life still continues... we all know we must continue living our lives but it's so hard to stay strong and to let go.. i feel sad.. not for myself but for my cousin and my uncle.. just feel sad for them and it's a feeling that seems so hard to explain.. but no matter wad, we will all try to stay strong and give them support and continue living our lives even as our lives are no longer the same as before..

just realised that the 2 people i dun fancy seeing is teaching the same level as me.. before knowing this, i was just trying to convince myself that even though my aunt is no longer around, i still can attend catechism meetings without her, and attend it alone.. but now that i know the 2 people i dun fancy seeing is teaching the same level as me, it would only mean that i would see them during catechism meetings.. and this has made me lose the strength to attend catechism meetings on my own.. it's just that i have to attend meetings on my own now and my aunt is no more around to take care of me, to explain to me some things after meetings if i dun understand and to send me home after meetings.. it's just me alone.. and i'm finding it so difficult to face some people now especially people who doesn't know about my aunt and i'm not close to.. but i tink it all takes time.. just a matter of time..