things have been rather down for me the last 2, 3 daes.. started on sundae.. owells, shan't go into detail.. see no point in letting those whom i dun wanna know know about such things.. mayb a few of my frens have known wad i'm talking about, but if u dun't.. it's ok.. anywae, graduation lunch was yesterdae.. hmm.. was quite ok lah.. not too bad.. took quite a lot of photos but may not consider a lot as compared to others.. owells.. it's just sad that 4 years have come and go in a wink.. many friendships have been made but whether or not, these friendships will ever last, no one knows but i know out of all the friendships i've made, the friendship i have with another 56 fan will last.. (i hope u know who u are... haha.. ) i expected myself and many others to cry yesterdae but hey, the atmosphere wasn't touchin enough so, yup, no tears came from me.. haha.. many things may not have gone our way thru out this 4 years and we all may had our share of fights and smiles but one thing for sure is, we all had wonderful and beautiful memories in KC.. so even as we leave KC, stepping one last time into the school when we receive our results next year, these memories will be with us till the end of time.. ok.. getting a bit emotional here.. dunno why also but been feeling rather blue so mayb that's one of the reasons..

anywae, i've found a job and i am starting work tmr!! yipee!! after so long.. haha.. working somewhr near singapore expo so will have to take the train to work.. although i'm looking forward to it, but afterall, it's a new environment for me so no doubt, i'll be a little scared and nervous.. owells.. but overall, life's been ok for me despite the ups and downs.. haha.. till my next post, see ya..
P.S i'll try to live my life happy each dae.. i promise i'll try..

i'm "happy" to know that i'm out of job again... how great.. i'm not blaming anyone or the agency but.. haiz.. i woke up happily yesterdae morning to know that i've got another job offer.. but then, i called the agency up just now, to only know that the (stupid) company doesn't want me cause i can't start work on mondae.. all thanks to the stupid graduation lunch!! now, i've to spend another at least 1 week waiting for another job offer.. how nice.. argh!! can someone pls tell me wad am i going to do while waiting for a job?? i can't possibly go out everydae but neither can i stay at home everydae.. this is so sickening.. rather upset now but.. just hoping that i'll get a job soon otherwise, i'm sure to die of boredem by the end of this month... shld have gotten my AQMFS DVD den at least gt show to watch.. -.- owells.. and tracy wants me to blog about this.. rmb the other dae i blogged abt gg to bugis? well, at bugis, tracy lost her wallet at bugis macs and thank goodness, we found it.. haha.. TRACY, HAPPY?? haha.. oh, and renfu's back on wan yu.. :)

yo!! haha.. firstly, congrats to fu for having a chubby baby girl!! he got his wish.. haha.. he and qin will be good parents, for sure.. haha.. anywae, purpose of blogging is not this.. haha... went out with tracy and hui yee todae after sch.. met hui yee at bugis with tracy after tampines.. den we shopped and walked till close to 5 den left bugis after gg to bugis village and somewhr near purvis street.. supposed to go for interview but decided not to after seeing the number of people waiting to be interviewed so we left after walking for so long and almost losing our wae.. den on our way to the building whr the interview was held(which by the way, was some sort rather ulu..), we passed this sort of construction site and the 3 of us were walking when we heard 2 cats fighting inside.. thinking that the cats would run out of some hole that actually couldn't be found, me, tracy and hui yee just started screaming and ran on the side of the road.. haha.. but hey, luckily we weren't in sch uniform lor.. haha... but our main purpose was to shop for our graduation lunch clothes.. and when is our grad lunch?? next mon.. -.- owells.. anywae, my letter got read out on yes 933 and is the first letter somemore!! so happy.. jia hui played 56's song although i really wanted 183's song.. but nevertheless, it's dear's song.. so yah.. haha.. owells.. ok, enough of my crappiness.. haha..

wanted to type in chinese but 4get it.. i dun have the chinese programme.. haha.. owells.. gg out this week.. basically it's tues and either thurs or fri.. go k box.. haha.. anxiously wanting to know if qin give birth alr.. and whether renfu has officially become a dad yet.. haha.. owells.. will have to watch wan yu tmr den will know.. short post.. haha..

