can't believe i just broke down today after hearing the news.. i mean, i can't help it.. it's just too sudden and he confirmed it with me himself.. gosh.. just wad exactly is happening to me? but then again, i'm happy that he found someone he liked.. i wanted to type smth bt decided not to just in case he ever pass by my blog and sees this.. den i'm dead meat.. haha.. owells.. bt i just found it too sudden as in.. he? at this age? like woa.. i didn't even expect he would get one at this age and point of time and it so happen i know the girl but i dunno if the girl know me.. haha.. owells.. anywae, back to smth happy bt still related to him.. i'm gg for emdd this year!! to support KC's production and gisella and berlyn!! afterall, we're classmates and i've known gisella for 4 yrs so shld at least go and support, huh? bt i'm not gg alone.. i'm gg with him.. owells.. hopefully no one i know misunderstand us that nite.. haha.. bt that would also mean that i can't watch my lu guang and ge dou!! :( haiz.. bt for gissy, i'll sacrifice.. like woah!! wad a big sacrifice!! >.< haha.. so yup, overall, i'm gg.. had a chinese compo test cum competition yesterdae.. ms teh returned us our papers - unmarked - cause it was badly done and she read mine out in class again.. foreva.. and wad did she say? an essay that was at least correctly written.. i didn't have much confidence in that essay cause it was btw me and IT.. so yah.. oh, IT and him is 2 diff. persons.. so yah.. haiz.. hopefully i do well for this compo test cum competition.. yikes!! there's a maths test tmr.. better go and do some review on it b4 mum comes home and sees me on the com.. haha...

WHEE!! feeling a bit high now.. just went to the new j-star website.. it's super nice!! and 56 now got their own personal blog!! of course, other j-star members too.. that's great.. then can go and see how they are doing.. esp. xiezhi.. he's so cute in his post.. and ok, i'm a bit slow.. the new website was established at the beginning of this month.. haha.. bt nvm.. he finally got his own blog.. so does shaowei and mengzhe.. zhi's leaving at the end of this month (that's wad he said) to the mainland for a new show.. think will miss him lotsa.. hopefully wan yu hold a farewell party for him afterall, he alwaes come and dai ban wan yu if shaowei or mengzhe cannot make it and also he update his blog often though he isn't very good at it.. haha.. anywae, school's beginning tmr.. drats.. this means that lesser time will have to be spent on the tv and of course, the computer.. i dun think i'll come online during weekdays unless it's really necessary.. and of course, i'm gonna miss reading j-star blogs regularly.. haha.. owells.. anywae, off to read more artistes blogs!! haha..

didn't intend to blog until i saw caroline's blog.. haha..

1.Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!"

"I have been tagged!" by caroline.. haha.. :p
Favourites

Favourite Colour: purple and blue
Favourite Food: homecooked food and anything else that is yummy!!
Favourite Song: mainly chinese songs that people find it's too cheena..
Favourite Movie: not a movie person
Favourite Sport: swimming?
Favourite Day of the Week: fridays and sats..
Favourite Season: i dun mind all!!
Favourite Ice Cream: YAM!! bt it's fattening..

Currents

Current Mood: ???
Current taste: i didn't eat anything since after lunch..
Current Clothes: shirt and shorts..
Current Desktop: 56's picture!! haha.. typical 56 fan..
Current Toenail Colour: colourless
Curent Time: 1724h (time when i'm doing this now..)
Current Surroundings: sister walking up and down the hse with the tv in her room on..
Current Annoyances: HW not done,,
Current Thoughts: my leg's hurting and i'm supposed to rub it..

First

First Best Friends: all are good frens, very good frens.. nt really best frens..
First Crush: not saying.. bt i think some ppl are able to guess...
First Movie: can't rmb?
First Lie: also can't rmb.. i've got short term memory yet i can rmb almost everything to do with 56
First Music: piano!!

Lasts

Last Cigarette: i NV smoke cause smoking is unhealthy..
Last Drink: water..
Last Car Ride: a few hrs ago..
Last Crush: not saying.. duh..
Last Movie: pirates of the carribean? which was yrs ago?
Last Phone Call: tara which was yesterdae..
Last CD played: zhang shanwei's first album - shi xin feng

Have you ever

Have you ever dated one of your best friend: definitely not!!
Have you ever broken the law: wad kind of law??
Have you ever been arrested: nah.. i'm a guai kia..
Have you ever skinny-dipped: no.. i'm conservative..
Have you ever been on TV: yup..
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: no.. my first kiss is impt!!

