如果人的记忆就像电脑一样，可以把不要的回忆一次 format 掉，那该有多好 - 林晓如
只要心里还存有一点点的不甘心， 就还不是放弃的时候 - 宋杰修
This shows how insane I am over 醉后决定爱上你。Awesome storyline, great cast, a wonderful on-screen couple. I'm just going crazy over it, especially over 张孝全. I'm following both the episodes from Taiwan and Singapore. Just can't wait for the next episode. Sometimes, I wish time will fast forward to the next episode. Although the ending of the two leads may be expected, but I think what anyone will be looking towards for would be the process and the romantic scenes between 张孝全 and 杨丞琳. Or at least, that's for me.
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till then;
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
3 days of HRMS training. 2 down, 1 more to go. And the tired feeling is even more so as compared to back at work. It sounds ironic but I wonder why so especially when I don't start so early, I end early and the venue is at Suntec. Yet I like the feeling of coming home earlier than usual, without the usual 6pm crowd at the MRT stations and the bus stops. Basically empty buses, empty trains. And I think I'm gonna sound crazy but I kinda miss my workstation. LOL!
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till then;
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Friday, June 24, 2011
I wonder why do people complain that their lives are pathetic and sad? Isn't it up to a person to determine how enjoyable life should be? Not saying I don't complain, but I make it a point to change my life when it's heading towards that sad and boring and colourless life. It's your life, you should be the one to decide how enjoyable it should be, how interesting your life should be. Once again, it just leads back to the saying that this is my life, I determine how it will be like.
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On a random sidenote, I can also never understand why friends around me want us to get together faster. I wonder why. But it takes 2 hands to clap, not 1.
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till then;
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On a random sidenote, I can also never understand why friends around me want us to get together faster. I wonder why. But it takes 2 hands to clap, not 1.
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till then;
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Starting to...
Enjoy the personal time to myself every morning. Calls it my ME time. Often, we're so caught up with our work that on our way to work, we think of the huge pile of work we need to clear everyday, to the extent that some of us may even dream of our work at night! But the past 3 weeks of going to work on my own, taking the bus, I'm starting to enjoy it. With music playing on my mp3, it just relaxes my mind for a couple of mins to think of how good the coming day will be, doing self-reflections or reminicising those memories with every song attached to those memories and simply, breathing in the fresh morning air (at least it's fresh as compared to the air by mid morning or lunch time). It's like the quiet time between me and myself and I just love such feelings. At least until I board the train and my mind is put to sleep mode for 30 mins till I reach buona vista. LOL!
I guess this is how simple my life can be and how simple I want my life to be. I don't need to have those super happenings (likened to bright bold colours) everyday. Once in a while, maybe, to add additional colours to my life. But it's the simple happenings of everyday - meeting up with friends once in a while, chatting with that special someone or a close friend at night, be it through sms, facebook or msn. Life can be so simple yet fulfilling and colourful. It's the experiences along the way that make your life colourful, that make your life journey different from that of others. (:
It's those simple things in life that make one smile. (:
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till then;
Enjoy the personal time to myself every morning. Calls it my ME time. Often, we're so caught up with our work that on our way to work, we think of the huge pile of work we need to clear everyday, to the extent that some of us may even dream of our work at night! But the past 3 weeks of going to work on my own, taking the bus, I'm starting to enjoy it. With music playing on my mp3, it just relaxes my mind for a couple of mins to think of how good the coming day will be, doing self-reflections or reminicising those memories with every song attached to those memories and simply, breathing in the fresh morning air (at least it's fresh as compared to the air by mid morning or lunch time). It's like the quiet time between me and myself and I just love such feelings. At least until I board the train and my mind is put to sleep mode for 30 mins till I reach buona vista. LOL!
