 56 must be hungry and tired liao.. haha..

the most memorable one of the concert:
was the part where 56 started taking pics on stage.. they took 2 pics using renfu's own cam and others using polaroid.. and u know wad?? dey actually gave the pics to the fans in front lor.. =( and another one was where fans were chosen to go on stage to sing with 56.. so envious.. :(haha..

i think this post is super long.. anywae, me and tracy are gonna start saving up money for 56's next concert.. so my goal now is, to save money for 56's next concert (hopefully, next year) and to study hard so that my parents can let me go.. for the past 3 years or so, 56 has been coming to s'pore for a concert every year.. hopefully next year too and in the years to come.. if they're gonna hold a concert next year again, i think it'll be ard this time of the year again!! haha.. owells, the concert was great.. if they ever come out dvd on s'pore's concert, i'm sure to get it!! :)

i shall be nice and blog abt todae.. cause so many things happen todae?? ok, may not be many but interesting things.. met tracy in the morning before we went singing at partyworld.. it was ok lah.. not that ex.. but the place like very smoky.. and there, i found out that i got class bbq tmr but i'm not gg.. my night's reserved for my dear.. we sang until 2 p.m before gg to the paragon's food court to have lunch.. but as we went to paragon food court, we passed by lucky plaza and saw sam and caroline but they didn't see us.. =( so after we had lunch, we went to far east to meet nicoles.. after meeting them, we went back to lucky plaza to find caroline b4 gg to taka when they got their lunch as me and tracy sat there and watched them eat.. haha..

after they had lunch, we went walking ard taka and wisma to shop for my blouse but sad to sae, we couldn't find any.. but i bought myself a new pencilbox instead only for $12.90!! haha.. then we went to B1 of wisma and as we passed by bread talk, we saw 7F!!! i tell you, they're so pretty lor!! prettier than on tv.. then tracy and i started taking pics but the first 2 was't successful.. den xiao qiao looked up and me and tracy waved to her and she smiled back.. she very pretty lor.. they were there for an interview.. after that, we told nicole tan to walk one round b4 coming back to meet us.. but after they walked one round, when they came back, we told them to do wadeva we need to do and we'll call them when we're done.. haha.. and me and tracy, being sua ku or at least for me lah, tracy wanted to follow them.. so after waiting for 15 mins or so outside bread talk, we followed 7F to the lift when they left.. but we didn't follow them into the lift.. while they were waiting for the lift, wei ru turned and saw us and we said hi to her!! after that when they entered the lift, we lost them.. =( then we left wisma and went back to heeren to shop and tracy bought a new hat!! or cap.. den we walked back to far east where we sat for 2 hours waiting for nicole tan to finish ringing her bell..

after that, i came back with nicole and tracy but that gurl stopped at dhoby ghaut.. -_-"" and she claimed that this ah kua was following her.. haha.. so farnie lor.. but b4 we boarded the train, me and tracy were playing this game which made the both of us or at least me go high until nicole also went crazy.. haha.. gosh, todae was indeed quite fun.. tmr's 5566's concert and i think i'll be back late and very high still.. will just yak to my sis abt the concert.. haha.. i pity my sis.. heehee... and i'm forced to sae this: TRACY, I LOVE YOUR VOICE!!(from here onwards, is wad i wanna tell tracy!!) IF YOU JOIN CAMPUS SUPERSTAR, YOU MAY GET INTO THE FINALS LOR.. OR AT LEAST TO THE NEXT ROUND!!

ok.. i think i over-reacted with regards to yesterdae's post.. hmm.. real sorry.. just dunno wad happen to me.. but i'm fine now.. guess i was a little affected by the news but i'm really fine.. and dun worry, i'll enjoy myself at 5566's concert this coming saturdae.. =)

things are just getting out of hand within 5566.. here comes a rumoured report that renfu wants to leave 5566.. i have no idea wad this is all abt but it seems it has smth to do with xiezhi's role in his new show.. supposedly to be renfu who shld be acting with qiaoen but now?? is renfu jealous or wad?? i mean, he has more hosting chances than xiezhi so why can't he just let xiezhi have the role?? must he make a big hoo ha over it and threaten to leave 5566 during one of the dance practices in taiwan?? they're really getting out of hand.. whose fault is it?? xiezhi or sun zong?? and is sun zong really using shaowei to let xiezhi be more famous?? i doubt so but reports are saeing this wae.. haiz.. i really wonder wad will happen if one dae, renfu really decide to leave 5566.. and i seriously think they owe us fans an explaination..

