I just wanna get this episode of this week's happenings over and done with.. I wanna carry on with the life I used to have before all this happenings.. I've regretted helping you two.. but what's done cannot be undone.. all I'm just hoping for is, get this episode over and done with.. it's becoming a nightmare to me.. but I'm glad that after all that has happened, you two are still back together.. ok, i shall stop being emo!! haha..

aiya, afterall, I dun think they can read this anymore.. no more peeps frm my class cause my blog is made private!! I can like finally blog anything and everything under the sun.. haha.. =)) and this decision wasn't made rashly.. I had this thought since I was in penang already.. so it was not fully because of these happenings that I made my decision.. so yah, it really wasn't solely because of what happened this week.. certain people will know why I'm happy with regards to this.. lol.. but anyway, tx for all who gave me advices on how I should have handled their problem.. tx to those who gave me a listening ear especially to Sherlyn cause i always complain to her online and to Xiao min cause everytime i call and talk to her, it's always more than 30 mins.. so yah, tx to you two!! =) ok, I'm gg offline soon alr.. off to fulfil my promise to xiao min.. haha.. that is to complete my finance tutorial qns frm the old finance notes.. haha.. k, wad a lame promise.. haha.. =))

got back my HR results.. not very happy about it.. so what am i planning to do? i'm going to work even more harder this term to score and chiong all the way now.. and i mean it.. owells.. i'm jsut going to work harder this term and play less.. let's try to focus and prioritise my life now.. :S and yes, i know my posts the last few days hasn't been exactly my normal self.. if things do come to an end at the end of this week, happy posts are up to come.. and on a random thought: I miss my 1B08 girls.. [edited version]

gosh.. even after talking to xiao min on the phone, i still want to blabber on and on and on.. i still want to chat on and on and on.. i still want to ramble on and on and on.. i still want to talk on and on and on.. ok, if anyone of u see this and am bored, call me.. =) [edited version]

i just feel like rambling on and on and on... i just feel like blabbering on and on and on... i need a chat with someone.. i just feel like talking on and on and on.. haiz.. anyway, got back my results for finance.. 20.5/30.. not what i expected.. expected better.. i could do better.. just blame it on myself for not studying early and going out even just before the mid-sems.. have told the dearies to scold me next time if they hear that i'm going out just before exams.. disappointed.. but! all those who are going to Hr and finance were in the range of 20 to 21.5.. so haha.. the 5 of us, not so bad lah.. lol.. but still.. haiz, disappointment.. and! someone out of that 4 guys, got the same mark as me.. lol.. but haha, i'm not so bo liao as to be happy just because like tat.. lol.. anyway, i'm off to ramble, blabber on the phone.. update later again or something.. =)

i'm damn tired today.. partly cause of yesterday.. firstly, i met hui yee at tampines to help her with her project... supposedly to meet at 4 pm but there was a miscommunication.. she sent me an sms which i never received so i ended up waiting 1 hr 40 mins for her.. haha.. she could break record sia.. after that we went to get her photos done after getting lollipops.. haha.. was chilling out at tampines mrt station and i received a call from ben.. yes, he asked me where i was and told me to meet him and desheng on the train that was coming, and it was the train i was intending to take.. so yah, left tampines after that.. boarded the train and went to look for them.. found them and ben was so sweet.. he gave up his seat so that i could sit.. haha.. at the end of the ride, i was sitting in between him and desheng..lol..

reached newton early and so we waited for the others.. amy and yong sing joined us in the end.. haha.. so yah, i wasn't the only girl.. lol.. which i guess it was a good thing afterall.. didn't feel left out.. haha.. we ate at newton food centre.. haha, food wise not too bad and i enjoyed the company of the guys! =) after dinner, we went dhoby ghaut to play pool.. and gosh! yong sing was super pro sia.. lol.. slacked around while seeing ben, shaun and yong sing play.. haha.. after that trained home with desheng and yong sing after that.. cabbed home from bedok inter after that cause it was late.. reached home slightly before midnight and even before i stepped into the house, i was on the phone for over an hour or so.. lol.. took a shower at 1 am before going to bed.. dead tired..