I guess this is how simple my life can be and how simple I want my life to be. I don't need to have those super happenings (likened to bright bold colours) everyday. Once in a while, maybe, to add additional colours to my life. But it's the simple happenings of everyday - meeting up with friends once in a while, chatting with that special someone or a close friend at night, be it through sms, facebook or msn. Life can be so simple yet fulfilling and colourful. It's the experiences along the way that make your life colourful, that make your life journey different from that of others. (:
It's those simple things in life that make one smile. (:
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till then;
Monday, June 06, 2011
Birthday gathering at Burp's Cafe, a punctured car tyre, Mini Cooper experience, Mr Teh Tarik, lunch at Macs with a close friend (whom I've been through a lot with) along with teasing and laughing and suaning. All these sums up my wonderful weekend. Totally awesome, totally fun. :D
Can't wait to get my new laptop this weekend! IT show, probable meet up with him on Friday (if I get his swiss roll), steamboat with either Tracy and her friends or him and Bugis peeps, new laptop on Sunday! Looking forward to these activities. Can't wait and these are my motivation for my week! (:
And so it still shows how much you mean to me.
That I would do anything for you.
That I would go all way out just to meet you.
All for the word L-O-V-E <3
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till then;
Can't wait to get my new laptop this weekend! IT show, probable meet up with him on Friday (if I get his swiss roll), steamboat with either Tracy and her friends or him and Bugis peeps, new laptop on Sunday! Looking forward to these activities. Can't wait and these are my motivation for my week! (:
And so it still shows how much you mean to me.
That I would do anything for you.
That I would go all way out just to meet you.
All for the word L-O-V-E <3
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till then;
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
So what if it's been days? What's happened has happened. What's said has been said. What's done has been done. Don't expect me to treat nothing has happened and everything is fine. Because the truth is all these has become facts, has become history and I can't pretend it has never happened. So don't put your expectations on me and expect me to do it your way cause I'm sorry but I won't.
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till then;
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Thursday, May 26, 2011
Reflections;
Emotional rollercoaster ride. But now, my emotions have settled. From being angry to now simply, calm. It was a feeling of betrayal. So how would one expect me to pretend that it didn't happen, such words were not said etc. But rather than say I'm still angry, I'd rather now say that I've accepted those facts cause facts can't be changed, just like history. To me now, some words no longer mean a thing to me. They just become strangers with familiar names. For the past 21 years, to be honest, my true smiles from the heart came from friends. And some friends know me better than them. Because I felt that I could trust friends more than I could trust them.
Calming down, I've never felt loved by them all these years. Maybe cause I wasn't as independent as the first one, I wasn't as smart and clever as the second and the fourth. But be it among them or with the relatives, I never felt loved. Cause whatever I wanted as I started to grow up, more often than not, I had to use my own money to get it myself. Everything was kept within me because I felt that they couldn't be trusted and that my matters would be told to people whom I don't wish for them to know. And it has happened before.
And so right now, although on the surface, it's family. But beneath it, I'd rather choose to be independent myself. Go to work on my own, taking the bus, even if it means waking up 30 mins earlier, leaving the house 20 mins earlier and squeezing with people on the bus and spending a little more on transport everyday. They can jolly well take it that the money given to them each month is for rent. All I need every night would just be a place to stay and a place for me to shower and use the laptop. I spent more time out of the house than at home, maybe with the exceptions on weekends. But the fact is that even if it isn't now, one day I'll grow up and live my own life. And thankfully, I'm not very much depending on them to give me allowance, to feed me or to pay for my degree studies (which I intend to pay on my own, even if it means delaying my further studies for a few more years). But I guess what really made me angry and upsetted me most in this incident was that it's scary that even family members can turn the tables around and say things that you never thought they would say. Yet it's through this incident that made me tell myself that I can trust no one except myself and those who prove that I can trust them.
I may be a nothing or a nobody to you, or be a disappointment in you.
But to me, what others see or think of me doesn't matter
Cause this is my story.
My life's journey's written by me.
The only outcome at the end of this journey is to ask myself,
Have I made my life an interesting and fruitful one?
