2nd last presentation tmr.. HR!! after that, i'm only left with jap.. and coming to think about CDS, i most likely will be skipping the last lesson of jap, which is the week after my Jap presentation.. and i'm not the only one.. sherlyn too and i think eventually, xiao min will also get influenced by us and skip too.. haha.. as for public speaking, hmm.. should i go next week?? i skipped once so actually i wasn't intending to skip again.. owells, shall support shaun's ex-classmates next week bah.. and i may get back my assessment 3 marks during the last lesson so.. haha.. afterall, i enjoyed public speaking.. was more fun than what i expected.. =)

anyway, i casually talked to him today outside library.. maybe he felt that xiao min they all were familiar so he turned his head and saw me.. ok, and yes, i know there wasn't any meaning to it.. but after seeing him and talking to him, i suddenly had unexpected thoughts.. i felt it was very long since i last talked to him although we alwaes see each other in class.. and i felt that maybe he never left my mind.. at the most, was just moved to a corner in my heart that was unnoticeable.. a strange feeling was back.. but it wasn't the feeling i was so familiar with.. it wasn't that i-want-to-talk-to-you-somemore kind of feeling.. it's a feeling that i'm not sure how to describe.. owells.. shall let nature take its course.. :)
edits: done with episode 3!! next up, episode 4.. should i go get the VCD instead?? lol..

就算多舍不得, 还是要放手... ...

i'm feeling pain.. my throat's hurting... went to the doctor today.. got medication to make my throat less sore and less pain.. should have gotten MC for tmr.. then at least i can choose not to go for finance and jap.. =.= public speaking no choice cause i may be presenting my persuasive speech tmr.. but i dun mind public speaking so yah.. in fact, i somehow like my public speaking class.. haha.. and i so hope my throat gets better.. i was just rehearsing my script for tmr just in case and within 2 mins, my throat felt pain.. gosh, i have no idea how i am going to present if my throat doesn't get any better.. ok, i'd better not talk and let my throat rest..

i'm slowly watching 溏心風暴之家好月圓online.. haha.. at episode 2 alr.. i think i'm getting so addicted to it.. but because HK just started showing, so i guess i'll be catching one episode a day only.. but gosh, he looks soooo shuai!!!! =) and i think i'm suffering from post-溏心風暴syndrome.. haha.. but nevertheless, i found his new song.. and am able to catch the sequel online.. hopefully, the other episodes get uploaded daily.. haha.. =) wish me all the best peeps..

sherlyn: hey girl!! thanks for your concern.. was lazy to reply back to your sms but dun worry, i'll take care.. afterall, this is not the time to fall sick.. =)

after a week or so since those ill ones at home recovered, there has been reported another sick patient at home and one coming down with illness.. haha.. yes, that's me.. my throat's starting to hurt especially when swallowing saliva.. it hurts a lot.. and my head's a little heavy.. gosh, this is soo not the right time to fall sick.. just before exams and when my presentations and stuff are due.. hell..

anyway, i saw the first episode of HOG2.. haha.. not too bad.. quite ok.. but the dubbing seems fake for lin feng and linda.. haha.. but nevertheless, whee!! they're acting as lovers again.. =)) haha.. tmr's wednesday = free day.. stay home day.. dun think i'll be going out tmr unless any schools call me.. haha.. i need to prepare my public speaking speech anyway.. lol.. ok, back to getting DJ translate my song for me.. found a new song of his!! =))

the movie's been postponed to next week whr i do hope everyone can make it.. otherwise it won't be fair.. and i don't want to get anyone upset cause apparently, DJ got a little upset when we went to drink bb tea last tues and didn't ask her.. so yah.. PLS PEOPLE, KEEP NEXT TUES FREE!!! hopefully we'll get ot enjoy ourselves before we all get busy with the exam preparation..

btw, was supposed to meet sherlyn and xiao min for the movie.. but i was being lazy and my tummy was aching.. dunno is it because my monthly fren is coming soon or really stomachache.. went to the toilet even before i was fully awake and cause of that, i woke up.. but haha, it was time for me to wake up anyway.. and i realised monday is not a good day to ask me out.. really.. with saturday home to rest after a week of school and sunday in church, monday just leaves me no energy and yes, this means to stay home and get energised again.. haha.. but i think it's also partly cause of my timetable.. monday = free day = stay home and slack... lol.. this week onwards, wednesday = free day too.. and i guess wednesday i won't be that tired.. wait till i hit thursday.. that's how i wish friday was rather a free day.. lol.. and another thing, when i so wish to go in and teach and when i'm finally free, the schools just don't call.. hopefully i'll hear my phone ring on wednesday.. =) good day peeps..