after reading some news, i've decided to blog.. and the news is: XIEZHI IS GOING TO ACT IN A SHOW WITH LEAD ACTRESS, CHEN QIAOEN!! big news to me man!! OMG!! hopefully after the show ends in taiwan, s'pore can also show.. i think by next year or 2007.. but shld be next year.. hopefully s'pore really can play.. cause apparently all the shows my dear act in, i all got watch so hopefully, this time round also can.. and ming dao is also acting in a new show with sweety's qiao qiao and shaowei.. really hope s'pore can play these shows when it's ready.. anywae, had c.o just now.. me, tracy and fiona were like super noisy?? haha.. but li ting not ard so our noise level was considered ok liao.. if not, with liting, it's even worse!! haha.. owells.. I WANNA WATCH XIEZHI'S NEW SHOW!!

listening to S.H.E's new song 不作你的朋友.. quite nice.. quite soothing i find.. haha.. anywae, last nite was star awards 2005.. sad to sae, peifen didn't win the best popular newcomer.. haiz.. she was voted out the last round due to lack of calls.. so sad.. just feeling bored and tot better blog.. but i think there's lesser things for me to blog abt now.. next week.. family leaving for bangkok, leaving only me and my sister.. thinking of going out with tracy from the 15th to the 17th.. haha.. 15th go send my parents and see if can welcome 5566.. 16th going out with her to meet gifford.. 17th going to watch concert.. but i think 15th i wun go out.. cause i'm broke for a fact.. but i think i'll go out with her to meet gifford.. afterall that's wad i told him.. haha.. eager to meet him lah.. not only me but he too.. so yah.. might as well go out on that dae and let me do some shopping for makeup?? and a few other accessories that i may need.. so yah.. gosh, and holidae hw not really done... there goes my holidae man.. and it's ending!! how fast!! =((

life seems so boring these few daes.. have been eating, sleeping, watching tv and using the com the last few daes.. haiz.. that's how i'm passing my life.. my taggie's making no sense now.. all thx to me and tracy.. wad jail and babies.. haha.. there's c.o camp tmr.. doubt i'll ever enjoy it.. serious.. me and tracy also not in the same grp.. damn pathetic lor.. -_-"' cannot make it lah.. hopefully they dun bore me.. but i've got this feeling, i'll nv enjoy myself tmr.. just hoping that tonite's wan yu dun have anything on 5566, other than renfu.. cause if got, i cannot watch the repeat.. haiz.. life's boring.. 18 more daes to 5566's concert!! yes!!

almost 1 week gone.. rmb last week me and tracy were all so excited over 5566's handshake session.. haha.. owells.. anywae, dunno wad to write also.. oh!! this week's wanyu had shaowei and renfu from mondae to thursdae and tonite it seems it's renfu and mengzhe.. haha... gosh, zhang shanwei better not come back lah!! haha.. owells.. 22 more daes to 5566's concert!!

promised tracy to post this so yah.. TRACY, THIS POST IS FOR THE BOTH OF US!!

went for 5566's handshake session yesterdae.. was quite fun and tiring though!! but we didn't mind being tired so long as we could see 5566.. so we were supposed to meet at 12 but i was a lot earlier than her so i waited... after tracy arrived, we hurried to Tiong Bahru plaza where the handshake session was held.. but upon arriving there, we learnt that we had to produce our tix b4 we could shake their hands and being me, i forgot to bring.. reason?? cause i didn't know we had to bring.. so me and tracy went back to my place and got my sis to bring down for us before taking a taxi back to tiong bahru plaza.. den we were quite early so tracy went to get smth to eat and we shopped for something to give renfu and xiezhi.. so we shopped and we finally decided to go back to the venue to wait.. while waiting, tracy and i managed to get a poster on 5566's concert!! we were like damn lucky but i gave the poster to tracy..

after waiting for like an hour or so, 5566 FINALLY ARRIVED!! they were in their yes i love you outfit which was the song they sang after a mini interview.. so i took a lot of pics which were considered quite well taken, considering me and tracy were far behind.. so yah.. well try to upload the pics?? oh!! and xiezhi mentioned that during their concert this year, 7F will be their special guest star with tai chi and 4 other artistes(secret)..finally the handshake session started!! me and tracy were like so happy lor!! couldn't wait.. we finally shook 56's hand lor.. first was mengzhe, renfu, shaowei and den xiezhi!! it was like "wah, a dream come true!!" haha.. (i think i'll write wad i told them the next update.. unless still got space to write..) den after that, we took more pics and den 56 went off liao.. but yah, had a lot of fun and tracy refused to wash her hand!! as for me, i wash liao but i wun let anyone else hold or touch my hand cause the last person to touch was xiezhi!! so yah.. crazy little fan..