today woke up at 9am.. had to go back to school to do MBS project.. was in school till 3 pm.. but!! i'm glad i did some work today for the project.. haha.. i figured out the combo box and stuff. lol.. =) i wasn't late by the way.. was on time!! haha.. the others were early.. lol.. went to TM after that to find out what's wrong with my dear phone.. haiz.. it needs to be sent for servicing now.. will most prob get it done tmr or wed after school.. sian.. no phone.. =( ok, off to dinner.. i'm hungry.. haha.. btw, kai hui's suggesting a sentosa outing this saturday.. not sure if i'll be going cause late nights out and i think mum isn't very happy about it.. so yah, shall see how.. and i'm glad they liked my gifts and could wear/use it! lol.. =)

whee!! mass convo with the guys and gen now.. trying to arrange timing for tmr.. so now end up is 4 guys and 1 girl, that's me.. lol.. owells.. have somehow gotten used to it already.. lol.. anyway, was slacking awae at home today.. super bored.. watched repeated shows on tv and played games online.. basically, it was just bored.. went out for dinner to serangoon.. yum yum.. not too bad.. herbal seafood steamboat.. and we all felt it was worth the money.. i mean, think about it.. crab and big prawns.. haha.. and it was additional $20 a plate!! lol.. overall, this dinner was yummy.. and it somehow overcome my craving for mala steamboat.. haha.. =)

anyway, may be meeting hui yee tmr.. that girl needs help with her school work.. so haha, being the nice fren of hers, lol.. ok, i gotta give angeline a call and see if she's free tmr.. lol.. till then! =)

now that i know there is a possibility of you reading my blog, i just wanna say, whatever i said in the previous post was just how the inner me felt.. i didn't mean to rattle on and say those stuff.. i just wanna say 3 words: I AM SORRY.. i really didn't mean to.. paiseh lah.. =) you know who i'm referring to..

just got back frm church meeting not too long ago.. and i just finished eating my chicken nuggets cause i was hungry.. lol.. feeling tired.. went to school today to do MBS project and yup, we managed to finish tables and a little bit on queries.. at which i wish to say: it's not that i'm not willing to do, but i really don't know how to get it down.. it's not that i don't want to do and let you complete my part but i'm really a noob at this.. this doesn't matter to all reading this.. maybe only to some.. saw hui yee!! haha.. chatted with her for a while.. lol.. =) at least she managed to put a smile on my face today.. came home, rested, dinner before going for meeting..

was chatting with angeline last night on the phone for close to 45 mins? chatted about our holidays and yah, my personal stuff.. owells.. can't mention those personal stuff here cause there are people at home reading this.. and i know it.. but then again, like i give a damn.. dun think i'll be meeting her this holiday alr.. so sad.. trying to see if can meet up for dinner tmr nite.. have smsed her but no reply.. owells.. saddening.. =( haha..

lastly, to end off: after today's short chat with the girls during MBS, i realised that there are people going through worse than how i'm feeling.. and i shouldn't bother people about my matters.. i realised i should look ahead and forget about everything.. i should at least try to regain back to my normal self.. but owells.. and i just want to tell those 2 girls that no matter what happens, you two have me as your fren and you can confide in me.. and being your fren, i will support whatever decision you girls make.. =) cheers people, see you ard.. =)

I'm upset with you.. yes you.. I know you don't read my blog but nevertheless, I'm upset.. why can't you just be like the other guys?? why can't you either just ask me about the truth or pretend you don't know anything and treat me normally? why do you have to ignore me after you have confirmed abt it.. the others asked me how was my trip and whether i had fun.. but you? not even a single thing.. helloz? it's not as if you don't know i went overseas.. just a simple question will kill you is it? she said maybe you don't want to give the wrong idea but even as a fren? i know the answer you have.. i expected the answer so i won't think on the wrong side.. can i say i'm disappointed in you? can't we stay as frens? i can only say, i'm upset with how you're treating me.. and i'm tired.. emotionally tired.. good night.. =(