long day today.. was in church frm morning till this evening.. helping pat with the P3 workshop for the saturday classes.. next one would be in a month's time and that would be for the sunday classes.. lol.. fun but was tiring.. and i still have finance tutorial to complete.. nvm, since there's no school tmr, i can afford to sleep late tonite.. haha...

talking about school, i think i'm gonna make people yell at me.. why? cause from a 4-day sch week, it's down to tues, thurs and fri.. haha.. 3-day week.. lol.. tues i still have that 3 hours break in btw tutorial and MBS lecture.. still considering whether i should sit and watch the guys play basketball during the break or should i come home and rest? since i'll be going out for movie after lecture and lesson start at 9 on tues.. haiz.. shall see how i guess.. most prob bring my things.. just in case, i'm too lazy and decide not to go home and slack in school with them.. lol.. =)

2 more days to tuesday... looking forward to my movie date with them... :)

one month from now, i'll be watching another show by raymond!! haha... lol.. rest one month before watching him again.. haha.. but cause this show got shermaine sheh, i may or may not watch cause i don't like her.. so owells.. lol.. piano tmr.. considering whether i should take grade 5 exam.. hmm.. shall see how again.. time is not on my side.. lol.. ok, back to games.. =)

YIPEE!!! HR project is finally over!! no more going to sch early to discuss projects (or rather, for the rest of this sem...) mondays and wednesdays are free days for me.. to slack and hopefully earn that $65/day.. heaves of reliefs are heard from me since 2pm.. haha.. glad that we managed to complete the proj and hopefully we hit our target of B+ this time round.. =) it's time for me to slack and relax a little before i start to chiong for exams again.. lol.. so i'm gonna have fun, rest and with 100% energy, mug like nobody's business for the final exams.. and pls, it's not as if i did very well for mid-sem and because i didn't, that's why i wanna give my full shot at this.. i can't afford to fail any subjects and kena retain.. i don't want and i don't wish to..

to sherlyn: dearie, cheer up!! the going may be tough but you know wad? i'll be there to support my fren!! if she falls, i'll pick her up.. if you are on a verge of a nervous breakdown, i'll bring you out to have fun, to relax before carrying on with work.. but no matter what you do, just remember this: EVEN IF ALL YOUR OTHER FRENS LEAVE YOU ONE DAY, YOUR THIS DEAR FREN HERE WILL STILL STAND BY YOU.. and i believe i'm not the only one.. i'm sure xiao min, yee sin and DJ will do the same.. cheer up!! =)

I'm starting to feel tired alr.. maybe i should sleep early tonite since there's no show on tv.. lol.. anyway, today was high day with the girls!! haha.. just so love my thursdays with them!! looking forward to the movie on tuesday after sch.. hopefully MBS end early then me and xiao min can go and look for yee sin and talk crap.. haha..

finance tutorial this morning.. as usual, we ended late.. and i got back my class test.. sucks to the core, man the results.. but at least i managed to just passed and not fail.. looks like i've got to work real hard for the main exam and i'm going to try to get the girls to study with me.. i'm sure they'll be willing, rite?? haha... lecture ended late as well.. jap listening test was ok.. i tot i screwed the paper but after class, when i compared answers with xiao min and sherlyn, haha, i actually got most answers correct.. was happy but who knows if they're really correct? lol... shall wait for the results next wk and i've got plans of skipping jap.. but maybe i shall be a good girl and go.. but then again, time always seem to pass so slow for jap tutorials.. public speaking was not too bad.. rehearsed for next week but maybe cause i didn't really practise and was nervous, i kept looking at my script.. ok, after HR is over, it's time to familiarise myself with my persuasive speech.. lol..

went for a dinner break after public speaking with xiao min and yee sin.. haha.. cause i had the cravings for french fries and dear yee sin smsed me during public speaking tutorial saying she got craving for dessert.. so when i met up with xiao min, we decided to go and grab a bite.. and we succeeded in psycho-ing yee sin not to go for french lecture.. haha.. after that, we walked to take bus 22 together.. enjoyed their company today!! tx girls!! =) ok, shall end off here.. tmr's the last project meeting for HR (hopefully).. handing in the project tmr as well.. just hoping that we can hand it in by 4pm so that i can come home and do my piano theory.. hmm.. or maybe i should get it done now.. lol... nitez peeps!! =)