watched wan yu last nite as usual but was especially happy.. renfu finally faced the media abt him, ji qin and their little baby.. after all those mths of speculation by the media and fans, he really stood out yesterdae to address this matter.. yes, he shared his feelings abt it and he's excited abt being a dad and of course, he did apologise to the media.. not because he hid the truth from them but because as a public figure not only in taiwan but also overseas, he actually had pre-marital sex which was WRONG!! so yah.. of course, i think with rgds to this matter, i believe 56 and j-star knew about this and they also helped renfu to cover up.. renfu did mention that if it was necessary, he would leave 56, to ease the tension btw them and the media.. well, i guess that even if he wants to leave, zhi and the other members wun let him leave.. afterall, 56 now is 4 ppl.. if he leave, shaowei's busy with 183, 56 will only be left with... 2 members.. so i dun think this is the end of 56.. there'll be more to come.. 56 and the other xiao shi di mei men of j-star also offered their blessings not only to the xiao baby, but also to fu and ji qin.. hopefully they get married some time next year.. wish them all the best.. haha.. owells.. i think when the time comes, fu and ji qin will get married but whether or not, there'll be exclusive shots of the birth of their baby and their wedding, i'm not too sure.. of course i'm hoping but one thing i know is fu will invite sun zong and 56 to his wedding.. haha.. can't wait to share in his and ji qin's hoy in being promoted to becoming parents.. i think tracy dun have to worry about them now bah.. haha...

i'm in a freaking bad mood now.. or rather i'm rather moody.. i lost my calculator.. my calculator that's been with me for close to 4 years!! oh man.. frens sae it's not in school or they didn't take it.. i can't find it at home.. den whr can it be?? haiz.. how nice!! i can't do my maths now.. :( owells.. went shopping todae for my items.. was back at home within an hr.. got my bag!! finally.. after all those mths since august abt wanting to get a big bag for poly next year and for catechism.. and of course, a big bag that can put my things in when i work part time.. haha.. and gotten some other stuff as well.. it's my last week of the o levels!! gonna fight it out and study real hard.. for all u know, this may be the last time i'm studying till next year.. haha.. papers went rather smoothly.. at least for all though.. shan't go into detail but i've gt confidence of getting at least an A now!! haha.. ask me and i'll tell u the subject.. haha.. went for a job interview last tuesdae at Recruit Express.. applied for general admin and bank admin.. quite interested in bank admin and is waiting for a reply from them.. as for the general admin, got a reply alr.. but can only start work in dec whereas the bank admin can start work next fridae if everything goes smoothly.. so will call them up on mondae b4 giving a reply to the general admin.. just for ur info, the bank admin one is either at Raffles Place or Lavender!! haha.. so yah, hopefully i get the bank admin job.. owells.. i'm missing my calculator.. nth seems rite without it..

my pissed level is relatively high now.. all thanks to ming dao.. like shit him lah!! went to the j-star forum to check some things out and ha, i saw this forum about him entering shao nian as one of the permanent host like mayi.. and he may be taking over renfu's place because of some problems.. like helloz?? shao nian was produced because of 56 and now, here comes ming dao 'intruding' the host grp.. he's wad? wanna take over 56's place issit? or wanna be j-star's yi ge? da shi xiong? i eamn he's so damn irritating lah.. if i ever see him in person, i'll tell him that he stands no chance in taking over xiezhi, renfu and shaowei's place as da shi xiong, er shi xiong and san shi xiong in j-star.. he stands no chance!! so wad if 183 is more popular than 56 in china?? i dun think that gives him a reason to be so proud and arrogant lah.. i just can't stand him.. if it wasn't for shaowei, i wun even bother to listen to 183 songs.. 56 fans watch shao nian because we wanna see 56.. shao nian is the only show that allows us to see 56 often on tv.. and now, here comes ming dao who may take over renfu's place in the show and may kick fu out of the hosting grp and wad happens after that? we wanna watch the 4 of them.. all 56 members.. it seems 56's fans are rather angry over this.. i have no idea wad to say but if that bastard does enter the hosting grp permanently, chances of me watching will cut down alot.. because the hosting grp is not complete.. hopefully none of this is true.. and and and and!!! zhi got injured while filming his show in china.. :( although he is now back in taiwan, i still hope he recovers soon.. i just wanna know he's fine and i'll be glad.. really...