whee!! blog about my trip!! haha.. such a lousy start to a new post.. lol.. but nevertheless, yup!! i truly enjoyed my trip with mum's friends although it wasn't really an enjoyable one for a particular couple.. but at least we all tried to enjoy ourselves.. something happened when we arrived at penang on friday! angel's luggage din come along.. it was left behind in singapore due to some careless mistake made during check-in.. but thankfully, we got the luggage back that night!! so yah.. did most shopping on the 2nd and 3rd day cause it was late to go shopping on the 1st day and the penang group wanted to chat with the adults.. so yah.. anyway, here's the pics!! enjoy!!

day 1:

me and my dad at Changi airport!!

bread given during the flight to Penang!! yum yum..

that was dinner on the first night!! hawker food!! =)

Day 2:

waiting for the bus to go shopping!! lol..

bus tickets!!

gosh, my face looked bad... anyway, we were preparing to go for dinner on the 2nd day..

this baby is called Joshua.. sooo cute!!! =D

and this other little boy here is Zac.. also another cute boy!! =D

day 3:

my new pair of shoes!! i like it!!

that was my supper on the last night!! haha.. yummy.. so love the hot dog..!! =))

anyway, here's the sceneric view!! it was wow!!

the sea!! lol.. the picture on the left was during high tide.. the other one was taken frm my room's balcony in the morning.. lovely view!! =)

so anyway, i've uploaded almost all the pics frm my trip.. really a fruitful one.. got gifts for my dear friends!! lol.. hope they like it.. =)) anyway, yup, gotta go.. hungry... heat up food to eat.. haha.. lol.. gosh, there goes my weight.. haha..

I'm back!! will upload pics some other day.. just got back home an hour ago.. enjoyed myself.. had fun.. gifts for most frens.. and I'm tired yet happy.. =)

off to penang in a few more hours.. looking forward to it? I don't know.. maybe cause of what is taking place later.. ok.. some frens will know wad i'm talking about.. anyway, yup, will be gone.. back on monday evening.. will TRY to enjoy myself.. btw, i'm bringing my phone.. so that i can see if i can take nice pics and listen to selected songs in my phone.. lol.. and read thru my inbox and consider again whether this final decision i've made is a decision i wld not regret or not.. i guess i wun be sending smses so lol.. but if permits, i may even go online using my phone at nite.. but this wld just mean that my phone bill for June is going to get realllll bigggg!!!! owells.. all this will have to see if i can turn on my phone there or not.. lol.. owells.. anyway, the following words is to some frens who gave me advice over the phone, thru smses and online:

hey M and S (you two know who you are..)!! thanks for the advices you two gave me over that matter.. but the final decision lies with me.. and i do hope my decision is right.. but no matter whether i did tell him or not, you two have been gr8 frens.. even though M only want to watch show but nevertheless, thanks a lot!! lastly, no matter whether or not we'll be in the same class next sem, I'll definitely be hanging out with you guys.. =) once again, thx!! esp to S!!

ok, off to do my last preparation for my trip.. =) take care peeps!!

sentosa trip today with tracy!! lol.. fun and yup, we got our sun tans!! and I love it!! =) anyway, here's some of the pics from today.. can't upload all cause we took over 100 pics!! haha.. using my phone.. lol.. =) enjoy..

the nice view from our position and that's what we bought from vivo.. pocky and chrysanthemum white tea!!

we started to camwhore after a while.. these were just some of the pics we took.. haha..

playing with the tree near us.. haha... we were like those bollywood stars u see on tv.. haha..

the weather got a bit too hot but still could withstand..


started playing with the sand cause i was too bored.. haha.. and tracy started snapping pics.. she camwhoring and taking pics of me.. haha..

back at vivo.. having hokkien mee for dinner.. trained home after that cause we were so tired.. lol.. overall, today was fun!! really enjoyed myself.. lol.. i had my sun tan.. i had my first outing with tracy since the hols started.. hopefully can meet up with her next wk to go k box.. lol.. btw, i chatted with melvin and shaun for a while today at sentosa.. lol.. when i got home, i was laughing away at something that happened when i wasn't at home.. rgd me and my so-called bf (which for your info, i dun have.. pls dun be like my mum..) full story, ask me and i'll tell you.. lol..

