My dreams, my interests, my passion. I'll still go for it, pursue them. But why can't they see that even if it's a part-time job, I'm taking it seriously. I'm only asking for one simple thing - their support. Why can't they just give me their support and quit being a wet blanket? Why can't they try to accept the fact that the chances of me getting into NIE is super low now? Just who are they trying to deceive? Me or themselves? Cos I've accepted the fact that the application was unsuccessful but it doesn't mean I've given up on my dreams, my interests and my passion. Cos I'll never give up on teaching.

'Turn down all appointments this week and go in and teach if the school calls" - that's what she told me. Then I ask myself, what if the school doesn't call? Then I'm wasting my time at home when if I can be out there, going for appointments. At least there's the possibility that I can close deals and earn that money, even if it's a teeny weeny bit. Why can't they try to put themselves in my shoes and think, and understand that some things aren't as easy or simple as they say it is. Maybe they're the ones who have to accept the fact that I've grown up, that I know what I want and stop deceiving themselves instead.

till then;