WAD I TOLD 56...
mengzhe: helloz mengzhe!!
reply: helloz..
renfu: renfu, ge dou tian wang hen hao kan!!
reply: xie xie..
shaowei: shaowei, ni hao shuai!!
reply: *just a smile
xiezhi: xiezhi, zhi ge song ge ni..
reply: orh.. *smile..*

xiezhi was shocked to received a present from me lor.. i think he didn't like it.. but nevertheless, i may be the first timer to such an event.. renfu was damn shocked to receive tracy's present lor.. he was like " =O.. xiexie.." and tracy forgot to shake his hand until he reminded her.. den she kena dian by mengzhe.. haha.. but i almost kena dian by shaowei.. you know their hands were like so "huge"?? it was so warm lor.. esp. renfu.. haha.. tracy said she look at xiezhi but xiezhi was looking at me.. =)) haha.. owells.. it's over.. really had a lot of fun.. wanted to go for their poster autograph session at bukit panjang plaza but got tuition and tracy couldn't find anyone to go with her.. haha.. owells.. pics cannot be uploaded.. so sad.. but nvm.. anywae TRACY!!! THIS POST IS OCOPYRIGHTED!! DUN TAKE!!

came back from camp yesterdae.. still a little tired.. despite sleeping for 12 hours.. heehee.. woke up at 12.40 todae.. and i slept at that time last nite.. heehee.. anywaez, camp wasn't that bad as i tot it would be... it was ok.. well, at least better than last year?? many people didn't turn up or they left even before the camp started.. so sad lah.. got used to the mattress by the 2nd nite and i slept thru the 2nd nite!! mayb coz' i really was tired.. didn't manage to get a good sleep the first nite.. but then, for the 2nd nite, i slept for only 5 hours.. so i was really tired yesterdae morning..

nick was there and i found out smth on the last dae (a bit slow of me lah.. ) we were actually wearing the same slippers but different colour and size only.. den for the first dae, we were playing this shoe game.. and you know wad??!! he actually got my shoe!! =)) but so wad?? that doesn't mean anything, rite?? seriously speaking, when it comes to him, i really wish to give up but each time i want to give up, there seems to be smth pulling me from stopping me to give up.. i know i really shld but i dunno how.. haiz.. best if i dun think abt it.. oh!! and i wrote him a warm fuzzy!! though he didn't write me one but nvm.. and i think the both of us were a bit stupid!! as in, we didn't even tok to each other though we know each other.. dumb, rite?? but he seemed to be popular with the gals in his grp and pls, i'm NOT jealous.. as for the warn fuzzy, he said thx to me online yesterdae when i saw him online.. haiz.. we're just not fated.. anywae, i've got to go.. may go back to sleep or play my game.. haha..

i cried while watching wang zi bian qing wa..
because of xu ziqian..
i was so touched by his acting that i cried..
first time you would see shaowei cry so badly because of his job..
really.. nv in mvp, or xi jie shao nian.. only in wang zi bian qing wa..
he cried naturally as though his own mummy passed awae..
i was so TOUCHED..
tears just swelled up in my eyes..

went to the doc's early this morning.. after deciding that i shld get that flu jab.. and boy, it's so fast lor!! auntie priscillia rox!! haha.. she was like rubbing the antiseptic and i was toking to her.. telling her sae i tok to my fren then she inject.. but no!! before i could call tracy, she inject alr and i was like " huh?? over lah??" haha.. after that went swimming with hui yee and tracy.. swam for a few hours, got tanned which i'm still not satisfied with.. before coming home to have lunch and we had a late lunch.. taught hui yee how to play the piano and make earrings and this mission of making earrings wasn't successful.. cause we eanded up taking pictures with tracy and hui yee painted her toe nails white, using my new nail polish!! haiz..