2 more hours to friday... 18 hours to the end of HR project... =)

i think i've got too many things on my mind.. HR project, jap tests, public speaking etc... all these may be the cause of my sleepless nights again.. i so hate it.. i'm tired physically yet my mind is still super alert and active.. thus i can't fall asleep and even if i do, i wake up every few hours.. haiz.. this isn't working again.. even honey doesn't help.. but the surprising thing is that although i'm having sleepless nights again this week, yet the next day in school, i'm still quite energetic although i feel tired.. gosh, this is sooo bad.. now you know why i can't wait for this week to be over.. at least by then, i won't suffer from sleepless nights (hopefully...) owells.. ok, i think i'm off to watch tv soon.. at least give my poor brain a break... nights people.. =)

back to everyday blogging.. lol.. HR report - more or less done!! =) let's hope teacher says it's ok.. i want to hear good news tmr, boss!! haha.. i'm hanging in there for one more day!! after friday, all major projects are over!! with the exception of japanese but that's nothing.. lol.. friday faster come so that my projects are over and done with!! =)

tmr finance lect!! yeah!! the girls are missed sia.. haha.. time to go hyper.. and i'll be bringing biscuits to eat tmr during tutorial so that i dun get too hungry.. haha.. and i think very high chances that i'll be high tmr and omg!! class test results!! shucks.. hope i don't fail.. that's all i'm asking for.. :S there's jap listening test tmr as well.. don't know how to study sia.. listening man.. think i most prob give up studying jap.. lol.. and i hope jap pass quickly tmr.. i'd rather have public speaking than jap.. haha.. cause public speaking more slack.. (opps..) haha.. owells.. haha... ok, i'm off to watch tv again and hopefully study jap.. lol..

2 more days to friday... =)

feeling refreshed now after a shower.. got back home not too long ago after a small bonding with xiao min and kelly.. haha.. played arcade again at CS.. =) this morning had MBS presentation.. our group was the first to present and seriously speaking, if you ask me, i think we did pretty well!! not that bad or rather, better than what i expected.. haha.. came home after MBS to change cause was going to have bb tea with xiao min after lect.. but at 12.30, i received a surprised sms frm her.. tat girl ended her project discussion early and asked me to go school earlier to accompany her.. so after much deliberation, i said i wld go if we go opposite school for bb tea.. and so our bb tea plan got pushed earlier and jean and sherlyn joined us but only me and xiao min had bb tea.. lol.. sherlyn and my bb tea.. always mei yuan.. haha.. she'll know what i mean.. =) after that was lecture and yes, the unplanned outing.. haha...

during lecture today, i was thinking abt some things and obviously, i wasn't paying attention which i never do.. lol.. he made me think of some things.. it's quite surprising how we hardly hang out tgt last year.. and after what happened, i felt our friendship seemed to take a rank higher.. i understood how he feels and he understands mine.. but we're just frens.. and i really do cherish this friendship.. i mean, we were awkward but we eased that awkwardness.. and now, he actually took the initiative to sms me smth quite lame and somehow such msgs, be it from him or from my other dear frens, alwaes manage to put a smile on my face.. to me, he's a friend which is for life.. year 1 frens may know who i'm referring to.. =)

and while my friendship with him has moved a rank higher, my friendship with this other fren seemed to have distant.. i've put things behind me and moved on.. but somehow, things btw me and this fren will never be the same again.. i'll never be able to chat on the phone for close to an hour with this fren.. i'll never be able to share personal stuff abt guys with this fren.. the only things i can talk abt now is projects, which i think is quite saddening.. i believe the both of us have tried to make this friendship work like before but we may not have realised that it's not turning out the way it was like before.. yes, we still joke and have fun tgt but this is different.. different from before.. but nevertheless, this fren is also a fren i will cherish cause i hope that this fren will be a true fren whom i will keep in contact with, even after poly.. again, some frens may know who i'm referring to.. owells.. shan't brood over it.. looking forward to happy happenings in my life and the people who alwaes can put a smile on my face.. =)

money is really never enough for girls.. lol.. i've got things to buy sia but no money.. haiz.. i need to my foolscape paper so that i can do my tutorials.. which means i need to go to TM's popular.. cause it's cheaper to buy in bullk?? haha.. and i've got things to do yet i'm lazy to get started.. for e.g my MBS presentation script for tmr.. it's sitting there, looking at me, waiting for me to pick up my pen, wake my brain up and get started.. haiz.. this is really so sian. but one good thing is exam timetable is out!! ok, not a good thing but at least the day after my birthday there's no paper.. so i can still help pat out in church with an easy heart and spent the 25th mugging away at home.. haha.. and i'm on holiday frm 28th aug, 11.30am onwards!! seems that someone wants to go k box as heard frm kai hui.. owells.. shall see how bah.. exams first.. but before exams, projects and grp presentations faster get it over and done with.. lol.. haiz.. i'm wanting to go in and do relief teaching again.. i hope next week the school do call me to work.. haha.. ok, off to talk to tracy.. btw, i may be coming home after MBS tutorial tmr since the girls have got projects to do.. lol.. another update maybe tonite.. =)

