i've been crying over the last few days. as a result, my eyes are all a little red and swollen. reason being, poly has started. i'm so scared. although this week only has lectures, but it still scares me. i'm so scared i can't cope with tutorials and with project and group work. i'm so scared i can't fit in. i'm so scared of everything. i'm trying my best to not cry everyday and at least look forward to school. but wad's happening is however the opposite. i cry everyday and instead of looking forward to school, i'm looking forward to lessons ending and being able to go home. hopefully with time, this will all be the opposites. today so happen to be my one and only free day for this week. no lab class. ever since my aunt left us, i've been closer to my family members. as a result, i'm being homesick each time i go to school. tmr's thursdae. lesson in the morning till afternoon 2 pm with an hr break in btw so mayb it wun be too bad except when i'm gg to sch. but i can't say about fri. when i come home and shower after my 1st lesson during the 3 hr break, my mum leaves the hse and i'm left alone at home again till 1 plus. and then i'm back at school. haiz.. this is just scaring me and giving me a lot of stress. hopefully things get better.