presently hearing 7F's newest album and i think it's quite good, esp. for newcomers.. well, not really newcomers but yah.. and i just realised that music done by Warner Music is a lot better than Avex Trax/Musicstreet.. i mean, yah.. a good example is 5566's newest album.. dun believe?? go hear their previous albums and you'll know.. their albums are not exactly that good but at least there's some improvement in the music quality, rite?? owells..

i've got some bad news here.. i've got to take the damn flu jab.. -_- and i so dun wanna.. why??? cause i've nv like jabs.. and trust me, i cry like there's no tmr.. ok, it may be exaggerated but yah.. i really cry like there's no tmr.. so i doubt i'll go take it but they'll force me too.. but for the moment, like i care them?? nth can make me take the jab.. of course, unless my dear's life is at stake..

ok, firstly, GOOD NEWS for myself!! I'M GOING FOR 5566'S CONCERT!! YEAH!! can't wait can't wait.. after much thinking and sorting out of finances.. final decision: i'm paying 100 bucks, tracy's paying 40 bucks!! haha.. sounds more logical, rite?? rather than i pay 105 bucks and tracy 35 bucks.. haha... can't wait can't wait.. not only me but her too!! whee!! i can finally see my darling.. *muacks* haha...

cousin coming over tonite for dinner and i'm not very happy over it though.. why?? cause i can't watch the most exciting episode of mr fighting!!! *starts to cry* argh!! have to give in to that puny p1 gurl.. -_-"" but it's ok.. cause i've watched part of it and let me tell you, i'm gonna make comments todae!!

DUAN YAN HAO IS SO DESPICABLE!! KE WU!! he made wei ying qi sign some TFKC documents and went to see duan yu qiao, saying that wei ying qi wants to challenge him!! CHALLENGE HIM!! his pal, brother and coach leh!! i was so qi to know lor!! he's such a loser!! duan yan hao, qu si ba!! owells.. and i nearly burst out crying, ok!! why?? coz though wei ying qi challenged duan yu qiao, xiao kui got injured while trying to stop ying qi from continuing to compete!! haiz.. all i can sae is duan yan hao is so despicable and detestable.. how could he do this man?? but who knows where this problem came from?? no one knows.. this problem was indirectly caused by someone but who?? everyone had a part to play, leading to this problem... so we can't for sure sae that there's someone to blame.. if there was, mayb every character had a mistake.....

back again.. i think my heart gonna shatter into many many many pieces if i ever decide to go to my darling's concert.. why?? cause other than paying for my own ticket, i'll be paying half the price of TRACY WONG PEIPEI'S ticket as well.. sob sob sob.. confirm break one lor.. someone paying 35 bucks.. i paying 105 bucks leh!! but i told her i'll think about it and let her know again.. gosh!! still cannot decide whether or not to go despite my urge to go.. haiz.. unless someone so kind is willing to sponser my ticket!! but.. that's so impossible..

school's over yesterdae.. got back results and i must sae something!! although my results weren't that fantastic, i improved in some subjects, be it a grade or a few marks.. at least, better than not improving, rite?? owells.. kena "lecture" from mrs ooi but it was ok.. not that bad.. guess i only have to work harder this coming year and during the holidaes otherwise, i dun think i'm able to get into TJC.. haiz.. and i've got to WAKE UP!!

mummy got me a new facial wash and it smells like CAROLINE!! haha.. i'm sorry but yah.. i mean, the moment i smelt it (and dun ask me why but i've got this habit of smelling the tube of facial washes), caroline just came into my mind.. haha.. it really smells like her.. haha.. anywae, me, tracy and hui yee are gg swimming next week and they're coming to my place to have prawn mee(becoz' of trace) and hui yee's learning how to make earrings.. haha..

i think i've gotten over the li wei lian craze.. haha.. it seems to me that no matter who i like other than my darling, i still end up iking my darling even more.. just dunno how to explain and it's smth that it's so difficult to explain.. if you get wad i mean.. ok, i've been getting nitemares becoz' of results.. woke up in the middle of last nite and started crying.. think i'm too pressurised by results that even to get a peaceful sleep also cannot.. just dunno wad's wrong with me.. i feel so dead.. i've tried telling myself that it's ok.. it's only results.. at the most kena scolding again from parents but it doesn't seem to work.. and how do i try to assure myself?? by telling myself that my darling will be there for me.. but i know it's nv true.. it's just in reel life.. not reality.. all i can sae now is i need someone by my side to give me support and guide me along.. i seem so vulnerable.. haiz.. just dunno wad to do and i think you wun be able to understand since you're not me..