decided to do some blogging or rather some reflections over the past 2 weeks of my life.. it seems people are blogging lesser mayb except for some frens of mine.. owells.. afterall this is the exam period for some.. or rather, not for the sec 4s yet.. lesser people are turning up for school nowadaes.. every one seems to be skipping school just to study at home.. and everyday, people ask me" marianne, are you coming tmr??" and my reply is " yes".. reason? simple, my mum wun let me skip school even if my dad allows.. you see.. the problem simply lies with my parents and then frens will start asking me why i nv ever ask.. because i know wad their answer will be.. a very sraight-forward NO.. so why do i ever bother asking when i even know the answer already? but then again, mayb it's a good thing to be present for lessons although nt much of teaching comes about these daes in school.. well, at least questions can be asked on the spot and work can be done rather than i stay at home and know that i'm not going to get anything done at all.. at least the teachers in school make me get some work done.. and also, teachers may even offer help and suggestions on how to study smart.. so yah, mayb it's not a bad thing on going to school even if my frens are not around.. at least i can concentrate better and focus better?? but i know i'm just lying to myself..
my sis asked me about my L1R5 for my prelims this afternoon when i came back from tuition.. well, my aggregate can actually get me in innova jc but i dun intend to go to jc or try out the first 3 mths.. mum and sisters are trying to persuade me to go but i've got no interest.. i really need a break from all that studying over the last conscutive months and so wad if there wun be any lessons for the first 3 mths in jc?? i'm not going to try out and dun ever try to change my mentality of going to jc?? cause i really dun want to.. figured out the purpose.. make me change my decision on going to poly.. instead go to jc, den to uni den to NIE.. how i wish i can just tell them to get off my back and stop irritating me especially these few daes when at the sight of them just makes me feel irritated.. purely due to stress i guess??
sometimes it makes me wonder.. are they so ashamed of me going to poly? even frens are asking me if i'm serious about gg to poly and some even are shocked when i told them i'm not gg to jc.. i mean why the surprise?? i've had enough of the stress from consecutive studying over the past years and i really need a break and i think i'll suit poly life.. afterall, i dun mind getting a lower pay at NIE and even after i'm a qualified teacher.. that is if i dun get a distinction for my english.. if i do, i'll do mass comm and fulfil another dream of mine - to become a chinese deejay and get to interview overseas artistes.. but that is if i do get a distinction for english.. in conclusion, i'm really tired.. mentally drained and my brain's working very slow.. slower than during prelims and i'm scared.. real scared but who is actually really there for me? to hear me talk? to hear me pour my sorrows.. no one.. not even my family members cause they'll only think it's stupid and they only bother about my dear younger sis and i hate it.. i mean it..
i've lost my sense of direction in life.. i've lost sight of my goal.. just wad am i living for?? i really dunno..

firstly!! i'm so glad my hard work did pay off for prelims.. got back a few papers todae.. not the full paper bt like paper 1 and my chem practical.. i can only sae.. i'm more or less rather happy with my results so far.. not too sure abt the overall marks but i'm glad that i'm scoring and getting marks that i've alwaes wanted to see esp. my e maths.. real happy!! it's beyond words.. made great improvement from mid-yr!! i think my teacher will be proud of me.. and for all i know, mayb thru out my 4 yrs in KC, this is the 1st time i'm getting an A for e maths??!! haha.. of course, i shan't be too happy.. results may just turn the tables on me the next few daes during the coming week.. but all in all, i'm really very happy abt my results so far!! i'm motivated to do better for 'O' levels!! haha.. oh, and mrs chua was happy that i pass my a maths paper 1!! haha.. WELL DONE!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK BUT DUN BE TOO HAPPY YET!! :)

to give up or not??

