gosh.. got back results.. gotten a damn scolding from mum (which actually i think i deserved it) bt.. i just feel that when it comes to results, i just feel that when i do not as well as wad they expected, yes, scolding shld be given bt at least give some words of encouragement.. and when i do well, there's no words of praise or encouragement.. so was really a bit pissed off and upset until after watching wan yu which really made me happy again..

i seriously think if you ask me, that my mum isn't a good mum.. as in, during the exam period, she didn't even bother to ask me how was my exams.. instead she was more worried for the class that she was doing relief teaching for.. she actually showed me that she didn't really bother abt my exams and grades bt when the results show, she just start blaming everything on me.. and after telling her i wanna go poly, she seemed so against it.. bt no matter at the end of the year, even if i can make it to jc, i wun go jc, i rather go poly.. seriously and i mean it.. i really wonder if she ever bother to find out how i'm feeling.. and the best thing was she actually cursed her future grand-daughter will be like me.. -.- some stupid mother of mine.. i'm sorry to sae this bt this is just wad i see at times..

owells.. shan't make myself upset over this.. afterall, i'm prepared to do some hard work the next half of the year.. nt because of her, bt for myself and for XIEZHI!! haha... as in seriously, he alwaes wanted us, fans to do our best in studies and in wadeva we do.. so yah, i shld do my best for HIM and for myself and nt for my stupid parents (mean of me to sae that bt to me, again, it's smth that i see).. anywae, having tots of dropping a maths.. toked to mrs ooi and my nanny abt it.. haven't toked to the parents and my tuition teacher yet.. will ask my tuition teacher abt it tmr.. as for the parents, my nanny saed she'll try to tok my mum into letting me drop if i really decide to.. cause mrs ooi is actually trying to get me to try again.. bt i just dun see the point of continuing it if i can't do well in it.. that's the prob.. owells.. i just dunno lah.. will think abt it and tok to my tuition teacher den see how.. anywae, i bought myself a new skirt and a new halter!! cool.. spent 30 bucks on it.. :p haha.. bt it's nice.. shall go and get more of halters and mini skirts and nt bother abt wad the parents think cause it's my life nt theirs!!

gt back results over the last 3 daes.. nt exactly dat fantastic.. and i mean it.. it's all average passes or border line fail and i can't stand it when that happens esp. if you can't find the extra marks that is needed.. -.- so yah.. here's my results (range given only..)

english : 55-60, C5
e maths : 50-54, C6
a maths : 40-44, E8
chinese: 60-64, B4
geog : 50-54, C6
combined humans : 35-39, F9
chemistry : 45-49, D7
physics : 50-54, C6

i can't believe i actually pass physics and failed chem.. and my chem is stronger than my physics.. bt den again, the physics paper was frm the TYS so naturally, we done well.. -.- actually failed e maths but mrs chua was so nice dat she looked for marks for me to pass.. and she scolded me in return for being lazy and etc.. bt come to think of it, the paper was difficult so it wasn't exactly my fault.. ok, mayb it was my fault but still.... failed a maths and combined humans terribly.. as in yes, terribly.. and i passed geog!! whee!! haha.. however, that's nth to be proud of.. and i needed a few more marks to get my B3 for chinese.. damn upset.. feel so disappointed in myself this term just based on results and tell you honestly, i haven't really done my best.. cause if i did, this wun be the results i'm getting.. but nvm!! after i've enjoyed my day tmr, i'll work hard frm sundae onwards in preparation for chinese 'O's.. and i mean it!! gonna see dear tmr!! miss him lotsa!! that's great and his other pals.. haha.. finally after how long... think will be damn happy and tired tmr.. bt it's worth it.. owells.. gotta buck up during the hols.. and i think mrs ooi will wanna see mum and dad cause of my results.. haiz.. i promise i will work harder this time round.. I PROMISE!! i think i've let mum and dad down.. -.-

EXAMS ARE OVER!! yes.. for the time being though.. haha.. but at least i get a break frm books.. ok, mayb except for chinese.. had chinese LC todae and b4 we left, our nice chinese teachers gave us a surprise by giving us chinese papers to do, to prepare us for the coming GCE 'O' levels in like 3 weeks time?? ok, mayb less than 3 weeks.. but seriously, i dun mind doing so long as i am able to get an A for chinese(preferably an A1)... but of course, i've got to put in my own effort as well.. but overall, exams are over.. haha.. i think i screwed up most of my papers.. ok, mayb all except chinese and mayb physics.. haha.. but still... in conclusion, i think i'll damn badly for my papers.. afterall, they're just killing us with them.. so yah.. haha.. fell sick during the exam period which was terrible and it so happened that i came down with fever on my geography and chemistry paper.. haha.. but i'm still fine though with a little runny nose.. haha.. anywae, i'm gg on a nini shopping spree tmr with nicole.. wah.. after so many years of knowing her, we're finally gg out together without caro and gang.. haha.. wierd huh?? but it's fine with me cause at least we get to tok abt things we seldom tok abt in school.. haha... so yah.. will be gg shopping tmr.. and on tuesdae to celebrate that girl's burfdae.. haha.. owells..