i really screwed up.. i thought i could let go.. i thought i had let go.. let go completely and totally.. but judging from my reaction, i don't think so.. i saw him today and i can't believe i actually felt happy.. i can't believe that my heart skipped a beat.. i tried to ignore his presence but i couldn't.. i'm not hiding from him or avoiding him.. i'm doing what i told her.. face up and not avoid cause it'll do me no good.. but look at where my feelings are bringing me to.. i'm starting to think of him again.. does all this just mean that i didn't let go completely yet? does all this just mean that i'm still missing him? i'm screwed up..

just now as i listened to S.H.E's song, i nearly started crying.. so i changed song.. listening to it now again cause i think the song is nice but i feel like crying yet i'm holding back those tears.. partly because my sis is in the room now.. but those tears can't drop.. i can't let it flow.. can my dears please tell me what to do?

were the feelings gone at all?
or were they just hiding in a corner..
invisible till i saw you?
i feel like crying.. really..