anyway, tmr, i'm off to penang.. lol.. and just now, ben smsed me and the others, asking to meet for lunch and then pool.. lol.. i replied back saying why not they come and send me off.. haha.. ok, that was just being lame.. lol.. but owells.. i'm gonna miss messaging ppl and miss my laptop for 3 days!! ahh!! but those 3 days will pass fast.. I'll most prob be back online on monday night.. haha.. till then, folks!! =) p.s: gifts will be given to yr 2 frens.. to my yr 1 darlings, i'm sorry.. but if i do have excess cash, yes, i'll get you dearies something!! =) see u peeps next wk!! =)

one says tell.. another also say tell.. but sherlyn say dun tell.. tracy say dun tell.. caroline say dun tell.. wad shld i do? tell or not to tell? i'm at a loss.. haiz..

woke up at 11.40 this morning.. was tired.. wad time did i sleep? close to 2am.. anyway, bbq last night.. went TM to get some things before meeting ben and desheng.. bused down to shaun's place.. met melvin and miao feng at the bus stop so walked in together with them just because melvin needed to use the toilet and we decided to pangseh yong sing.. haha.. ok, now i know how to get to shaun's place!! and oh my!! his place quite nice!! nice environment.. haha.. he had a dog named julie?? nice dog.. but i got freaked out when his small dog started barking at ben!! ahh.. but his dog is super cute!! got big eyes.. haha.. so anyway, bbq after that..

was helping out with the food while the guys played cards and melvin and shaun was starting up the fire.. shaun's like damn pro sia!! haha.. after that, started the first round of cooking with desheng and shaun while kai hui and her fren was helping to skewer the chicken wings.. haha.. people came and people left.. by 10, it started raining heavily.. i got wet but haha, it was fun! proceeded to shaun's house after that.. gen amazed us all by her playing of the piano and the guitar.. i was like 'wow!!'.. all of us who were left was super amazed.. haha.. btw, those were left at 10 were me, miao feng, tricia, serene, gen, lici, ben, melvin, desheng, dudu and yong sing.. so the few of us played cards and yes, i lost.. couldn't really concentrate alr.. haha.. so because i lost, my punishment was to finish up a can of beer.. but the guys, taking into account that i was a girl, i had only had to drink a mouth.. and so shaun took my pic.. will get my pic frm him and maybe upload it another day.. haha.. but!! I think I got hooked onto the beer.. kept drinking a few more mouthfuls till ben had to get the can away frm me.. haha.. the guys were scared i got drunk especially when they heard it's my first time! haha.. hey, my first drinking attempt was given away yesterday!! haha.. but not too bad lah.. lol.. after that, cabbed home with miao feng.. reached home at 11.45p.m..

anyway, after i reached home last night, had a talking session with melvin just before i went to shower.. reason being, me, melvin and shaun had a talking session earlier last night at the bbq pit.. or rather, it was just supposed to be me and shaun but melvin came and joined us.. so yah, continued my session with melvin for abt 1/2 hr on the phone.. after that, went to shower and had another session with shaun at 1.15a.m.. it was all abt him at all 3 talking sessions.. haiz.. i know his answer already.. or rather, i somehow know his answer alr.. and shaun said last night that it was a no cause shaun asked him.. so i'm contemplating whether i should tell him or not.. or should i just leave it as it is.. i really don't know.. melvin asked me to consider it carefully before telling him.. well, it's just a final confirmed answer i want from him.. owells, at a loss.. dunno wad to do.. to tell or not to tell?? let me think about it and we shall see.. ok, enough for this post.. maybe another one tonite.. :)

somehow, blogging has once again become a habit.. haha.. here's my post for today:

church this morning.. followed by the doctor visit.. the doctor said it was just normal diarrheoa and just wind in my tummy.. that explains why my tummy hurts yet I can't visit the toilet.. lol.. came home before gg out at 2.45 to meet hui yee.. lol.. she was at marina square.. shld have gave her a call when i reached.. i waited like an idiot for 15 mins at city hall, thinking she wld meet me at city hall mrt.. lol.. nevertheless, we went shopping.. we walked up and down citylink mall, marina square and raffles city.. haha.. like 2 idiots.. lol.. after we finished with city hall, we trained down to bugis where we had dinner and shopped at bugis street.. lol.. it was a rather fruitful outing today.. she got what she needed to get (her friend's present and her bag which she got it at $50 after much bargaining) and i got a new shirt.. boyfriend's shirt as what they called it.. nice, love it.. can match with jeans and hopefully shorts.. lol.. :) happy with my gain today.. and of course!! we had lots of fun talking, chatting and shopping!! we made a deal to meet at least once every holiday.. hopefully we keep to that.. but i'll see her again cause she wanna meet desheng to find out more about sociology.. so i guess, it'll be real soon!! :) love this girl lots!!

as for tmr, haha, i'll be at home.. slacking away.. most prob paint my nails and stuff before going to grandparents' place tmr nite to celebrate cousin's birthday.. hopefully we won't be home too late.. but haha, i'll use the laptop tmr afternoon.. haha.. gotta call the guys tmr as well.. to confirm which part of tampines stadium we meeting on tues.. as for tues, not meeting with angeline alr.. that girl is always busy with her stuff.. dun blame me when i can't meet with her.. class bbq at night!! so looking forward to it.. it's finally more or less a class thing.. lol.. ok, i'm off to prepare for bed.. long day today and i'm tired... :) nights..

finally finally finally.. a girls' outing with my dearest girlfriend!! after so long.. when was the last time I went out with her? start of Mar until now.. 3 months!!! heehee.. how come I can remember so clearly that I met her at the start of March? because I went out with her after an incident happened the night before and I cried just before going to meet her.. so what do you think? the incident left me an emotional scar which I guess I will never forget.. lol.. but nevertheless, yes!! I'm finally meeting ms Khoo!!! =))

anyway, my tummy's still a little queasy.. after I've eaten, an hour or so later, my tummy will hurt and poof! I'm off to the toilet.. still pain.. hope the tummy gets better tmr.. dun want it to ruin my date with ms khoo.. lol.. mum asked me who I was going out with tmr when I said I won't be coming home for dinner.. lol.. geez, I think she's suspecting I got a darling outside.. haha.. but nah.. nobody wants me.. haha.. ok, whatever..

I think I'm starting to miss him already.. he appears in my mind unknowingly.. sometimes in the midst when I'm busy doing things.. gosh.. I think this is so bad... anyway, I've decided.. not to neglect my dear friends from term 2.. or rather, I'll try not to.. but you know, when projects start again.. but I guess it won't be that bad? cause we're starting on our project tgt.. I hope things turn out fine after this holiday.. I mean it.. :S

now that I'm on holiday, I guess I'll end blogging almost every day.. lol.. anyway, I didn't go for the lunch today.. my tummy wasn't feeling well and just needed the toilet.. so I smsed nat and auntie lily telling them that I wasn't feeling well.. owells.. just feel bad..

received an sms at 1.30am last night, informing us about the class bbq on tuesday with shaun's address and who to contact if unsure on how to get to his place.. and this sms was sent by my class rep.. how nice.. 1 am in the morning.. and I didn't know how I actually woke up and read his sms when I didn't even hear my phone beep.. was just so tired but out of the blue, just woke up and saw his msg.. how nice.. lol.. he sent another one just now, asking us how many of us will be going so that shaun knows how much to order.. and I ended off saying that if shaun needs help with the food, I'll be most glad to help.. I mean, it's a class thing right? so shouldn't classmates offer to help each other, rather than let shaun do everything? haha.. just as well, I'm being concerned for boss..lol..