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till then;
Emotional rollercoaster ride. But now, my emotions have settled. From being angry to now simply, calm. It was a feeling of betrayal. So how would one expect me to pretend that it didn't happen, such words were not said etc. But rather than say I'm still angry, I'd rather now say that I've accepted those facts cause facts can't be changed, just like history. To me now, some words no longer mean a thing to me. They just become strangers with familiar names. For the past 21 years, to be honest, my true smiles from the heart came from friends. And some friends know me better than them. Because I felt that I could trust friends more than I could trust them.
Calming down, I've never felt loved by them all these years. Maybe cause I wasn't as independent as the first one, I wasn't as smart and clever as the second and the fourth. But be it among them or with the relatives, I never felt loved. Cause whatever I wanted as I started to grow up, more often than not, I had to use my own money to get it myself. Everything was kept within me because I felt that they couldn't be trusted and that my matters would be told to people whom I don't wish for them to know. And it has happened before.
And so right now, although on the surface, it's family. But beneath it, I'd rather choose to be independent myself. Go to work on my own, taking the bus, even if it means waking up 30 mins earlier, leaving the house 20 mins earlier and squeezing with people on the bus and spending a little more on transport everyday. They can jolly well take it that the money given to them each month is for rent. All I need every night would just be a place to stay and a place for me to shower and use the laptop. I spent more time out of the house than at home, maybe with the exceptions on weekends. But the fact is that even if it isn't now, one day I'll grow up and live my own life. And thankfully, I'm not very much depending on them to give me allowance, to feed me or to pay for my degree studies (which I intend to pay on my own, even if it means delaying my further studies for a few more years). But I guess what really made me angry and upsetted me most in this incident was that it's scary that even family members can turn the tables around and say things that you never thought they would say. Yet it's through this incident that made me tell myself that I can trust no one except myself and those who prove that I can trust them.
I may be a nothing or a nobody to you, or be a disappointment in you.
But to me, what others see or think of me doesn't matter
Cause this is my story.
My life's journey's written by me.
The only outcome at the end of this journey is to ask myself,
Have I made my life an interesting and fruitful one?
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till then;
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Monday, May 09, 2011
Reflections of GE 2011
I've never been a political person mainly because I don't like politics. But after GE 2011, I can't help but wonder the after-effects of GE 2011, is it really good for Singapore, this little red dot? Yes, change may be for the better. But do Singaporeans vote after much consideration? Yes, I've got nothing to say if decisions were made after much consideration. But what about those who vote just for the sake of voting, those who vote just because they don't like the current government? And now, what has been proven is that their decisions has lead to the loss of a competent minister in our government. Complaints and disagreements and anger with the old government and that prices of everything, or rather cost of living is increasing. But think about it, the old government has done a lot for us, haven't they? Even then, the increasing cost of living is inevitable. Sooner or later, everything will increase. If they don't, then won't our little country start to become a third world country where we won't be able to keep up with the trends? But well, the results have already been made. Change in the goverment has already been made. Whether or not this change is worth it, the next 5 years will tell.
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till then;
I've never been a political person mainly because I don't like politics. But after GE 2011, I can't help but wonder the after-effects of GE 2011, is it really good for Singapore, this little red dot? Yes, change may be for the better. But do Singaporeans vote after much consideration? Yes, I've got nothing to say if decisions were made after much consideration. But what about those who vote just for the sake of voting, those who vote just because they don't like the current government? And now, what has been proven is that their decisions has lead to the loss of a competent minister in our government. Complaints and disagreements and anger with the old government and that prices of everything, or rather cost of living is increasing. But think about it, the old government has done a lot for us, haven't they? Even then, the increasing cost of living is inevitable. Sooner or later, everything will increase. If they don't, then won't our little country start to become a third world country where we won't be able to keep up with the trends? But well, the results have already been made. Change in the goverment has already been made. Whether or not this change is worth it, the next 5 years will tell.
