just a short post b4 i get back to my books.. been busy with tests and the upcoming exams these few daes.. stay in school till late afternoon for extra maths lessons and other lessons as well.. been really tired, physically and mentally, and numb to all that is happening but still, i've got feelings so still feel a bit exhausted and tired of all that tired.. just had brokedown again last nite and early this morning but it wasn't anything much.. just wanted to let out my feelings so like yah.. feeling only a little better.. i think will be feeling this wae for the next 2 to 3 weeks till exams are over.. oh!! my dad asked me to study hard for exams and my reply was " that is if i dun get a mental block during that exam.." haha.. and he had nth else to sae.. i mean, for those who know me well, know i get mental blocks during exams.. ok, mayb not only exams but tests.. so how bad can that be?? so yah, just hopefully i dun get a mental block during the coming exams and yesterdae i had a chinese test.. sort of CA.. i think i'm not gonna get my A.. reason being i didn't do the last question of compre that was worth of 12 marks!! 12 marks you know!! gosh!! i think i'm just gonna do badly for that paper.. but luckily it's not counted in the exam but still.. i can only sae i'm disappointed in myself this term.. very disappointed.. haiz..

i shall state my stand!! i'm not angry with her which = to i'm not being petty.. it's just that i dun feel i'm at fault and i shldn't be the first one to sae sry.. get it?? this all happened when she kicked me just becoz' she tot i was the one who pushed her( but it wasn't me..) and she didn't even open her eyes to see who was standing behind her and expectedly tot it was me who pushed her.. and yes, although i did hit her, but she was the one who kicked me first and did not sae sorry even though she knew she was wrong.. and if she did sae sorry, i wun have hit her.. and even if she said sorry and i hit her, i would also have said sorry.. but NO~~ she didn't sae sorry.. so if that's the case, shldn't she be the one who is supposed to apologise now and not me?? and she's not only angry over this stupid matter but those that happen in the past too.. now that it is wad i call PETTY!! and i'm not even angry with her when she hit me when i didn't lor..

i mean, i've had enough.. all these years, i think i've been too nice.. giving into people and alwaes end up at the losing end.. and alwaes the one who has to sae sorry first even if i'm not the one at fault.. is this fair?? fair to me?? i dun think so.. i've really had enuf.. ok, if i tot i was in the wrong i would apologise and even if i feel i'm not wrong but in actual fact, i am, i will apologise cause my conscience will bug me.. but now, i dun feel i'm wrong and my conscience is not bugging me.. i'm just too nice.. letting people get over my head.. sometimes i feel i shld actually stop being too nice.. only being nice to people who deserve me being kind to them.. but to such a person like her, i dun think so lor.. yes, i admit, i may be a bit unreasonable at times but helloz?? at least i try to stop being unreasonable and admit i'm at fault.. but she?? stupid petty person.. sometimes i feel, i dun have such a fren like her is fine with me.. i dun care for such a petty fren like her.. and i mean it.. if i really lose such a fren, it's fine with me.. afterall, i can be an introvert.. gosh, just toking abt her just makes me wanna puke.. can't believe i'm blogging this... ANYWAE, TRACY, I'M NOT IMPLYING YOU'RE AT FAULT OK?? JUST TYPING IT BIG SO THAT YOU CAN SEE!! HAHA..