i just realised how unimportant i am in the lives of others.. and i mean it.. anywaez, LEON WILLIAMS is so good-looking.. and i think he's cute in his own waes.. to me, he's cute when he smiles.. haha.. oh, just in case you were wondering who's leon williams, he's li wei lian and boy, i tell you, he's good-looking and cute.. and he's local!! haha..

i'm presently sick.. as in not with fever or wad... went to the doc's yesterdae to discover that i've got a lot of wind in my poor tummy(thus making me feel uncomfortable) and.... i'm constipated!! =(( and becoz' of that, the medicine is so horrible.. bleah.. feel like pucking man.. haiz.. as a result, didn't go school yesterdae.. hopefully i didn't miss out much.. coz' i've nv been absent this year, ok?? only yesterdae and i nv like to be absent though at times, i dun feel like gg to skool.. just called libby.. to know that one whole grp of them are heading to uncle james' place after youth mass and where am i?? at home??!!! so qi~~~~i ruined my own chance in seeing him.. no wonder i had this strong feeling of gg to uncle james' place.. -_-""shan't blog anymore..

I FEEL SO SHITTY!!! i mean seriously.. i'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown.. feel so depressed.. ok, by now, you must be wondering wad is this usually smiley gurl depressed about.. well, over results.. exam results.. i think i really didn't put in enough effort this time round.. just wad in the world is wrong with me?? this so isn't me.. got back 5 papers.. failed 2.. passed 3!! can't believe it.. i think i'll be asked to drop physics and a maths provided that i dun pass my entry test to see if i can take up a maths next year.. and the best thing is, the subjects that i passed were all either a C5 or a C6.. that's how good my marks are.. no Bs nor As.. hopefully my chinese can make me smile.. but i doubt so..

just saw tracy's blog.. haha.. i think that gurl is crazy lor.. wake up at 1a.m just to watch ge dou tian wang.. -_-"" but seriously, yesterdae's episode was so sad.. was tearing a little.. the truth is out.. next week's one will also be exciting.. looking forward to it.. and oh!! next week is the last week of school!! YEAH!! till then..

totally pissed off just now in church by someone who was so super sacastic.. ask him to buy a pencil for charity and in return, gave some stupid dumb dumb remarks.. i think caroline knows wad i'm toking about, rite? argh... sorry but i dun mean to be evil or mean but stupid jerk!! hopefully that person doesn't ever become parish priest!! JERK!! anywae, was helping out in church todae and i think i sounded quite rude to one of my elder that she just said that " to you young people, i am auntie so-and-so to you.." ok, like wadeva though i admit that i'm at fault for sounding like no big no small.. was totally irritated by these people todae.. luckily, caroline was with me.. GOSH!! owells.. went shopping todae in the morning for an hour or so and spent close to 60 bucks!! I'M BROKE!! not really though but close.. so yah.. haiz.. i'm tired..

haven't been updating lately.. been busy with exams, exams and more exams.. haha.. had chemistry and english oral todae.. shall start with.. mondae???mondae was a maths.. totally flunked the damn paper.. left a few questions blank = no marks will be given.. ok.. mayb a big question mark!! ??? yesterdae was geog.. paper 1 which was mcq was ok.. not that bad but i felt sleepy.. paper 2 was ok.. wrote questions 2,4,5 and 6.. qn 2 and 4 wrote 2 pages long.. qn 5 and 6 becoz of time constraint wrote only a page.. so yah.. may have hope of passing.. todae's chemistry..totally sucked too!! mcq was ok.. section b and c was bleah!! didn't know how to do some questions of section b so anyhow filled in some stupid answer.. -_-"" section c got me so panicky.. other people like michelle and kimmie wrote 2 pages while i wrote only one page.. -_-"" but luckily, rina and gissy also wrote one page... whew.. but still couldn't help feeling panicky.. and den was oral.. kena lingesh.. tot was gonna be bad after wad nicole tan kept saying.. but actually, she isn't that bad.. i think she's quite friendly lor.. didn't really feel that nervous afterall.. haha.. ok, so tmr's physics.. will have to log off soon.. need to study otherwise i can't do past year papers so yah.. will update again after my exams.. which is on fridae!! yeah!!