starry starry night
paint your palette blue and grey
look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the darkness in my soul

just felt like listening to 'Vincent' tonite.. this song was playing in my head during dinner and i started to think about the show.. but seriously, i think it's because of 'Heart of Greed' thats why i've found quite a number of nice songs.. be it cantonese or english.. lol.. and seriously speaking, this song isn't that bad too... haha... starry starry night.. lol.. =)

anyway, tmr meeting for mbs presentation.. yong sing say it shouldn't be more than an hour.. so hopefully tmr will be quick.. lol.. may meet xiao min after that for a while bah.. gosh, at this point in time, i'm getting freaked out.. help!!!

just felt like blogging.. and i think some people will start worrying when i type what i am about to type.. don't ask me why but i'm feeling emo tonite.. no, it has nth do with sch or relationships with friends.. neither has it got anything to do with family.. just feeling emo after dinner.. suddenly had the urge to see the HK actor i'm crazy over.. but then again, didn't feel like after that.. gosh, wad's wrong with me? someone, faster cheer me up... =(

monday's the episode he died in a car accident.. i think i may tear a little cause there's no happy ending for him and the girl he loved.. hopefully in part 2, you qing ren zhong cheng juan shu.. that they'll have a happy ending.. lol.. owells.. maybe i'm watching too much of him.. lol..

anyway, tmr's sunday.. seeing the naughty yet adorable kids.. churched till afternoon before going for lunch(at i dunno whr..) before coming home.. hopefully we'll pack lunch home then i can watch show.. lol.. afterall, i didn't watch any of the afternoon repeats this wk other than friday.. considered quite good alr.. so yah.. and next sunday, hopefully i'll be able to catch that one or two episodes of him during the repeat.. haiz.. tired and emo tonite.. wad's wrong with me? ok, off to do maybe some serious business...

yeah!!! MBS proj is over!! yong sing handed in today already!! happy happy.. haha.. MBS was driving me stressed the last few days.. haha.. next up is HR but i think we should be doing fine for HR.. =) last few days = tired.. every evening, back frm school and is in front of the laptop for 1-2 hrs doing projects.. sian.. but next week is another chiong week cause of HR but never mind, after next week, we're free!!!! =)

anyway, i was supposed to sing the canto duet for jacelyn and the girls yesterdae but in the end, i didn't.. so i recorded on my phone and transferred it to my laptop.. sent to xiao min last night to hear and she said it didn't sound like me.. haha!!! does that mean i'm pro?? lol.. and she also said that it wasn't that bad taking into consideration, i dun speak cantonese.. lol.. but the song is sooo nice!! sometimes in the morning when i wake up, the song is already playing in my head.. haha.. but the real verdict will be from jacelyn since she's the expert mah.. lol.. ok, since i've got nothing to do, maybe i'll do the formatting for HR again.. lol.. lunch tmr with relatives.. hopefully i can meet the guys for movie after tat.. shall give them a call after lunch and see how.. =)

to sum my day up, it's been tiring.. i'm freaking tired!! super duper tired!!! was in sch till 6 plus to do MBS project.. and it wasn't even completed.. cause we girls were figuring some things out.. kai hui, kelly: so sorry tmr i can't help you all with the project.. cause i only have an hr break tmr.. really sorry.. but i guess you all can understand.. =) ok, i dun wanna blog already.. i'm just tired tired tired tired tired... off to watch show and relax for the rest of the night.. from now till end of next wk, i'll be damn damn damn tired and stressed.. and yes, that was wad i told xiao min.. :S

currently in school for project work.. but project is at 1 so slacking with kai hui's group.. haha.. gotta meet sherlyn later to get the HR books back from her... lol.. was supposed to meet xiao min and get our laptop skin done but!!! we were so disappointed cause the stall wasn't there alr.. sad sad.. cause i really intended to get the pooh bear skin.. it was so cute lah!! haiz.. disappointed.. =( lol.. and that girl smsed me to meet earlier last night but she was late today!! xiao min, xiao min.. 2nd disappointment sia.. lol.. ok, shall blog again tonite bah since kai hui's grp is gg to start on their project soon.. =)

