read my sister's blog. yup, she's gone for 5 months now. tears somehow welled up in my eyes as i was reading it, and you know wad? i'm currently in school. typing this. sometimes i wonder, is she listening to us? is she praying for us now that she's a step closer to God. mayb she does hear us and does pray for us. time will heal all wounds, i guess. but it won't be so soon.. well, at least for me. ok, back to lessons.

my computer's lagging.. again. argh. can't seem to blog using my account. so currently using my mum's account to do my blogging. sch seems fine now. still settling down. yes, i adapt very slowly to new changes, new environment. but frens made are fun to be with. busy week this week. projects all slowly surfacing. meeting up in school to discuss project and stuff. so rather tired this week. dunno why also as compared to the other weeks. fell sick last week. was down with high fever on wed night, slight fever on thurs. fever went down completely on last fri and was on mc that day. but the cough still doesn't seem to go awae. still coughing but seems slightly better todae after visiting the doc on wed after csa class. like dots, i'm on medication again. how nice. -.- almost half a year has come and is soon going. mum, dad and angel leaving for rome next mon. so this will practically leave me alone at home during the day when the sisters are all at work. how nice. hopefully the tears dun come back again. KC's family day is next sat. will be helping out with mum and can't wait! can like finally get to see some classmates again like berlyn, caroline and gang! hopefully tracy will go back. haven seen her for a month or so and i miss her lotsa. as in back at those days, she was the one who would go crazy and we would yak away on 56. but now? hardly tok to her. either she's busy or i'm busy. so really hoping to see her back at KC. of course, looking forward to see others too! hoping they'll go back that day! haha. ok, time to move on and get my research done for my comm skills in-class assignment.

the tears have somehow stopped. but i'm still feeling scared, uneasy, insecure and stressed. scared, uneasy and insecure by the various things taking place and stressed by the online lecture notes and stuff. but all in all, i'm still slowly adapting. i still need time. everyday when i go to school, smses will be sent to my sisters and my mum. so i guess i still can sae, i'm still not exactly looking forward to school. but den again, school so far has been more or less quite interesting. ok, yes, i'm contradicting myself. hopefully tmr will be ok esp. when mum leaves home to go to school. after this week, i'm just hoping mum dun go to school on wed then i'll be fine. then again, mum has to be in school early on thurs and fri so chances is, she'll leave the hse earlier than me, leaving me to lock up or we leave the same time. of course, i'm hoping to leave the same time then i wun think too much. i mean, everytime for these few days, each time i'm alone at home, i tend to think too much. so just hoping that after a few more weeks, things will just get better for me. owells...