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till then;
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
One thing I hate most when it comes to matters of the heart...
is when a guy knows that a girl likes him and he doesn't share the same feelings yet still be close to her and at the end of the day, hurt her and say that he doesn't mean it. It's a different case if mutual feelings towards each other are shared. I'd rather the guy keeps his distance than to hurt the girl's heart in such a way. Reflections of the past, hints to the future.
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If I give in this time round, I know that if I get hurt once again, I'll start to lose my trust in the word, Love.
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till then;
is when a guy knows that a girl likes him and he doesn't share the same feelings yet still be close to her and at the end of the day, hurt her and say that he doesn't mean it. It's a different case if mutual feelings towards each other are shared. I'd rather the guy keeps his distance than to hurt the girl's heart in such a way. Reflections of the past, hints to the future.
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If I give in this time round, I know that if I get hurt once again, I'll start to lose my trust in the word, Love.
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till then;
Monday, April 18, 2011
Weekend was great. Saturday afternoon spent learning more about financial planning and meeting nice people. Followed by Paragon and durian at Geylang. Dead tired upon reaching home but truly enjoyed myself that day. (: - Lunch at Tung Lok with family and mummy's makan kakis. Totally awesome desserts and my fave dim sum. Fallen in love with custard pau. Nice. In search now for more custard pau. - With just another half a day more, what's left for me this week is PWS Observance Ceremony tomorrow, lunch treat from Angela and Healthy Lifestyle to end off my work week. On leave on thursday. Gonna spend my leave wisely. Thoughts about heading back to school or going shopping is in the midst of consideration. Short work week this week and I'm loving it. (: - till then;
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Some things once lost, you'll never be able to get it back again. It would be your luck if you found it the first time but when you lose it the second time, maybe it's fate. This time, it's really gone and I'll never get it back.
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Be it as a friend or someone important to you or as your other half, be it who is it, I think it's always nice to have someone tell you that when you need someone, he or she is there for you.
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till then;
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Be it as a friend or someone important to you or as your other half, be it who is it, I think it's always nice to have someone tell you that when you need someone, he or she is there for you.
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till then;
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Mismatched; Evadne's 21st. A party of mismatched. A KCians get-together. Catching up and enjoying the company of each other in a cosy ambience. The fact that no matter how long we've not met up, KCians always are able to have topics to talk about even after many years has been proven. Wendy's 21st; The 2nd 21st party I've attended. Celebrated her 21st at Costa Sands Downtown East. Enjoyed the fun and the catching up with each other. Special guest invited and aim was achieved. Rented boyfriend was what he was called. An honour for him, a pride for me. Secrets exchanged and heart-to-heart talks. Great evening, is what I summed up. Up next, lunch date and board games. All with the same rented boyfriend. - till then;
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Misconceptions cleared up. Never judge a book by its cover. Lesson learnt over lunch today. - Big Mommas: Like Father Like Son was comical. Along with the company. And I found myself a movie companion. - GLACE. Cheese tart. Yummy and nice. And added to my dessert list. - Secrets shared, listening ear to each other. A distant friendship got closer as the chats never end. What more can I ask for? - till then;
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
Proven.
Every beginning of the month - MC.
Break this curse it shall be for April.
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放下包袱，开始往前走，别再回头。这是对我好的决定。踏出第一步，虽然害怕但还是勇敢地踏出去。结果不错，放下一点点，感觉开心一些些，直到那条简讯传来。心情变得矛盾，变得不知如何是好。但我对自己说，不管发生什么事，都绝不能回头，不能心软， 一定要坚持自己的承诺。那个不再让自己受伤的承诺。虽然那天玩得很开心，一切好像回到我们当初认识的我们，但一旦要离开时，所有的一切回到在还没见面时的一切。虽然不舍，但不得不这么做。要重新跨出第一步，虽然难免会害怕，会不想，但我知道最后的结果，一定是对我好，至少我宁愿因为我自己的决定而难过，也不想因为你而难过，宁愿因为我自己的决定而受伤，也不想我的伤直接来自你。
再怎么不舍，都该放手了。
再怎么难过，伤心难过的日子总回过去。
总有一天，我会因为经历那么多事而变得坚强。
总有一天，我不会再为你而伤心难过。
Every beginning of the month - MC.