back home abt an hr ago.. haha.. had lots of fun and laughter with sherlyn and xiao min!! me and xiao min left mbs lect early cause there was no more copying and we didn't want to waste time.. so we left halfway and went to redspot.. and pls, dun scold me for leaving early.. i mean, mbs is very subjective and it's a subject u can actually study on your own.. so yah, we went to redspot and photocopied some HR stuff there while waiting for sherlyn to end class.. after that, we were 'arguing' on wad bus to take and whether to walk or not from pasir ris interchange to ehub.. after much 'argument', we took a bus cause it started to rain.. haha... had fun laughing and nice chats with them.. at ehub, we were debating on whether the two should go for french lect.. in conclusion, they didn't and we arrived quite late at ehub.. and sherlyn, got affected by my highness, said that luckily they not planning to go for french if not when the waffle come, they would have to eat very fast and she did the gobble action that made me and xiao min burst out laughing.. it was damn damn damn funny.. hahahahaha.... so yup, had ice-cream at gelare until we were all soooo full.. after gelare, we went to the arcade to play basketball and datona.. haha.. i won them at basketball with points of 116 and they say i very pro.. whr got?? ok lah.. lol.. played and laughed till 6 before i came back with xiao min.. lol.. and surprisingly, today's journey home seemed quite fast.. well, good times always pass fast..

tmr meeting xiao min at 10 to get our laptop skin and do her laptop connection and get mine fixed.. dun understand why i can't connect to the internet in school.. argh!! so yup, followed by lunch with kai hui, project at 1, apel at 4 and the (most hated) MBS project.. yucks yucks yucks.. seriously, me and kai hui are getting a little pissed over MBS.. she and kelly will know why.. lol.. have no idea what time MBS project will end but i'll leave at 6.30 bah? afterall, next day is a long day and i wanna come home and rest.. and i think the girls will agree with me..

lastly, had lunch with the guys and the girls at airport today.. had popeye.. haha.. not too bad lah but i still prefer KFC.. lol.. and if i was right, he said something which made me think.. and i told xiao min and sherlyn that i dunno if i should be upset or disappointed if what he said was true.. i mean, ok, i didn't exactly hear what he said but i heard Ben's reply.. owells.. shan't bother too much about it.. and with regards to BGR, sherlyn asked me this qn: between being attached and being single, what would i choose? my answer to her then was i would choose both bah, as in both got pros and cons.. but now, sherlyn, my answer to your question: i guess for now, i would choose to be single.. free and easy, dun wanna bother about such things now.. afterall, studies come first but hey, this doesn't mean that i can't like anyone, yeah? lol.. =)

whee!! gelare treat after school today with the girls.. =) think i'll be again too full to have dinner.. lol.. but this also means that no repeat of show today... but it's ok.. haha.. bonding with the girls.. lol.. in school now.. will update again tonite on the gelare treat.. =)

i'm angry!! cause although i managed to find the piano scores for 爱在记忆中找你, but i can only print out the 1st page.. if that's the case, wad's the point? argh!!! so i give up finding and yes, i'm not going to learn le.. cause it's so incomplete.. but the song is still playing on my laptop.. haha.. =) and gosh, the song is damn damn damn nice!! together with 心领.. my laptop's playing these 2 songs these few days.. just not enough of his shows and his songs.. haha.. *loved*

i'm still comtemplating on whether i shld go to sentosa tmr.. honestly speaking, i'm lazy to travel all the way down to harbourfront.. ok, maybe it's because of the repeat.. but haiz, i just don't feel like gg anywhere tmr and just stay home and rot.. i mean, get back my energy for another busy week? ok, maybe not that busy as compared to last week.. but, haiz.. lazy.. and i guess the others are gg to say i pangseh them if i don't go at which, it's true.. haha.. argh... just irritated and can't make up my mind.. shall ask for advice frm angeline.. haha.. ok, i shall go call her now.. maybe update somemore later.. lol.. till then.. =)

do you wish i go???

after reading sherlyn's blog (again), i think i'd better buck up for my finance sia.. why do i say this? cause i didn't do that well for mid-sem test and now, i screwed my class test.. haiz.. finance finance.. i'd better work harder for exams since it's a higher weightage.. no more playing a fool.. i wanna maintain or get a better GPA.. jia you bah!! =)

on a lighter note, i can never get enough of him!! haha.. have been watching his videos since this afternoon till now.. and mind you, the videos are repeated videos!! haha.. that's why i say i can never get enough of him.. and for this past week, i managed to come home and watch the 4pm repeat.. but this week? not likely to.. cause monday most prob sentosa with the gang.. haven quite decided cause i have yet to touch my tutorials.. and i think if i change my mind last min, they're gonna come after me.. haha.. and my throat isn't that well either.. tues is gelare day with sherlyn and xiao min after school so no show.. there's apel on wed at 4 and before that, project meeting so no show either.. thurs have lessons, fri maybe.. will have to see how.. haiz.. no repeat shows this week then.. =( but never mind, studies come first.. lol.. listening to the songs just make me smile le.. haha..