5 things you are wearing: necklace, earrings, shirt, shorts and... idunnowadelse..
4 things you done today: gone to church, bathed, watch tv and complete another 1/5 of my eng hw..
3 things you can hear right now: my sisters' tv, my typing on the keyboard and.. my sister's voice..
1 thing you do when you are bored: eat!! bt it makes me put on weight.. -.-
5 People to do this: clare, char tan, michele and any other 2 who wants to do this..
END OF SURVEY!

suddenly had the urge to start blogging.. haiz... was reading aretha's blog just now.. and it triggered my tots and reflections.. time do pass very fast.. 2003, i entered KC.. entered a new environment and made new and many frens.. 2004, the bonds btw frens grew stronger and affairs of the heart just struck me.. made even more frens thru a new cca and better friendships with frens from the same class.. almost at the end of 2004, was nominated to be a prefect with hui yee and others bt i rejected.. didn't see the need to become one and lose my frens if they couldn't understand my duty.. and i didn't and wun regret my decision though i sometimes feel i shldn't have reject it.. 2005, the same thing happened.. a new class with new classmates.. had fun with them though we weren't very united as compared to my former class.. 2006, final year in KC.. sitting for 'O' levels in a few months and getting more and more scared yet that kind of fearfulness cannot be explained and may be can't even be experienced for some others.. i nv knew that time would actually pass so soon.. just like for church, it's been 10 years and in july, i'm gonna officially end cathechism with my confirmation.. i suddenly have this fear.. this fear of doing badly in exams, this fear of not doing to wad is expected of me be it by parents or family or even myself.. i just don't know now.. i feel at a loss.. it seems everything's coming to an end.. in school and in cathechism classes.. after this year, will we ever meet again? will we ever meet up for chats and parties.. and will the closest of the closest of my frens ever lose contact with me? or the frens whom i've known for 10 years.. i really dunno.. all these just seem to have triggered me.. these tots and feelings.. i have this sense of fearfulness that can nv be described in this point of time.. mayb like wad renfu said, at this point of time, other than studying, i really dunno wad to do and wad my life is becoming.. is it becoming more fruitful or is it becoming more useless.. haiz.. owells.. there's nth i can do much abt it, rite? other than focusing on my studies now and try to do as well as possible for 'O' levels?? anywae, school is starting again next week.. when school starts, i'll be busy with exams, with prelims, with tests and of course, with stress.. think will not be online as often.. if i can come online once every 2 weeks or once a month, i think it would be quite ok.. then i can have more time in studying for my exams and tests and focus more on studies.. bt will i be able to do it? hopefully so if GOD give me the strength and determination and HE will help me through the next half of the year until after 'O' levels... owells.. i have to get back to my maths.. gtg now.. tata...

back from camp yesterdae.. actually i came back on sat. nite.. haha.. wasn't feeling well so came home.. felt like puking after dinner.. could be the food bah.. oh and i wasn't the only one who came back home.. michael also went back.. he also nt feeling bt i went back on sun morning, he didn't.. tsk tsk.. haha.. so basically, saturdae was just reflections, reflections and MORE reflections.. was quite sleepy and slept each time they told us to close our eyes and think.. of course, i did some thinking lah.. so yah.. yesterdae was feeling slightly better and the programmes were also better.. had games in the morning after breakfast till lunch.. was quite hot and sweaty after the games.. so me and char went to take a shower b4 lunch and thank goodness we came first.. otherwise we would have to wait for ages.. cause there was only one shower.. >.<>.< haha.. bt it was ok lah.. afterall, it's not like i like him so yah.. owells, yesterdae marked the end of me having fun and relaxing.. it's back to mugging and doing and completing all my hol. hws this last 2 weeks of hols.. gosh, it's so fast and i'm still rushing thru hw.. shall be a good girl and do my hw everydae.. hopefully.. OUR JOURNEY BEGAN WITH A JIGSAW PUZZLE SO OUR JOURNEY SHALL THUS END WITH A JIGSAW PUZZLE.. that was wad marcus said to us yesterdae at the last minor session.. think will miss the sundae 8.45am cathechism class after confirmation esp. those who i seldom see and those who have been in the same class as me since pri. 1 like char who kept me company and vice versa during the camp.. will we ever meet again for some of us? i really dunno..