haiz.. zhi's sick again.. down with the flu.. not sure if it's recently or a while ago but just found out.. although it's not very obvious but still, i hope he knows that health matters more sia especially now that he's even more busy with work since mr boss is not around at the moment i guess.. and i think other than being busy with grp stuff, he's being promoted to xuan chuan zong jian.. but not surprising lah since he's been giving speeches at j-star events.. haha.. i think tracy will know who i talking about, rite tracy?? haha.. owells, hope he get well soon and dun come down with a fever ok, "lao gong"... haha.. TRACY, i'm still "sun tai" hor.. haha.. anywae, i've decided to stop bothering and stay away from him as much as i can so as to avoid trouble from him and her.. so that's bout it..

p.s is 'o' level results really coming out on the 9th feb??

i like the lyrics of fan fan's song, 到不了, so i decided to post the lyrics here:

你眼睛会笑 弯成一条桥
终点却是我 永远到不了
感觉你来到 是风的呼啸
思念像苦药 竟如此难熬 每分每秒
我找不到 我到不了
你所谓的 将来的美好
我什麽都不要 知不知道 若你懂我 这一秒
我想看到 我在寻找
那所谓的 爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠 紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉 一丝一毫 愿你看到

do a short update first.. was watching wan yu yesterdae and saw lele's picture.. she is just sooooo cute!! chubby chubby one.. very cute.. well, his family photo was shown on tv and i have to sae the photos were very very very nice!! and qin was just so pretty, fu just so shuai and lele, just so cute!! haha.. very happy for them.. can sense that fu is really indeed very happy and he's grown up, that's most important.. pics can be seen on j-star website and i saw dear!! so shuai lah he... guess there'll be quite a bit of their news every now and den especially now that love miracle 3 - rock rules will be released soon so yah.. yeah!! anywae, saw him on sundae in church but i din talk to him or approach him.. just felt it would be awkward if he asked me abt my previous post but i think you(you know who you are, i hope...) and i will know how to settle this problem if we ever talk abt it.. and i'm really hoping you really know who i'm talking about.. if my fren can tell who i'm talking about, i hope you know too..

if i can, i wish i never knew you.. i wish we were never friends.. cause sometimes, u just hurt my feelings without unknowingly.. sometimes, u just seem ignorant about those around you.. you never say hi to me on normal days when we meet.. yet you come asking me if i was angry with you that incident which i think you never did remember.. i wish you would bother about my feelings and be of a nuisance to me.. i wish you would say hi to me online and how was my dae.. i wish you would talk to me more often.. all these and the many more wishes from me about you.. but one thing i know for sure.. you will never disappear from my life now.. you will only treat me as a friend, as a sister and not the way i want to be treated.. and you will never bother about me.. if you're reading this, i hope you know who you are.. i sometimes had enough of me being crazy over you cause it's impossible between us.. sometimes, the feeling just die awae but each time i see you, the feeling comes back a little.. if you din show me any concern during that period, mayb i wun discover my feelings for you have come back.. you will never knew that i broke down when i learnt about the two of you together.. you never knew how awkward i felt that time during the performance at your school with you two acting a little lovey-dovey yet you asked if i was ok.. but could i sae" no, i'm not ok.."?? if only i din know you, mayb all this will never have happened.. yet, i know this is all too late cause we're frens and i guess, we'll foreva be frens.. and no more than frens..

currently downloading some game so tot would do a little blogging.. life's been all slightly better for all of us but there's still some crying now and den by mum.. but everything's more or less fine.. had catechists' AGM yesterdae.. started crying when a tribute was paid to my aunt.. and i'm not the only one.. my sisters also cried but i wasn't sure about those who knew my aunt.. was slightly better after that but was still a little bit emotional.. mama chris told the P2 catechists that although my aunt is no longer around with them, but they've got me, her niece.. and of course, whether or not my aunt is still around todae, i wun disgrace her.. so yah, that was yesterdae.. throughout the week, did quite a number of things.. went back to school to see C.O and teachers (and i did see some of them..) and turned down a job offer due to lack of confidence of not being able to like the job... so i'm still currently waiting for results and slacking awae at home.. but to others, they can't seem to understand why i'm slacking at home.. it's the past experience at XXX company.. i dun wanna repeat my mistake that's why i'm slacking at home but they nv seem to be able to understand.. mayb even my parents included.. owells.. ok, i've got to go now.. will do another update when i have the mood to do so.. haha..

As i passed by KC this afternoon, i realised how much i miss KC.. the school, the teachers and the friends made there(although i still keep in touch with them..) hopefully i get to go back to see teachers asap...

resolutions for 2007, current feelings

It's the new year!! sorry for late wishes but hey people!! HAPPY 2007!! feeling slightly better but still, at the sight of my cousin missing my aunt and my uncle, the memories all return.. at the point of telling people how they are doing, the memories also all return.. like wad i mentioned in my previous post, it's hard to let go and stay strong, but dun worry, i'll try my best to let go bit by bit and to stay strong and let me life continue for i know that my aunt wun want our lives to stop just because she is no longer around but it all takes time.. [and i know with the support of frens, i will stay strong.. ] anywae my resolutions for this year is try to lose a little weight and cherish my loved ones around me.. i dun wish to regret it when it is too late for we are unable to predict wad will happen in the future for life is so unpredictable.. of course, listen to my parents.. and most importantly, hopefully to be able to get good grades for 'O' levels and work real hard in poly.. anywae, 'O' level results shld be released in feb after CNY!!