and yes, my throat isn't doing very well this past week.. have been coughing at home and frequently in school.. haiz.. i think my immune system is starting to collapse again.. pls don't.. not at this time.. anyway, church tmr.. gotta wake up early to face those young ones.. after that, no repeat show again cause gotta be back in church at 2 to do the p2 project.. sian.. suddenly dun feel like going.. haha.. just wanna stay home and watch show and do my tutorials.. quite a number of things to get done this week.. haiz.. sian.. and i shall end off saying, i wish july can faster pass.. at least the projects are over.. :S

going to watch videos again.. lol.. afterall, tests have been over.. what can i say? hmm.. jap class test 1.. not too bad.. shld be able to do well.. finance test today? screwed... mcq maybe not too bad.. but for the short essay? haiz.. disappointment.. my answers didn't seem right.. seriously.. but me, da jie and sherlyn got the same answers, according to xiao min.. but da jie say her answers are wrong.. so most prob my answers are wrong too but there's still working marks.. in conclusion, everyone agreed that the paper was difficult, not an easy paper this time round even though only 2 chapters were tested.. and sherlyn was saying that next sem will be worse cause it's even more in detailed and more difficult.. gosh, i just hope i really didn't make the wrong choice.. but owells, the tests are over.. and btw, i was the first to leave from my class today and ben said i left early.. was i very early? haha..

this week left me super tired.. slept early the last few days.. was super tired.. the moment my head touched my pillow, i fell asleep even before my music finished playing.. haha.. but this week really was a tiring week for me.. ok, i'm off to watch my videos.. haha.. =) enjoy your weekend peeps!! =) another update maybe tonite.. haha..

decided to blog now than later.. at least maybe later i can do my peer teaching notes for HR.. lol.. anyway, i realised i was super slacked during the weekends despite having 2 tests this week.. i was watching videos on youtube.. and what was i watching? 'Heart of Greed'.. lol.. super nice show cause got raymond lam.. but sadly, he died in the show and i cried a little... cause the girl already forgave him but he didn't know.. so as a result, they never ended up together.. sad sad.. lol.. and i didn't just watch 1 episode or so.. i watched 13 episodes!! 13!! can u believe it? haha.. and so, i didn't study finance or jap.. how clever, rite? =.=.. only started on jap last night.. as for finance? gosh, i think i may screw that test again.. really have to start on my finance after tmr's jap test.. sian... anyway, just wanna share this song with you peeps: My love will get you home.. really nice song.. was searching it over the weekends but couldn't download.. in the end, some nice guy found it and sent to me.. was soo touched lah.. but, haha.. he's not exactly my type.. lol.. anyway, here's the song lyrics for you guys.. try looking for the song or you can come asking me for it:

if you wander off too far, my love will get you home
if you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home
if you ever find youself lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home..

if the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home
if your troubles break your strike, my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home..

if you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home
when there's only you to blame, my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home..

if you ever find yourself lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy
my love will get you home, boy,
my love will get you home..

it's a song from 'Heart of Greed'.. there's another cantonese song by raymond and linda.. haven been hearing it the last few days since i found the song and every day, the song's being played more than 10 times?? haha.. that's how nice it is lor.. so if any of you want to hear the song, just ask from me, yeah? ok, off to do serious business.. dun think will be blogging till after saturdae.. =)

after reading sherlyn's blog, i just have to say this: july's a busy busy busy month for me.. haha.. look at my schedule just for this week:

1. finance test (saturday)
2. jap class test 1 (thursday)
3. public speaking grp presentation discussion
4. public speaking grp presentation
5. group study for finance test
6. HR peer teaching notes
7. jap class test 2 (sometime later...)

and what are the projects or presentations to be due at the end of this month:

1. MBS proj - 21 july
2. HR proj - 25 july
3. public speaking persuasive speech - 31 july/7 aug
4. jap presentation 2 - 7 aug

this does not include my church stuff and project meetings and group outings with friends.. ahh!! just wish for july to faster be over.. but on the other hand, this would mean that exams are coming but at least i won't be bothered with projects projects and more projects.. and it would also mean that i'll be splitting class and although i may end up with some of the guys under HR and finance, i think i won't end up in the same class as him if our electives are confirmed different.. so haiz.. owells.. at the end of this post, i can only say, july's a busy month and i'll be thankful if i can get a breather in between.. =)

i bought a notebook randomly today.. after buying, i thought maybe i would use it as a diary.. on second thoughts now, hmm.. maybe not.. and i also thought of using it as my homework book where i do my tutorial in but after thinking again, not very practical leh cause what if friends want to borrow my tutorial answers? thus i have no idea what am i going to do with it now.. anyone has any idea or suggestions?? pls let me know..