spent the last few nites thinking abt my studies after the talk i had with mum on wed.. i'm really tired.. mentally tired.. i've had plans of giving up now on my studies.. just let go.. yes, people will think i'm being stupid or smth but you can nv understand the stress and pressure i'm going through.. even frens who are very close to me.. mayb even tracy can't understand.. give an example.. i'm stranded in the middle of the sea, holding onto a wooden plank, floating to shore.. but the journey back to shore is tiring.. if i can let go and give up on the thought of floating back to land, i'll give up and let go of that plank.. that's what i'm feeling now.. just let go of my studies and give up.. but can i?? many will advise me to continue to hold on for the next 2 months or so.. but do i have the determination and strength to hold on till then?? due to stress, i've broken down at nite.. late at nite after 12 and i cry myself to sleep.. that's what studying does to me.. sacrifices.. i do want to sacrifice my tv time but the tv shows that i watch all help me to de-stress, hoping that i'll be able to absorb my work better.. i believe in that but it's not working out.. i know i should change but if i do change, will i break down eventually? or will i break down a day or two after i change my plans.. i really dunno.. another way of de-stressing would be laughing at the not-so-funny-parts of shows or crying at the most touching part and use those touching parts as an excuse to de-stress.. it's not healthy but i can't help it.. i appear carefree and smiley to those around me but i think no one ever understands wad i'm going thru now.. i need support and encouragement.. but who is willing to give me that support and encouragement?? ok, being emo and i should stop it..
smth happier(at least) to tok about.. told tracy on mon that i'm beginning to like shaowei more than xiezhi.. and she was shocked.. till now, i really dunno who i like more.. zhi or wei? but after a nite of thinking things through, i still think i like zhi.. not that i dun like wei but at the end of the day, i'll still tell tracy that i like zhi.. it always ends up this way.. the last time was li wei lian.. but now, i also think that fei lun hai the wu zun is quite cute!! haha.. but i'll still like zhi.. ok, at least this is something happier i guess?? haha..

stressed?? haha.. i dunno.. people ard me are telling me that.. but do you think i really know if i'm over-stressed or under-stressed?? let me tell you den, i really have no idea!! was just talking to a fren on the phone this evening and she was actually giving me some tips on how to prepare for 'O' levels and wadnot.. and i officially admit!! i have a short attention span.. haha.. oh wadeva.. so yah.. she offered me some tips and yah.. shall try them out? if i can find the time and i'm sure i can.. :S the construction work at my place is really bad.. i can't study peacefully.... [ignoring the fact that i sometimes turn on some music to hear.. but i believe that listening to music helps me to study better though yes, some people will disagree with me.. ] so i'll pack my bag and move to some other places to study during the day.. have made plans to go over to the library and back to school during the study break to study.. at least it's a place more quiet and mayb i can focus and concentrate better.. who knows? ok, moving on to the next subject.... when i just came online, another fren of mine asked me a question which rather shocked me.. haha.. shan't mention the question lah.. it's between me and her.. so yah.. just stop the rumours yeah whoever that started it? it's so not true.. there's nothing between me and *ahem* whom is taken alr.. i think it's quite obvious who *ahem* is alr.. so stop it, ok?? haha.. gotta chill.. owells.. :S

i wish shaowei can go back to 56

it's been weeks since i last blogged? not very long though but time seems to past very fast.. and since i'm blogging todae, guess todae's post will be rather long.. firstly, saw renfu and ji mei mei's news.. can't believe that renfu will actually do it.. bt now, he doesn't want it.. for those who know wad i'm talking(people like tracy), will know wad happen.. just can't believe it and i seriously hope he'll want it if it's true and be responsible for it.. that's wad 56 is alwaes asking fans to do rite? be responsible for our actions.. so i feel renfu should yi shen zuo ze..
secondly, celebrated my birthday in a rather pathetic wae though.. was alone at home (other than my younger sis whom i hardly tok to) yesterdae.. went TM, hoping to get my J-star mag but no.. there wasn't.. so in the end, i bought S.H.E's cd!! haha.. quite nice though although i dun quite like some of their songs but i'm not a fan of them so it's ok.. just supported them cause the songs i liked were really nice..
thirdly, i screwed my physics practical.. my readings were off and if i'm rite, were different from the readings of those in the 2nd shift.. hopefully i'll be able to pass my practical.. even if it's just a border line pass.. at least it's a pass and i'll try hard for paper 1 and paper 2..
fourthly, just visited J-star website.. i so agree!! i really wish shaowei can go back to 56 and ignore 183 club.. i agree with wad some of the fans at the forum sae.. as to wad i see, shaowei seems happier and not so stressed with 56.. he can go crazy with 56 and dun have to bother much about his image.. also, it seems 183 looks down on 56? i dunno about it but i think they(excluding shaowei) dun seem to regard 56 as their seniors.. mayb only 1 or 2.. so yah.. bt i do think shaowei really ought to focus just on 56.. he's just tiring himself out..
and lastly, A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU FOR UR BIRTHDAY WISHES!! REALLY APPRECIATE IT A LOT!! U PEOPLE ACTUALLY MADE MY DAY EVEN THOUGH MY BIRTHDAY COINCIDED WITH PHYSICS PRACTICAL!! BUT THX TO ALL OF YOU!! LOVE YOU GUYS LOTSA!! :)))
ok, i've gtg.. will have to get back to my books soon.. haiz.. owells.. prelims are coming so can't slack anymore and do i really seem that stressed to you people?? i've lost my wire for my digi cam.. how great!!

