the tears have somehow stopped. but i'm still feeling scared, uneasy, insecure and stressed. scared, uneasy and insecure by the various things taking place and stressed by the online lecture notes and stuff. but all in all, i'm still slowly adapting. i still need time. everyday when i go to school, smses will be sent to my sisters and my mum. so i guess i still can sae, i'm still not exactly looking forward to school. but den again, school so far has been more or less quite interesting. ok, yes, i'm contradicting myself. hopefully tmr will be ok esp. when mum leaves home to go to school. after this week, i'm just hoping mum dun go to school on wed then i'll be fine. then again, mum has to be in school early on thurs and fri so chances is, she'll leave the hse earlier than me, leaving me to lock up or we leave the same time. of course, i'm hoping to leave the same time then i wun think too much. i mean, everytime for these few days, each time i'm alone at home, i tend to think too much. so just hoping that after a few more weeks, things will just get better for me. owells...