i'm starting to day-dream again.. he's another cute guy.. haha... unknowingly, i've been watching quite a number of his shows since the start of year 2 till now.. ooooo.... haha.. btw, he's not taiwanese but a hong-konger.. haha... and one reason why i'm watching heart of greed is cause of him.. lol... ok, this is random...

she reminds me of ah yi.. especially from the side view.. i suddenly miss her voice and her presence.. ok, this is also random.. and i realised my hair colour this time round is more obvious than the last time.. and i love this colour lots!! haha.. ok, random.. gosh, i seem to be super random today.. and lastly, I miss my dearest sweetie.. she'll know who she is lah.. looking forward to our next meeting, ok?? haha.. randomness just overcame me today..

gosh, i'm back to do everyday posting.. haha.. anyway, school started at 9 today.. kelly was late as usual and me and kai hui saw her walking with shaun and ben towards business entrance.. and you know wad? despite staying nearby, she took a bus yet was still late.. me and kai hui were just so.. amused?? haha.. kelly oh kelly.. by now, i guess i've gotten used to waiting for her on tuesday and thursday mornings.. lol.. so finance tut was ok.. the girls were a bit high.. singing children songs? haha.. got back our finance paper too.. tried searching for an additional 1/2 mark but sad to say, no.. but haiz, it's ok.. i shall just work harder for the class test coming up next wk.. haha.. finance lecture after that.. sat with my 4 girls.. and we all were high with the exception of TYS aka tan yee sin aka ten years series.. haha.. sat in btw her and sherlyn so both made me super high with the drawings on my notes and the pulling of my hair.. lol.. and oh! told them i had 'ai xin nai cha' this morning.. haha.. to me, it was lah.. i wanted a hot drink cause the damn classroom was super cold and since the guys were going to get food, i asked him to get me a milk tea.. and he did! haha.. was 'touched'.. lol.. and i'll never forget yesterday's joke of the day!! lol.. so yah.. went to jup's cafe to have lunch and we chatted and ate and laughed.. i so miss those days about jacelyn saying 'the best!' etc.. they still make me laugh.. =) after lunch was jap tut and public speaking tut.. jap tut ended not very early today.. public speaking tut ended within 40 mins.. was supposed to crash french lecture with the gals but i was too bored and couldn't wait any longer so i left and came home, to practise piano.. haha.. sry girls!

anyway, pairing up with shaun to do public speaking speech on informative/persuasive speech.. he's doing informative while i'm doing persuasive.. i think persuasive is harder but nevertheless i'll try my best.. and maybe pairing up with him would make things btw us better.. =) anyway, most prob having lunch with the girls again tmr.. so loved having lunches with them now that we're all in different classes... they're being missed.. haha.. ok, some random stuff now.. while stoning outside xiao min's class just now, i just realised that hey! actually i've got an eye candy since last year but just that i never took much notice of.. haha.. mayb cause of something he said today tat struck a chord cause i've never spoken to him before and yet he knows my name.. haha.. ok, maybe cause someone told him, so not surprising.. but yah, i guess he's somehow my eye candy.. ok! note: it's just an eye candy.. that feeling is different from the feeling i have for him.. so yah.. pls hor! haha.. ok, i'm off.. mayb more random posts tonite.. =)

heehee... currently bored while waiting for my jap grp mates to come online.. so anyway, i was reflecting on some things this morning after the radio DJ played some songs on this particular boyband.. and yup.. a lot of memories sia.. i remembered how i would go crazy every time i saw them on tv and when i hear their songs on radio.. i remembered how i would cry to see them get hurt on variety shows.. i remembered how i was the entertainment reporter in class, updating dear caroline on the person we both liked, at that time.. all these were during secondary school time..

now, i'm not that crazy over them anymore but, i still support them in their careers.. i still support their CDs and even those idol dramas.. i guess like them, i've grown up and have matured some way or other especially after what happen 2 yrs back.. people do change over the years, for the better and maybe even for the worse.. for me, i think i changed for the better.. not that bad-tempered anymore and knowing how to cherish those around me.. emotions wise.. i guess i have yet to change.. still get upset and cry over those failed crushes etc.. but something surprising is that although i know that these crushes may never end up the way i want, yet i still give my all.. silly isn't it? but when i do get badly hurt by them, i give up and look ahead.. they say i seem flirty.. but to me? i see it as i am able to let it go easily.. cause holding onto it will not change anything.. and ok, i do take a long time to realise it cause before anyone hurt me badly, i still have the hope that things will change.. after what happened earlier this year, i thought that i won't like a guy again in year 2 but i was wrong.. history repeated itself and now? although i've given up but i still hope that certain things will change.. will like what was written on that piece of paper be true? 'what you keep to yourself you lose, what you give away, you keep forever.' is this what is happening to me now? i really don't know.. all i know that, for now, studies and my dearest friends come first.. so long as you're a friend of mine, you know where you stand.. =)

