woke up at 11.40 this morning.. was tired.. wad time did i sleep? close to 2am.. anyway, bbq last night.. went TM to get some things before meeting ben and desheng.. bused down to shaun's place.. met melvin and miao feng at the bus stop so walked in together with them just because melvin needed to use the toilet and we decided to pangseh yong sing.. haha.. ok, now i know how to get to shaun's place!! and oh my!! his place quite nice!! nice environment.. haha.. he had a dog named julie?? nice dog.. but i got freaked out when his small dog started barking at ben!! ahh.. but his dog is super cute!! got big eyes.. haha.. so anyway, bbq after that..

was helping out with the food while the guys played cards and melvin and shaun was starting up the fire.. shaun's like damn pro sia!! haha.. after that, started the first round of cooking with desheng and shaun while kai hui and her fren was helping to skewer the chicken wings.. haha.. people came and people left.. by 10, it started raining heavily.. i got wet but haha, it was fun! proceeded to shaun's house after that.. gen amazed us all by her playing of the piano and the guitar.. i was like 'wow!!'.. all of us who were left was super amazed.. haha.. btw, those were left at 10 were me, miao feng, tricia, serene, gen, lici, ben, melvin, desheng, dudu and yong sing.. so the few of us played cards and yes, i lost.. couldn't really concentrate alr.. haha.. so because i lost, my punishment was to finish up a can of beer.. but the guys, taking into account that i was a girl, i had only had to drink a mouth.. and so shaun took my pic.. will get my pic frm him and maybe upload it another day.. haha.. but!! I think I got hooked onto the beer.. kept drinking a few more mouthfuls till ben had to get the can away frm me.. haha.. the guys were scared i got drunk especially when they heard it's my first time! haha.. hey, my first drinking attempt was given away yesterday!! haha.. but not too bad lah.. lol.. after that, cabbed home with miao feng.. reached home at 11.45p.m..

anyway, after i reached home last night, had a talking session with melvin just before i went to shower.. reason being, me, melvin and shaun had a talking session earlier last night at the bbq pit.. or rather, it was just supposed to be me and shaun but melvin came and joined us.. so yah, continued my session with melvin for abt 1/2 hr on the phone.. after that, went to shower and had another session with shaun at 1.15a.m.. it was all abt him at all 3 talking sessions.. haiz.. i know his answer already.. or rather, i somehow know his answer alr.. and shaun said last night that it was a no cause shaun asked him.. so i'm contemplating whether i should tell him or not.. or should i just leave it as it is.. i really don't know.. melvin asked me to consider it carefully before telling him.. well, it's just a final confirmed answer i want from him.. owells, at a loss.. dunno wad to do.. to tell or not to tell?? let me think about it and we shall see.. ok, enough for this post.. maybe another one tonite.. :)