just had a sudden urge to blog after reading my dear god-bro's blog on a post he entered last year... suddenly so many tots surfaced... it happened last year... and for the past few mths, i realised i've changed a lot.. i seldom argue with my parents even though i still do but take it this wae, the arguements have become lesser... although i still do a little whining here and there but tell me frankly and honestly, haven't i changed mentally?? haven't i grown up?? i dun wish to sae this but i'll be honest, i still cry at night when i miss her.. i still want to mention her in my conversations although it's painful yet i dun wanna really really admit she's no longer around.. just mentioning her will make me feel that she's still around.. but we all know the real fact... special occasions just remind me of her... the most recent one?? my cousin's birthday celebration.. the upcoming one?? my birthday celebration.. i nv expected that last year's birthdays would be the last time she celebrated with us be it mine or my cousins or sisters... i won't know whether i'll cry again this coming christmas but i know she'll wan us to be strong.. it seems very long since she left yet recalling the mths, it's only close to 8 mths.. is it long or is it short?? but i know if i do cry again this year, it'll just show how fast time flies and it's a year gone.. many things happened yet all this made us even more stronger and more mature.. but i just realised that hey, within the next few years, i'll mature even more and be a stronger person.. owells.. GOD has his plans for all of us... and i TRUST in HIM.. :)