my stupid computer's lagging again.. all thx to my sister who installed some stupid programme, making the computer lagging.. argh.. anywae, as i was reading somebody else's blog, i also had wished the same thing as he wished before.. i had wished that everything that happened during late dec was all but a nightmare.. i had even dreamt that wad was told to me wasn't true but a nightmare.. but i guess i had already faced reality.. it is all reality but not a nightmare.. nothing beats more painful than losing a loved one.. that, i guess, would also mean that the pain of a break-up or a rejection is nothing as compared to facing a loved one being lifeless.. but i know all this is just a parcel of life.. and i'm still getting used to such a life especially when it comes to sunday(even though i dun show it on my face).. i was helping my mum tape some containers just now and i suddenly thought of how different my life is now and in the past.. i guess it makes not much of a difference to others, but it does make a difference to my family, even if it's not a big difference.. well, but life continues for this is reality.. i mean, we can't continue to deceive ourselves and live in a world of lies so i guess we all have to awake and return to reality.. well, that is it for me.. owells, although this nightmare has sort of ended, but our lives have all been changed by this nightmare but she'll continue to live in our hearts..

* i dun wish for 9th feb to come at all..