just needed to blog smth todae.. afterall, i haven't blog for a week liao.. so yah.. decided to add smth before my blog becomes dead.. (which already is..) exams have officially started again and we had social studies todae.. so dead meat lor.. didn't finish the paper.. i think i spent too much time on SBQ but still, i didn't complete my last question.. so had like 1/2 hour to do 2 essays.. my points were all jumbled up in my head so wasn't exactly point to point.. and was quite short.. i mean my essay.. that was the first one.. the second essay totally didn't have time to do.. was running short of tiem and at the last minute, i was still doing and i hadn't completed the last question of my SBQ.. so like sam foo, i gave up.. i mean, it is just totally impossible to finish the essay in 1 minute and that doesn't include my SBQ lor.. so like s*** lah... but luckily, sam foo also didn't complete.. afterall, for the second essay, i explained the given reason and another reason just that i left my third reason(which was like not needed??) and my conclusion blank.. but i dun think they'll minus off a lot of marks.. i mean even if they do, at least pass my paper.. and i'll be thankful..

chinese paper 1 was ok.. wrote an informal letter and question no. 4 of the section B.. and the question was "pls believe me" so yah.. i think i wrote quite ok for the two essays so i dun think i'll have a big problem with that.. so yah... gosh, tmr's literature.. hopefully i'll pass.. otherwise i think i can sae bye bye to my combined humans.. and there's a combined subject that i failed... how nice.. i actually dun even intend to fail any subjects.. so hopefully when they combined my marks for social studies and lit, i do well enough to pass.. okok, i think i'd better go too.. need to study my lit notes and read my dear "The English Teacher".. the book i mean.. so yah.. will most likely update again after my stressful exams or soon if i can afford the time.. heehee..

ok, i admit.. i feel so slack.. super slack.. anywae, exams started todae but will have a one week break from now till next wednesdae where the papers start.. AGAIN!! haha.. i think i did super badly for my compo?? compre was ok.. i found ti was average.. not too difficult and not that easy though.. passage A was easy just that the questions were quite straightforward but the answers needed to be answered in your own words.. passage B was hard to understand.. and the questions were like.. challenging and needed to think.. summary was fine.. hopefully i'm able to pass compre.. otherwise it wun be a good thing.. for sure.. gosh, will have to study social studies and literature during this "one week break" from exams..

libby called me yesterdae but i didn't bring the phone with me.. only found out after i got home from church.. haha.. she didn't get to see her *ahem ahem*.. haha.. but i did!! whee!! ok, dat's nth to be happy about though.. just didn't expect him to turn up since he went for the youth mass last saturdae.. so we were toking for a while coz' she needed to go for mass.. after that in the evening, was toking to nicole tan and as usual we toked nonsense and crap.. haha.. and i went crazy.. gosh, i think there's something wrong with me..

was on my wae home with nicole tan and we were saying that after exams, the both of us(not sure the rest..) will go crazy.. and mind you, definitely crazy.. and i dun intend to touch my books after exams.. but in school, have to.. i mean, gimme a month's break and i'll be elated liao.. haha.. so yah.. haiz.. hate exams.. nicole was saying that the exam week and this week will pass very fast.. hopefully man.. suddenly got a lot of things to tok about.. mayb coz' it has been sometime since i last blogged.. oh yes, nicole saw his photo and she also thinks he's good-looking.. heehee.. my taste not that bad, ok??!! haha.. okok, i think i'm toking crap now due to too much stress, lack of sleep(which i am gonna do after this..) and i'm a little hungry.. yes yes, i know.. P-I-G!! heehee.. but i can't help it yeah?? okok, i've got to go now.. will need my sleep b4 i start on my physics and hopefully social studies mugging..

haiz.. not gg for youth mass tmr.. shall stay at home and do my research for english.. haha.. was toking to nick online just now.. he's most likely gg for the youth mass.. i dunno if i shld go.. but i think caroline not gg leh.. ok, wait.. i just contradicted myself.. wadeva..

english exam paper 1 and 2 is on mondae.. not that worried though.. just hoping my english compre is ok.. dun let me fail my compre and i'm safe.. will see if i can read thru some of the past year questions tmr or later.. at least i will den know the standard of it.. otherwise... anywae, ok, i've gtg.. got nth else to write liao.. heehee..