before i start writing what happened today, i cried a little for the first time after what happened over what a friend told me online and he was just being pure concerned.. tx guy! u know who u are.. =)

ok, for today.. for the first time, i skipped public speaking lecture and slept in till 10 am.. and i thought i was late for lunch cause was meeting the gang.. but no, i was early instead.. only met them at 12 and i was at TM at 11.10a.m.. so was just slacking around at macs.. haha.. so yup! lunched at seoul garden.. was only me, kai hui, amy, desheng and yong sing first.. but melvin, ben and shaun came later.. and before they came, something happened.. my shirt become an art piece.. haha.. reason being mr goh (desheng) was peeling prawns and it so happened that i was sitting next to him.. and the prawn he happened to be peeling was 'juicy' that it could splurt juice out.. so when he broke the head, the juice splurted out, went upwards and landed on my back.. thus, i got dirtied and my shirt became an art piece.. but what i found funny was, the peeler himself din get dirty while the person sitting beside him was dirty.. hahaha.. but yah, i dun blame him cause i guess he din expect it as well.. so hopefully the stain can come out.. if not, forget it.. the shirt can be worn at home.. haha.. and just in case mr goh is reading, haha, no i don't blame you.. not your fault anyway.. =) so yah, after that the rest of the guys came and amy left to meet her fren.. so we carried on eating till 3pm before heading back to sch.. and we played zhong ji mi ma.. and gosh, the forfeit was gross.. imagine mashed tofu + ice cream + eggs + nuts + a little bit of lime juice.. how gross could it get?? and i got forfeited once while some had 1 and others had 2 as well.. we were all just so disgusted.. haha.. had fun over lunch.. really smiled and laughed from my heart after last week.. so we were back in sch for apel which as usual, boring.. anyway, tonite will be giving ben finance notes if he needs it.. and will be discussing jap online with jap group members.. sian but nvm.. just for a few weeks.. =) ok, i'm off..

p.s: to my dear frens, does this post seem more 'marianne' now?? =)

hmm.. yes.. just got back home not too long ago.. but will be going out again shortly.. off to grandparents' place for dinner.. lol..the earlier post for today was typed during lesson this morning... and the teacher changed my mood from a sad face to a happy one!! she short-count me marks for my paper.. and thus it obviously pulled my grades up and yes, i was surprised that MBS, being my least confident paper, got the highest grade among my 3 papers.. haha.. close friends will know how much i got.. =) but nevertheless, MBS somehow made my day.. now i'm just hoping i can claim some marks for my finance paper to pull it up somemore.. lol..

went to mensa 2 for lunch with the gang as usual.. was supposed to meet angeline but in the end, cause the grp was off to do project, i didn't meet her.. sry girl!! i owe you one.. =) did proj till close to 1 pm before slacking with the gang at safra as i watched them play pool, while i killed time while waiting for dear xiao min.. haha.. left at 3 pm and slowly walked back to school.. met up with xiao min and we headed to ehub for gelare ice cream!! and yup, you guessed it! i went totally 'mad' with her the moment i saw her and the both of us got high.. haha.. of course i started off with the complaints first.. lol... walked around ehub and played at the arcade before taking the bus home.. had so much fun with her.. the girls just simply know how to put a smile on my face!! so loved them lots.. and yes, more than what you can expect..

to the girls, yes, we do have our fair bit of quarrels last year but i guess it's because of these quarrels we had that we became closer.. and pls, we all can settle things properly, compromising each other and both sides saying sorry.. and of course, that's how we're better and closer frens than before.. and i treasure this group more than anything, other than my sec school ladies and my family! so in my heart, no one can actually replace them, not even him cause he's 2nd while they're 1st.. lol.. to them, i just have to say this: thanks girls for being there for me.. if it wasn't for you peeps, i won't know how to have overcome the problems i faced recently.. and you have my word.. i won't bother anymore and yup, try to live my life happily everyday!! i love you girls lots and you girls know it.. =) ok, end of post, off to grandparents' place..

some posts have been deleted due to some reasons so yah, anyway, let's not brood over it.. i promised frens that i would move on and that July is a new month for me.. so yup.. ok, in school now for MBS.. bored and feel like sleeping.. slept at 12 plus last night after a talk on the phone with angeline.. but ok, it's not her fault that i slept at 12 plus.. as a result, only 7 hours of sleep.. owells, k.. i'd better get back to listening to the teacher.. more updates tonite.. =) have a nice day peeps!!