felt so lost the week when i last blogged.. that's why that "sucidal post".. bt i'm fine now.. teachers are going at a rate where i can once again get things done on time.. and it was because of that week which dragged on to this past week that i fell sick.. came down with bad sore throat on wednesdae and can you believe it? i was still in good condition on mondae nite!! owells.. but thankfully i fell sick at the rite time though.. and first time this year whr i went home during school hours.. so i missed chemistry which i admit, i wanted to miss cause it was practical and of course, the most slacking subject to me now -- chinese.. dad came to pick me up from school after my english compre test.. ms gammar was nice to let me take the test first.. went to visit the doc on thursdae bt there wasn't any school that dae so didn't have to really worry abt missing any lessons.. but was a bit blur and quiet when i went back to school on fridae.. the cough mixture that my doc gave made me drousy and i couldn't really focus.. msged hui yee the nite b4 and after asking her smth, ended up having a casual sms session.. she actually told me to come to school for the chemistry and a maths class test.. haha.. quite surprising though bt thought it wun be a good idea coming to school half wae just to take the tests and obviously, i screwed both tests.. esp. a maths.. didn't have a slight idea on how to go about doing the paper.. but i'm prepared to fail though cause i didn't really spend much time preparing for maths.. chemistry was slightly better but think i made some stupid mistakes but thankfully, chemistry is not included in the CA but this a maths class test is.. but then again, CA marks aren't counted in prelims.. so may be i shouldn't worry so much yet i can't help worrying abt the Cs and Bs appearing in my report book at the end of this term.. mum will surely nag at me and tell me to stay awae from the tv.. but helloz?? on average, i watch only abt 1 to 2 hrs of TV every day not including the hours during meal times.. so i think it's considered quite good alr lor.. and i need time to relax, ok? even my tuition teacher sae i shld stay awae from the tv.. yet the shows played are like once a week only? other than wan yu.. owells... i know it's time to mug and study for prelims yet it seems so difficult sometimes.. esp when there's the temptation to watch and play.. but i of course know my limits so i doubt i shouldn't worry? mayb with God's spirit watching over me, i'll overcome all those temptations bah? really dunno.. this blog has actually become my weekly post-age of posts.. so naturally, the posts will obviously be longer.. after so many weeks, i saw him.. again.. but the feeling's gone.. and i'm not letting him affect my life though.. for now, studies come first.. that's all that matters..

decided to do my blogging.. suddenly felt down after my shower this evening.. actually it started at the end of the day when mrs chua said that there were 2 failures for the maths test out of which 1 was from the 36 girls studying a maths(including me).. think i'm gonna fail cause i didn't know how to do the questions and i drew the wrong graph cause i didn't read instructions and i started to panic.. in all, i didn't really complete the paper.. still feeling down though.. hoping someone could and would call and tok to me.. but i dun think the person i wanna tok to will call.. so yah.. broke down and cried again this evening.. suddenly felt the stress of not being able to do homework and at the tot of scoring low for tests.. i screwed my maths test alr.. not that i wanted to.. there's so many things that i wanna sae but just can't sae.. even on my blog.. i'm just breaking down.. life's been terrible for me this year.. i'm unable to cope with the stress and wad not.. and even while typing this, i'm breaking down.. seriously, sometimes i wonder would life be better for me if i just end it now.. i'm scared.. scared i'm unable to fulfil the standards ppl want me to achieve.. scared of results and the disappointment i'll bring to myself and those around me.. would life just be better for me if i close my eyes and nv wake up again.. i apologise for all this "suicidal" notes but i'm fine.. just need to get them off my chest.. otherwise i'll fall sick bottling these depressed feelings in me.. i know i should believe in HIM but i can't.. i know he'll make my life and daes to come better but i can't.. can someone just tell me what to do.. i'm really at a loss..