since I'm going to meet desheng and guys at 4.30 on tues before going together with them, I've the intention of asking angeline out for lunch that day at TM.. was thinking of shopping and chatting with her before I meet them.. afterall, if it's early, I can just call desheng and tell him say I'm going over to his place first.. not as if he's alone at home.. I'll at the most just be disturbing his MBS group, discussing project and maybe get suan by ben.. (p.s: ben, if you're reading this, will you suan me?? haha..) but! all this is not confirmed yet.. well, at least the meeting with angeline is not confirmed yet.. dunno whether she'll be free or not.. so lol.. better book her asap!! haha.. and me going over to his place will just depend wad time I finish my plans.. lol.. owells.. shall call and confirm with him on monday night.. lol.. not sure who else from the east is going.. or rather, I'm not sure who's going for the bbq.. but I know for sure, me, the guys and kai hui and shaun's MBS group are.. lol.. haha.. ok, will update again later.. off to take a shower.. haha.. :)

while waiting for my game to load, here's my post.. lol.. finally!! last paper today.. I din know how to do the last qn on rewards and benefits and I wasn't the only one.. lol.. but overall, I hope I can do fine.. not only for HR but also for MBS and my finance.. slacked at home today.. was too lazy to go out so I didn't even go thomson to get my contact lens.. mum said she'll pick it up for me tmr!! yeah! that just saves me a trip from going down to thomson.. lol.. and yes! peanut butter with chocolate is addictive.. super addicted to it.. lol.. tmr's lunch with my P2 CATS.. getting a lift from auntie lily and I'm meeting nat at 11.30.. so I guess I'll leave the house at 10.50?? lol..

anyway, as we finished our tests today, the guys were discussing about the bbq on tuesday as well.. ben's going to desheng's place to do MBS project (at which, I have no idea when my group is starting...) and couse I have no idea of how to get to shaun's place other than taking bus 22 and then stop where?? I decided to meet them in the afternoon at desheng's place and go with them.. that just saves me the trouble of wondering how in the world to get to shaun's place.. especially when I'm such a road idiot.. and yes! ROAD IDIOT!! so lol.. have informed desheng and ben alr.. and both are fine with it.. lol.. as for transport back, heehee.. who else can I come back with other than desheng? ok, maybe together with those who are staying in the east which I think not many? Kelly's not confirmed.. she has something on that day and she said she'll try to make it.. not sure about maio feng.. she also got smth on.. so lol.. owells.. at the most, just share cab again.. haha.. and this time, mum knows I'm having a CLASS BBQ.. so lol.. haha.. 4 more days and I'm looking forward to it.. haha.. close friends will know why.. lol.. :) anyway, take care peeps!! will update more another day!! happy hols!! :)

since I've finished studying for my paper tmr, I decided to blog.. not as if i kept my word and stayed away from blogging this week.. lol.. last paper tmr.. I hope I'll do fine.. anyway, did I mention that I got into HR and finance?? tgt with shaun, ben and melvin.. lol.. at least gt company.. haha.. and hopefully we end up in the same class.. lol.. a lot of things happened during the week.. chats and lunch with yr 1 frens.. a little unhappiness btw me and the 2 gals?? if you wld consider it as one?? we haven been talking to each other for very long.. at least, I still talk to kelly.. owells.. it's just for another term.. and hopefully, things go well the next term after our june hols!! will most prob be gg down to thomson tmr to get my contact lens supply after my paper.. hui yee haven confirmed with me whether we're meeting.. call her later and ask her.. saturday is lunch appointment with P2 CATS.. looking forward to it?? heehee.. I also dunno.. all I know is, I think I'll miss him during the hols.. :S

I just needed to blog for a while now... I realised that I can't seem to write any too-personal stuff here anymore, like him.. cause people are reading this.. owells.. but I guess it's still my choice on whether I wanna blog about him and personal stuff.. lol.. ok, the momentum's broken.. let's hit the notes again.. =) happy mugging frens!! =)

hey girls: I'm really sorry.. I really forgot to ask you two along until I talked to one of you this evening and saw your blog.. I'm seriously sorry and it wasn't done on purpose.. If you're upset and angry with me, I truly apologise.. I really am...

mugging for mid sem tests this week.. wun update till after mid sem.. =)