Break this curse it shall be for April.
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放下包袱，开始往前走，别再回头。这是对我好的决定。踏出第一步，虽然害怕但还是勇敢地踏出去。结果不错，放下一点点，感觉开心一些些，直到那条简讯传来。心情变得矛盾，变得不知如何是好。但我对自己说，不管发生什么事，都绝不能回头，不能心软， 一定要坚持自己的承诺。那个不再让自己受伤的承诺。虽然那天玩得很开心，一切好像回到我们当初认识的我们，但一旦要离开时，所有的一切回到在还没见面时的一切。虽然不舍，但不得不这么做。要重新跨出第一步，虽然难免会害怕，会不想，但我知道最后的结果，一定是对我好，至少我宁愿因为我自己的决定而难过，也不想因为你而难过，宁愿因为我自己的决定而受伤，也不想我的伤直接来自你。
再怎么不舍，都该放手了。
再怎么难过，伤心难过的日子总回过去。
总有一天，我会因为经历那么多事而变得坚强。
总有一天，我不会再为你而伤心难过。
Monday, February 21, 2011
Stories about NS, life, our experiences and simply getting to know each other better sums up a great Sunday afternoon yesterday. Hectic afternoon but the company of the new group makes it great and relaxed after that. Looking forward to such sessions with them again!
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A question was asked yesterday. What are the 2 3-word phrases in life that is the most difficult to say? 1) It's my fault/I am wrong. 2) I am sorry. And the explanation to why "It's my fault/I am sorry" comes first was a great explanation and realisation to us. I shared it with my family yesterday and they agreed to.
We often say sorry for the sake of saying sorry, sometimes we do not even admit that it's our fault while saying sorry. But the whole meaning of saying sorry is to first acknowledge our mistakes, our faults and be sorry for them. Saying sorry doesn't necessarily mean that you are really sorry for them. Saying sorry is difficult but acknowledging your mistakes, your faults is even more difficult.
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I've moved on. I'm no longer gonna waste my time on people who doesn't appreciate what I'm doing for them, no longer gonna treat them that well when they don't deserve my kindness and is taking me for granted. It feels that all this while, people took me for granted, as if I owed them and it's right for them to treat me this way. In fact, there's no need for me to deserve such treatment. So I'm moving on. Getting on with my life. Cause at the end of the day, people will come to realise that it's their loss for not treasuring such a friend like me, and not mine. And at the end of the day, I'm gonna spend my time on people who deserves it more than others and that I deserve someone better.
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till then;
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A question was asked yesterday. What are the 2 3-word phrases in life that is the most difficult to say? 1) It's my fault/I am wrong. 2) I am sorry. And the explanation to why "It's my fault/I am sorry" comes first was a great explanation and realisation to us. I shared it with my family yesterday and they agreed to.
We often say sorry for the sake of saying sorry, sometimes we do not even admit that it's our fault while saying sorry. But the whole meaning of saying sorry is to first acknowledge our mistakes, our faults and be sorry for them. Saying sorry doesn't necessarily mean that you are really sorry for them. Saying sorry is difficult but acknowledging your mistakes, your faults is even more difficult.
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I've moved on. I'm no longer gonna waste my time on people who doesn't appreciate what I'm doing for them, no longer gonna treat them that well when they don't deserve my kindness and is taking me for granted. It feels that all this while, people took me for granted, as if I owed them and it's right for them to treat me this way. In fact, there's no need for me to deserve such treatment. So I'm moving on. Getting on with my life. Cause at the end of the day, people will come to realise that it's their loss for not treasuring such a friend like me, and not mine. And at the end of the day, I'm gonna spend my time on people who deserves it more than others and that I deserve someone better.