basically, i'm tired.. real tired.. the weekend doesn't seem to be giving me enuf rest.. was out the whole afternoon till evening in church for my rite of sending forth and saw mark.. my sister's cathechism partner.. after that went over to mike's place to come back home with his family for dinner.. ended up reading my book and hearing him go crazy with clare.. so yah.. didn't rest until 1 a.m.. stayed up to do some reading of my mag.. den today, woke up to go to church for mass and didn't reach home until close to 6? helped out with the P3 workshop.. though it was tiring, bt i enjoyed myself.. there was one activity called trustwalk.. felt bored and decided to play along.. was quite fun and the aim of the game was to trust your child or rather for me, to trust my sister.. almost at the end, my second sister nearly made me bump right into the wall since i was blindfolded and couldn't see.. overall, it was real fun and will be helping out again next week.. bt at least i've got saturdae to rest and sleep in.. finally reach home and was watching 'The magicians of love' just now and was literally falling asleep.. was really tired.. shall get my rest tonite by sleeping early..
anywae, as i was saying i was in church this afternoon helping out with the P3 workshop and i forgot i had to wear blue top.. so in the end, i ended up gg to clare's place to borrow a shirt.. when i went back to the P3 classroom, everyone in there including my sis and mark was like ' i love boys' and they started laughing.. and i think mark asked me a question but i didn't answer him? so yah.. after that went to bedok interchange and there i got myself a new blue blouse and a pink spaghetti strap.. haiz.. wanted to get a halter but they didn't have my size so yah.. but it's ok.. haha.. owells.. will be online for a while more b4 i'm off to getting ready for tmr and to fall asleep.. haha.. next update: fridae, 28th july (if i have any thing to update abt..)

special request by caroline for me to update my pathetic, dying blog.. haha.. anywae, school's been boring for the last 3 daes.. felt it was a totally waste of time while others may be feel it's a good break from studies for 3 days.. reason? had BMW for 3 days with racial harmony day todae.. brought my maths to do in class.. result of dying of boredem from these (i felt) unnecessary events despite having it annually.. owells.. got confirmed last sundae!! like.. finally.. haha.. mum did reading and dad did holy communion.. took quite a number of pics bt i tot it was quite little still.. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">hui yee didn't cause she had 2 daes MC.. sometimes, i really wonder if such things are real or fake especially when you see that person jumping around healthily the previous dae.. not that i'm implying people are betraying my trust but yah.. owells.. there's tuition and piano for me only tmr morning.. did quite 2 maths papers but i just didn't time myself that's all.. after that, coming home if i dun intend to go to TM to see if i can get my J-star mag.. get some rest, have lunch, take a shower and i'm out of the house again to go to church for rite of sending forth and to get my certificate and photos of last sunday.. godma's coming over for dinner with uncle daniel, clare and michael.. have no idea wad i am gonna talk to them about but i think i'll manage it well.. haha.. hopefully.. anywae, gotta get going.. will try to update again when i have the time.. :p caroline!! dun say i nv update ok? my loyal blog reader.. haha..

make this a short post b4 i'm off to dreamland.. this week's been quite ok.. slowly adapting back to the streesful and sucky school life.. received my prelims timetable and i hate my physics practical.. of all daes in august, it has to be on my burfday.. 24TH AUGUST!! it just has to be on that day.. whether or not i'm in shift 1 or not, i think it will just spoil my day.. of course, i'm hoping to be in shift 1 den can get it over and done with.. prelim dates are out and a sense of fear has just descended upon me.. it's a kind of fear that is undescribeable.. and it's scary.. i'm neither feeling slack or hardworking.. i'm just neutral and that's scary cause i dunno how well i can do for prelims.. serious.. i just have to ask GOD to help me.. owells.. there's piano and tuition tmr.. managed to complete my tuition hw but not within 2 hours[given time] and i think i didn't put in my best.. mainly because i was watching the tv while doing it, secondly, i was quite drained and completed the assignment for the sake of having to complete it.. health hasn't been in tip-top condition since tuesdae? have been getting the flu almost every night.. and the stupid pimple on my nose is painful and it wun go awae.. confirmation's on sundae.. hopefully my pimple wun make it so obvious and my pics ugly.. anywae, gotta go offline now.. need to get up real early tmr for piano and tuition.. haiz.. just dun feel like gg..