ok.. sry for not being able to blog for almost a week.. was busy during the week studying.. haha.. anywae, was in church yesterdae.. wasn't exactly fun or boring.. it was ok.. but i heard that yesterdae's CO performance was hyper!! haiz.. anywae, not gg for IBG tonite.. gonna bombard myself with books.. oh, and i discovered a big secret from my dear libby!! oh man, my mum knows that i like nick and she wun bother.. and libby's mum knows about it too!! like wad the.. aiyo.. how?? gosh.. anywae, will get back to my books after this.. have to study yeah??!! anywae, i gtg.. will hopefully update as often which i doubt so coz' EOY is coming!! HEY PEOPLE!! LET'S START WORKING HARD AND STUDY FOR EOY??!! YEAH??!! JIA YOU!!

i've found a solution to my dilemma.. i've toked to my mum and my aunt.. my aunt thinks i shlould go and help out for the P2 reconciliation instead of CO since i attended the meetings and wadnot and i know wad to do liao.. afterall, i'm not sure if angela will turn up that day and i've told david that i'll be there so yah.. so i shouldn't break my promise.. heehee.. as for CO, just get mummy to write a letter since mdm foo sae she dun wanna force me and afterall, wadeva decision i make, shldn't she respect me?? so yah.. angela and nikki didn't turn up for cat. class todae so it was only me, david and angie.. and i did smth todae rather than sit there, doing nth.. well, i helped to pack the tea candles for the P2 reconciliation lor!! haha.. was quite ok lah... den we went thru the process of confession again.. haiz.. as usual.. so yah.. grandma and grandpa was back from korea yesterdae but my dear grandpa fell sick there... poor thing.. hopefully he gets better soon.. *pray hard..*

saw uncla ignatius this morning in church when i went for the cat. class.. and as usual, i ended up getting teased by him coz' the church camp photos for the first camp was placed up and my photo was like there, so BIG!! and he kept teasing me.. so yah.. nicholas came late for mass todae.. to be exact, he was 10 mins late.. first time i see him so late lor!! haha.. was actually quite surprised coz' i tot he wasn't coming.. den i saw him walking in and immediately, i was wide awake.. was falling asleep.. haha.. so yah.. den mass continued as normal.. heehee.. hmmph.. term 4 is starting tmr.. gosh!! and we've got like only 1 month b4 our EOY and 1 1/2 more months before school ends for us.. yeah!! waiting for the holidae part but not the exams.. hopefully my EOY score dun get badly affected by my MYE marks.. have to work harder this term for the EOY!! people!! let's start studying hard, yeah??!! JIA YOU!!

church and CO performance next fridae.. how?? i'm in such a dilemma.. gosh, how i wish i both also can dun go!!! =((

yippee!! gissy's back in singapore.. she went to HK on teachers' dae and she's finally back!! great!! den i wun feel so lonely in the morning when i go to skool.. haha... one week really passed so fast.. it's like hey!! it's only mondae and the start of the holidaes but now, no.. it's thursdae going on to fridae and it's gonna be the end of the holidaes.. haha.. how great, rite?? heehee.. wadeva.. there's CO again tmr.. and i'm going there to sleep.. i mean, i need my sleep despite waking up at 10 plus in the morning.. haha.. =)) gosh!! mayb CO shld have a plan like that.." those who are not able to perform for upcoming performances need not attend CO combined practice.. but without notice of any performances, all is to attend.." wun that be better?? then at least they wun waste people's time.. like me.. i'm not performing for the mid-autumn festival but i'm still going for practice.. tell me, does it make sense?? -_-"" ok, i'm just toking crap.. haha... but mayb that's wad they shld do..