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till then;
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
4th month;
I just realised that at the start of the past 3 months, I'm on MC. Argh. Terrible. And reason for cause of MC this month? Sore eyes. Conjunctivitis. How good. Specs to work tmr just so that I can wear my contact lens on Thursday. But luckily, it's only half day tmr. This week is indeed a short short work week.
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CNY in 2 days' time. Not so much excited. Nor have the festive mood. When there's not much to do during CNY apart from the routine visiting and new clothes, guess there's nothing worth looking forward to. Except for the long weekend this year.
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till then;
I just realised that at the start of the past 3 months, I'm on MC. Argh. Terrible. And reason for cause of MC this month? Sore eyes. Conjunctivitis. How good. Specs to work tmr just so that I can wear my contact lens on Thursday. But luckily, it's only half day tmr. This week is indeed a short short work week.
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CNY in 2 days' time. Not so much excited. Nor have the festive mood. When there's not much to do during CNY apart from the routine visiting and new clothes, guess there's nothing worth looking forward to. Except for the long weekend this year.
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till then;
Thursday, January 13, 2011
My 3rd month and it's getting busy already. New work arrangements result in more workloads. Work is piling up day by day. New cases, new challenges. Fun and interesting. Starting to leave me tired at the end of every day, with me starting to end work later and later as well. But I'm enjoying it and loving it. Totally no regrets. Once again, thanks to the nice and friendly colleagues and the nature of my job. (:
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Hair appointment on Saturday. Trying out a new hairstyle. Hopefully it'll turn out nice. If so, I'll be doing perm soft curls on Thursday. Talking about it, taking a short break from work from Thursday onwards. Plans to meet up with Viv on Thursday, off to Malacca on Friday, back on Sunday and saying hi to work on Monday. Gonna be a super packed week next week with just 3 days of work and loads of work to clear after my short break.
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Smiles on my face this week since Tuesday placed by a special someone. The smiles are still there as I recall our sms chat. It's keeping me going these days. Wonder when will be the next time I'll meet you. (:
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till then;
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Hair appointment on Saturday. Trying out a new hairstyle. Hopefully it'll turn out nice. If so, I'll be doing perm soft curls on Thursday. Talking about it, taking a short break from work from Thursday onwards. Plans to meet up with Viv on Thursday, off to Malacca on Friday, back on Sunday and saying hi to work on Monday. Gonna be a super packed week next week with just 3 days of work and loads of work to clear after my short break.
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Smiles on my face this week since Tuesday placed by a special someone. The smiles are still there as I recall our sms chat. It's keeping me going these days. Wonder when will be the next time I'll meet you. (:
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till then;
Sunday, January 02, 2011
2011 - New year, new beginnings;
Just like the heading, 2011's a new year which also mark new beginnings. 2010 created many memories, made impacts in my life as well as many first times. Looking forward to more memories in 2011, creating more memories in 2011, writing new chapters in my life.
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Countdown on 31 Dec with PP was awesome. 2010 started well, ended great with a big bang with them at Seven, Iluma. And naturally 2011 started off well for sure. Drank, a bit high but total enjoyment. An unexpected surprise came along as well and it did made me smile.
Singing session was up next last night. 3 hours of singing came along with laughter and great gathering. Another total enjoyment. The last night of 2010 and the first night of 2011 spent with them was just awesome. Looking to more of such impromptu gatherings.
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Just like the heading, 2011's a new year which also mark new beginnings. 2010 created many memories, made impacts in my life as well as many first times. Looking forward to more memories in 2011, creating more memories in 2011, writing new chapters in my life.
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Countdown on 31 Dec with PP was awesome. 2010 started well, ended great with a big bang with them at Seven, Iluma. And naturally 2011 started off well for sure. Drank, a bit high but total enjoyment. An unexpected surprise came along as well and it did made me smile.
Singing session was up next last night. 3 hours of singing came along with laughter and great gathering. Another total enjoyment. The last night of 2010 and the first night of 2011 spent with them was just awesome. Looking to more of such impromptu gatherings.
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till then;
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