friday:
went for school's EMDD with collaboration with SJI.. the performance was great.. went with mike, clarice and his fren, jonathon.. haha.. supposedly to meet clarice den go with her bt mummy made me go with michael.. so i went with him... was feeling quite bad cause promised clarice to go with her.. so anywae, we reacher SJI at ard 7.10.. and my dear god-bro still was like if we dun make it there on time, pls take off your heels and run, k? >.< bt luckily we reached there on time bt clarice was late.. so me and his fren went in first.. during the interval, we went to look for them and we went to the entrance.. sylvia tot jonathon was my boyfren.. haha.. very farnie.. saw sueann, aretha and cheryl ng!! after that we went back in and continue the show.. after the show, mike was gg to have supper with his frens so he gt clarice to send me home and i was toking to hui yee to ease the awkwardness btw me and them.. so yah.. that was yesterdae..
sat:
was at home in the afternnon b4 gg to church for mass.. got my new glasses!! didn't make much of a difference though just that my degree went higher and my frames are slightly thinner.. so yah.. tmr's my sister's graduation.. gg all the way down to NUS.. think will feel tired.. haiz.. school's starting in a day's time? back to a new week and it's alr week 3!! how time pass lah.. soon it'll be prelims.. den 'O' levels!! *gasped* gosh.. will work superb-ly hard for prelims.. hopefully my L1R5 can be as low as possible..

can't believe i just broke down today after hearing the news.. i mean, i can't help it.. it's just too sudden and he confirmed it with me himself.. gosh.. just wad exactly is happening to me? but then again, i'm happy that he found someone he liked.. i wanted to type smth bt decided not to just in case he ever pass by my blog and sees this.. den i'm dead meat.. haha.. owells.. bt i just found it too sudden as in.. he? at this age? like woa.. i didn't even expect he would get one at this age and point of time and it so happen i know the girl but i dunno if the girl know me.. haha.. owells.. anywae, back to smth happy bt still related to him.. i'm gg for emdd this year!! to support KC's production and gisella and berlyn!! afterall, we're classmates and i've known gisella for 4 yrs so shld at least go and support, huh? bt i'm not gg alone.. i'm gg with him.. owells.. hopefully no one i know misunderstand us that nite.. haha.. bt that would also mean that i can't watch my lu guang and ge dou!! :( haiz.. bt for gissy, i'll sacrifice.. like woah!! wad a big sacrifice!! >.< haha.. so yup, overall, i'm gg.. had a chinese compo test cum competition yesterdae.. ms teh returned us our papers - unmarked - cause it was badly done and she read mine out in class again.. foreva.. and wad did she say? an essay that was at least correctly written.. i didn't have much confidence in that essay cause it was btw me and IT.. so yah.. oh, IT and him is 2 diff. persons.. so yah.. haiz.. hopefully i do well for this compo test cum competition.. yikes!! there's a maths test tmr.. better go and do some review on it b4 mum comes home and sees me on the com.. haha...

WHEE!! feeling a bit high now.. just went to the new j-star website.. it's super nice!! and 56 now got their own personal blog!! of course, other j-star members too.. that's great.. then can go and see how they are doing.. esp. xiezhi.. he's so cute in his post.. and ok, i'm a bit slow.. the new website was established at the beginning of this month.. haha.. bt nvm.. he finally got his own blog.. so does shaowei and mengzhe.. zhi's leaving at the end of this month (that's wad he said) to the mainland for a new show.. think will miss him lotsa.. hopefully wan yu hold a farewell party for him afterall, he alwaes come and dai ban wan yu if shaowei or mengzhe cannot make it and also he update his blog often though he isn't very good at it.. haha.. anywae, school's beginning tmr.. drats.. this means that lesser time will have to be spent on the tv and of course, the computer.. i dun think i'll come online during weekdays unless it's really necessary.. and of course, i'm gonna miss reading j-star blogs regularly.. haha.. owells.. anywae, off to read more artistes blogs!! haha..