i so decided to blog after reading tracy's blog loh!! u know wad?? she ACTUALLY saw JUNYANG!! OMG!! so envious can?? hong junyang leh!!! but she saw him with candyce.. frm project superstar.. oh man!!! junyang is shuai lor!! i'm like head over heels with him?? gosh, wad happen to my darling man?? i dunno wad to sae liao.. =S i'm so envious!! will ask tracy wad this is all about.. and ask her to tell me more!! gosh!! JUNYANG, you're my jue dui SUPERSTAR!! =))

heehee.. i'm back.. after 2 daes?? heehee.. anywae, yesterdae was quite tired.. supposedly to do morning reflections but becoz' ms tan's mum passed awae so i didn't have to do.. but i'll be doing the first fridae after the skool hols.. 3/6's classroom was in darkness.. not becoz' we didn't want to turn on the lights but becoz' the lights and fans weren't working.. and it was like only my class??!! chunhui and rachelle went to "complain" to the office but they didn't seem to be doing anything.. argh!! so we went to different places for lessons for a number of subjects.. went to the maths room for maths (of course..) and was late for ms teh's chinese lesson for like.. 15 mins?? and she was damn pissed off lor!! she made us stand for like 5 mins?? we were also supposedly to file our worksheets during chinese but there were some who didn't bring their chinese files and again, she got pissed off and gave us work to do.. argh!! why can't these people just be so kuai and listen to teachers for once?? esp. to mrs teo s.w.. people just keep going against her.. and not only to her, can't people just give some respect to them?? and not only to them on teachers' dae.. it's like damn irritating, ok? got irritated with some people after chinese.. but chilled down after that.. why?? mrs ooi printed the wrong results slip for all of us so most of us got grades lower than wad we should get.. had CO and was quite tired by then.. left at ard 5.30p.m to go for dinner at the nearby coffee shop but i ate cup noodles with sam and caroline from 7-11... after that, went back to skool.. school was like so packed and the best thing was the teachers had Macs!!! unfair lah.. had to settle down at the foyer for attendance taking for the arts excursion and once again, some people just pissed me off and got me irritated.. it's like, why can't they just move to the back and sit and not sit in front of me?? i'm not mentioning names though.. and not all did that.. i let some sit but not all lor!! damn pissed off with them, can?? after that, ms wong was talking to us and fiona low was playing with carolyn and miss wong was like " wad are you doing?? trying to fly issit??" to fiona low.. i tell you, i just burst out laughing loh.. haha.. sorry for being mean but yah.. it was damn funny.. trust me.. and den was asked to give out the tickets and record the seat number by ms teh and some people just said i wasn't efficient when they are the damn ones getting into the wae.. she was like " aye, marianne, you very inefficient leh.." harlo?? did she know that she and a few others was making so much noise that i couldn't even hear wad carolyn was trying to sae and she was like there, you very inefficient leh!! after recording the ticket seating and wad not, it was time for us to board the bus.. was in the bus and was telling fiona low that i'm so mentally tired.. as in, i'm not the chairperson or vice chair nor the secretary.. why shld i be the one getting the class key to open the classroom door?? i'm just a chinese rep, leh!! rachelle is the vice-chair.. shldn't she be the one getting the class key?? damn pissed off lah!! and den fiona was like " chill lah.." so pissed off liao.. dun wanna talk alr.. anywae, i think i'll update lesser coz' exams are like just ard the corner after the hols.. will use the hols to start studying.. heehee.. okok, i've got to go!!

*WEILIAN won the project superstar lor!! argh~~ it shld have been KELLY!! *

hopefully can finish blogging wad i wanna blog before project superstar start.. had interclass telematch yesterdae as part of ACES dae and teachers' day celebration.. we didn't have elective and physics but a period of maths which we all didn't want.. but mrs lie insisted so we had no choice but to do wad she saes since she said she won't be going thru wad she taught yesterdae again.. after that, went to parkwae with nicole tan, nicole chua, sam and charmaine for lunch.. saw ernest, eugenia and their parents.. haha.. he's so cute lor.. other than them, saw clare too!! she is forever at parkwae.. haha.. after walking round parkwae and getting myself 2 new blouses at 20 bucks only, i proceeded to KCP bus-stop with nicole tan.. the weather was terrible yesterdae.. had a quick shower immediately i got home.. was like all so sticky and sweaty and tired.. after that watched TV!! as for todae, went our for lunch at suntec with mum and my auntie.. they bought clothes while i actually saw the kind of pencilbox that i wanted!! gosh!! den we had spicy steamboat before walking and shopping for like 2 or 3 hours?? i was so tired loh.. came home by taxi and wacthed my darling!! just completed doing my reflections for tmr's morning assembly.. gosh, hopefully it turns out ok.. -_-'''' haha.. anywae, i gtg.. wanna go watch the finals for project superstar!! wonder who will win..???