right, here's another post.. decided to blog despite being tired from a day of excitement to me..
headed out in the morning with mum and cousin, gabi, but i went to the bank to run some errands before meeting mum at bedok interchange.. went to buono vista, MOE, for my home econs teaching scheme interview.. was quite nervous and i think i sort of just screwed it up with my answers although tracy din think so.. well, hope everything goes well... will still have to make a final choice next week when i get my JAE posting and my interview results.. hopefully i'll make the right choice with His guidance.. after that, went to orchard to collect grandpa's medicine and fixed his watch although it was a wasted trip to seiko.. mum decided to get grandpa a new watch with contributions from her 4 daughters as a birthday gift for grandpa.. after that, we headed down to taka for lunch and did a bit of window shopping and buying since there was the post-CNY sale at S&K... so i joyfully and happily got myself a pair of jeans, a skirt and a shirt.. got angel a nice blouse which i tot was indeed quite nice and very angel(if you know wad i mean).. haha.. made mum spent a bomb today i guess! lunch was on her plus the clothings.. so obviously she spent close to a hundred today.. heehee.. after that, we came back home.. was rather tired after my shower so watched my vcd after talking to tracy.. was a bit "grouchy" with the phone calls and me having to answer them esp. when i'm so dead tired.. but i shan't blame the callers.. haha.. owells.. guess that's about it for today.. will blog again some other time.. haha... i truly enjoyed myself today cause it was a day with my dear mummy!! (and i hardly get to go out with her alone...) haha..

did some changes to my blog.. hopefully you who are reading this like it.. i tot it was rather plain and simple.. quite nice.. haha.. owells.. just realised that it takes time to ease a pain inflicted in your heart.. each time i enter my parents' room or walk past the altar in my house, memories float back.. the last few sentences that were exchanged on the phone.. the smiles and laughter i will miss forever.. i guess it really takes time and sometimes, i just hate myself for not being able to let go totally and completely and still dwell on the past.. i think some of you must be wondering why i'm such a nuisance, why i'm still dwelling on the past and why i am still mentioning these things on my blog but i just feel that i need a place to write it down, for friends to offer some words and stuff dat kind of thing.. and i believe that you as my friend, as you're reading this, i think you'll try to help me get past this 1st year without her around.. it's not easy.. imagine last year at this time, still here with us.. and now, no longer around.. you may be irritated with me for writing such stuff every now and den but i truly hope you will understand.. if you've never experience wad i'm experiencing, it's hard for you to understand.. but to all who have yet to experience yet can understand how i'm feeling, thanks for your kind understanding.. you've been great and i really appreciate your support for me.. willing to listen to wadeva i have to sae.. thanks! if i find it hard to adapt, they're finding it harder i guess.. but i know i've great frens like you, to help me out and talk to me.. thanks for all that!!
p.s today's the 22nd again.. 2 mths since she left us all... and i miss her lots..

here's a late night post.. haha.. things been rather tired for me this past week.. was working at a neighbourhood school doing sorting out of mcs and filing.. basically, it was more or less admin work but i just din touch the computer.. -.- my mum's fren, whose the vice-principal there, asked me to go in and continue working for abt a week or so and complete another 2 boxes of mcs.. in total, there were 3 boxes and i completed one box in 3 and a half days which wasn't an easy job.. just the sorting out took abt 2 and a half days.. currently considering if i should continue doing for another week or so and earn more money but have told my mum at the moment that i dun want to continue.. mayb it was because of my mum that's why i took up the job.. so guess will have to reconsider my decision since i doubt my mum will be there.. but i have to sae, my temp colleagues were quite nice and friendly so i quite enjoyed the atmosphere and the feeling of working there. haha. anywae, tmr's CNY's eve! will be going down to the grandparents' place for reunion dinner.. hopefully i get to watch my ch u cause got 56!! haha.. a bit too realistic.. CNY this year will never be the same from now on as before.. certain things have changed cause certain ppl whom we want them to be present is no longer around.. so i guess this year, most of the time will be spent at home other than visiting at my grandparents' place and one or two close relatives.. otherwise, i'll be at home.. if you wanna come visiting, do give me a call.. and it'll only be on tuesdae.. haha.. guess there'll still be visiting the 1st 2 days but not that many.. i guess those who read my blog will know why CNY will never be the same for me and my family.. ok... i shall cut the sad moments and end off my post.. haha.. till some time later.. bye bye..
P.S: i nv mention my o level results cause i think it's not worth mentioning when my other frens did better than me and deserve more praises than me.. and i dun wish to have comparisons and comments made about my results..

my stupid computer's lagging again.. all thx to my sister who installed some stupid programme, making the computer lagging.. argh.. anywae, as i was reading somebody else's blog, i also had wished the same thing as he wished before.. i had wished that everything that happened during late dec was all but a nightmare.. i had even dreamt that wad was told to me wasn't true but a nightmare.. but i guess i had already faced reality.. it is all reality but not a nightmare.. nothing beats more painful than losing a loved one.. that, i guess, would also mean that the pain of a break-up or a rejection is nothing as compared to facing a loved one being lifeless.. but i know all this is just a parcel of life.. and i'm still getting used to such a life especially when it comes to sunday(even though i dun show it on my face).. i was helping my mum tape some containers just now and i suddenly thought of how different my life is now and in the past.. i guess it makes not much of a difference to others, but it does make a difference to my family, even if it's not a big difference.. well, but life continues for this is reality.. i mean, we can't continue to deceive ourselves and live in a world of lies so i guess we all have to awake and return to reality.. well, that is it for me.. owells, although this nightmare has sort of ended, but our lives have all been changed by this nightmare but she'll continue to live in our hearts..

* i dun wish for 9th feb to come at all..

gonna blog about today!! haha.. went out with tracy to watch movie today.. went to plaza sing and me, being the road idiot, obviously got lost.. haha.. of course, i called for help and thus, got to plaza sing safely.. haha.. so we went to catch the movie, Happy Birthday.. personally found it quite nice.. touching that the male and female lead loved each other, yet never were together as a couple.. both knew their feelings for each other.. but i found the ending quite sad.. if you haven't watch, den go watch.. but if you dun intend to watch yet wanna know the ending, den ask me.. haha.. i'll be glad to tell you.. haha... so we went window shopping and as we were leaving, we saw 2MORO!! haha.. tracy just pulled my bag from the back and i asked her wad was it, then she told me to look and we saw them.. actually they quite good-looking.. not bad but i still like my dear.. haha.. so yes, tracy, i've blogged about it and this is COPYRIGHTED!! DUN COPY AND PASTE ON YOUR BLOG, OK!!!! haha..